a bday chalet next yr?

seeing xl's bday party.. really tempts me to have one next yr too.. it has been my dream? wish? to have a large scale party on my bday.. havin my bday on a sat this yr.. is tt a sign tt i shld have it.. also.. it is right smack during the NUS recess week.. and 1 week of chinese new year.. ren ri.. it will everyone's bday actually... hmmmmmm.but the tt of the plannin..hmmm maybe i shld nt be so fickled minded and just go ahead...hmmmmm how?....

gatherings

Sunday
for the past few days.. i went to 2 gatherings.. the first one was my YEP gathering. went to this jap place at marina sq.. it was fantastic!! great food at reasonable price.. totally love it.. will patron it once again.. there were liek 12 of us.. it has been liek soooo long since we met.. i had this beef set thingy where u had to pour an uncooked egg into this beef hotplate and cook it.. it came with this mashed potato salad thingy, a rice and a ramen.. omg. the ramen was soo good... we ordered paper steamboat too... i def will give tt place a thumbs up!!! def a must try place.. hope to see another gathering soon yupz.. prob during chinese new yr?

monday was a day of work.. was really playin too hard for the past week already... so had to type my report to boss.. complete it within 40min.. wow.. i am good haha... the rest of the day was spent online surfing ard.. bummin ard.. in the afternoon, my gor jio me out... ben, him and jy were at expo for some church services... wanted to meet for dinner.. ALL of us were fickled minded... and i mean fickle minded.. we can't decide where to go ... well in the end we went to sing K!!! omg i met Lisa.. omg. she is really a GOOD singer.. norm i will be the best singer or so lah.. but this time i must really salute her.. lol...

Tues was another nuahin day.. woke up at 1130 am.. wanted to go sch to grab stuff but it was rainin the whole day so i jsut slept... haha results was scheduled to be out at 3pm.. was really kan cheong for the whole day!!! OMG!!! i had butterflies in my stomach.. omg... BUT at 1240pm jy sms me and said tt results r oout... so i went to check... well i am glad i did ok.. i guess hard work really do pays off.. went out with my jie meis.. omg.. really miss them gals.. we must really meet up more often.. once or twice in a yr is soo nt enough... hmmmm i am supposed to plan a cookin session soon.. okies i will try hard... really busy....

tts:
everytime we meet up... there will be general idea or theme.. this time was more of adults stuff.. n ya nt wat u pple r thinkin... opps.... or is it me... alot of them r workin already.. now the topics r like findin jobs.. how to earn money, investments.. it is a real topic tt is going to hit me really soon.. i think i need to start to think abt it... and start lookin for a job... i am totally excited.. for this new phase in life... no longer dread it... it is just the beginning of a new life.. OMG!!!

my dresses

i am super into dresses nowadays... also dunno y.. maybe learning to dress up more maturely? look more womanly rather than girly? went out with my mummy today and sis and aunties and grandmum... bought 2 dresses today.. 1 a brown wrap ard.. totally love it... made me look slim and nice.. mummy said it was a little too low cut.. but i find it ok.. love it.. will wear it soon.... the other was a really smart blue flowered dress.. hmm i am very into such dressed recently.. bought another dress like only last week.. it was a blue spa dress... alittle baby doll type.. wore it to the banquet.. i think it look great on me.. oh no i noe.. BHB again.. but i really loved it.. made me look so girly.. :P i must jy to lose more wt to fit into my dream dresses.. those baby tube dresses.. tt look so princess.... :P

some tts:

r 2 pple really made for each other... sometimes my frens tell me tt aye this person not suitable for ya lah... tt i shld deserve someone better... some say this guy is great.. shld keep.. hmmm R 2 pple really create and made to compliment each other in this world? i believe that.. no one is perfect in this world. it is never impossible to find someone who will compliment ya fully.. i believe tt couples should grow and learn from each other.. learn to compliment each other.. and create a beautiful story ahead of them... too idealistic? this is sth for ya to judge den... :P

PS: havin some prob with my blog. can anyone tell me how to shift the right side column further upwards? i am totally clueless.

What an eventful week

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Mon-wed
Went to the symposium held at Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel. It was really an eye-opener for me.. So many prof and scientist all gathered in Singapore for a conference and lectures. attended a couple of lectures related to lanthanides and it was insightful.. realised that there are pple in this world doing similar things to me.. but different d block metal i guess. PHEW.. the food was good esp the brownies... yummmy.. must learn to make it..

signed up for being a tour guide on the 2nd night.. the plan was to go to Night safari initially.. but due to the rain... we changed it to where u noe!!!!!! VIVO city... omg.. it is the place tt i have been going to for the past mths... luckily for me.. i knew where to eat and shop... :P it was really fun to bring the profs out.. they were all so adorable... :) kept asking us questions... abt everything in sg... :P nice experience.. din regret going....

the banquet reminds me of a wedding dinner.. it is quite a nice place to hold one though the food was not tt great. but the ambience was great.. prob it was due to the pple... the cocktail was a little boring... as my usual gang was not there.. But i enjoyed the dinner.. cos jack and i were planning xl's bday party games.. haha.. we were tryin hard to make sure that she din see the games.. wanted it to be a surprise for her... Oh it was XL's bday party the next day at downtown east.. i volunteered to be her game mistress.. haha... roped in the help of SUresh and Jack.. :P

The day finally came.. for our darling gal XL!!.. we started off with all meetin at my place to help me to carry stuff.. i had the big basket thingy and a water tumbler.. and of course my PINK bag.. :P went down to fang yi's place.. den me, suresh and jack were busy coming up with the games and what jack said.. synthesis.. of the games..( it was just cutting paper and writing stuff) well when ya bring tog a grp of chem guys, their topics always revloves ard chemistry... well i guess their love for chemistry is really there ya :P fang yi, wan si and audrey were busy with the presents... we spent such a long time at fang yi's place and i was super hungry... cos i din really eat a gd breakfast.. was feeling super hungry... ps.. pple for being so grouchy... haha..just hungry lah..

Finally the time came at xl's bday party. haha.. all the gals were dressed up.. omg.. all of us looked so pretty.. but OF course our darling XL was the prettiest.. she was the shinning star tt night.. :P BUt i must salute the guys... they were great.. set up the bbq pit and volunteered to bbq... kudos to u pple.. :P next time if i got bbq, will call along u pple.. :P oh must say.. ck, jack and suresh were dressed in their flowerly shirts it was damn funny... they look like pple workin in sentosa or some pple tt u will hire to bbq for ya.. haha.. if ya want their services.. feel free to contact them.. hahha we played the games... it was fun esp the part with what is XL!!! a test of how well u noe her.. omg... tt is fun... den pple started to leave... with the NUS gang cont to stay for the night.. we played the game heart attack improvised by Kelvin.. OMG!!! it was damn fun!!! i totally loved it.. PS: guys i din mean to stick onto the wall lah.. but it was like just next to me.. so it is easier for me to stand up and stick onto it mah. hahah. For the rest... ask me for the improvised version yup!!!! den we went on to play polar bear. omg 2 hrs with tt game is no joke.. super draining... finally indian poker was a nice change.. ended with tt though.. den i think everyone cld not take it and start to crash... went home after tt to crash... and slept the whole friday.. omg.. so piggy.. ahhaah.. but this is one of the best bday parties i been to... lots of fun cos of u guys... XL thanks for organising this... :P it is temptin me to organise one myself too!!!!! :P

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Thoughts:
The eventful past week was tiring.. BUT i never had so much fun.... symposium was a good place to gain experience and knowledge... from knowing more abt more project to gainin experience of being a tour guide.. i think i am so for it man!!!! :P shld consider changin line to this... :P i got to noe more pple better.. it was really fun working with them... and love working with them... i think now it wld be from a hi-bye thing to a how was ya day conversation... looking forward to more of such gatherings...

in love with salsa once again...

went to dance salsa with my kakis today after like 1 mth of non-salsa...IT Was only 1 word.. FUN more FUN and MORE FUN!! omg.. it is definetly.. miss it soo much... had a few hiccups initially.. but gt back on track after awhile.. the feeling of dancing it again on tt same dance floor is really great... want to cont more often... hope we can all progress on to learn sth new... Casino? oh mic came with his gf. omg.. they look soooo cute when they dance tog.... really envy them. :P

went out with ah gong just now.. we were talkin abt certain issues.. he told me tt suaning a guy is like u like him. OMG.. NO JOKE... i tt it was the other way rd.. Praising him shld be right? cos guy's ego damn big.. they liek to feel good n not kenna suan right.. omg.. ah gong... think u r unique lah... :P

PS: ah gong take care of long ti... rest well and jia yo for ur job!!! :P okies will try to rem ya bday present one.. BUT i want my christmas present..

Blurrrrr...

BLur..... hehe i am not BLurrr or confused.. i am totally sane... i noe wat i am doing.. since we r on this topic.. some guys tell me tt gals like to act blur.. maybe i can offer some enlightment on this.. :).. wat r the cases we act blurr.. 1) when he finally takes the courage to say tt he like her.. AND!!!! THE GAL DOES NOT LIKE HIM. .. well to save his face and his ego.. we often act blur and change topic... :) it is quite true.. otherwise in situations when he is droppin hints.. we also act blurr.. hahaha... 2) acting blur when the gal want to get out of an situation. eg... kenna suanned by pple... will change topic and act as if she does not hear.. this is wat i call selective hearing... hmm sounds familar right hahaha...

this dec is just starting to get exciting... so many things happening.... i am just sooo excited.. got myself a dress... omg.. i want to change my image to more lady-like... sweeter and prettier.. :) well but also still remain cheerful......

我最亲爱的。。。

亲爱的为什么你还不敢承认呢

亲爱的我们都是脆弱的人

亲爱的别牵着没感觉的手

不怪你 太爱你

才说不出口

亲爱的我也不相信心会疲倦的

亲爱的我们别再骗自己了

亲爱的听时间的话放开手

别感伤应该感动

我最亲爱的。。。

i found my ice cream!!!! Ben and Jerry's New York Fudge Chocolate!!! OMG!!!!!

was pretty stressed out this morning... suddenly had a lost feeling.. but after speaking to my shifu, i feel hopeful and focused... THANKS SHIFU!!!! MUACKS!!!!! but decided to give myself a treat by catching a movie in town... went to watch trust the man... omg.. the critics gave it a C+.. but!!!! IT WAS a surprisingly SWEET SHOW... it had the topic on TRUST!!!! whether to believe in your man... the story revolves around 2 couple; an older and a younger. the older couple faced problems like the guy was havin an affair and the female lead found out.. well.. it was great that the male lead realised that he was wrong and din cont with the affair.. it brings up a prob tt my clique had discuss... wat if one day u finds out that ur husband cheats on ya.. wat will ya do... sth to ponder on....

the younger couple faced a prob of different directions. i always believe that a couple should grow together in every aspects of life.. this couple had been tog for 7 yr and the gal thinks tt they shld get married and have a kid.. but the guy does not want. in the end the gal chose to leave the guy and dated other man.. well.. the guy realised that he loves the gal alot.. and does not want to give up this r/s and chase her back.. well.. is this really love or just a habit havin her around.. it is a question that i sometimes ponder. can 2 pple get together cos they r used to each other and may not love each other? :)

i think it is a blessing to find someone u can trust totally and have the same common goals in life and work towards a better tml... i am still hopeful...

PS: got my fav BEN N JErry's ICE-CREAM!!! it never fails to make my happy.. A must when i am PMSing... :P

PINK!!!!

sitting in front of the com now.. just ate baked sweet potato tt my little sis made.. it was exceptionally SWEET!!!! cos it was by her.. omg.. feelin alittle sian..as has been doing work since 2pm.. well... taking a break now.. reading blogs online...

yesterday went shoppin with my family.. was a GIANT VIVO!!! omg.. first i saw PINK plastic cups, den i saw PINK tissue.. den i saw PINK Smarties.. den PINK Marshmallow... den PINK sparkling juices..omg... and the tt of xl's bday party came to mind... really feel like throwing a PINK birthday party next yr.. how does tt sounds... hmmmmmm my sis were all urgin me to do so... wat do ya think? hmmmmmmmmm....

Service Line in SINGAPORE

is service in Singapore getting worse or my expectations increasing? R we too used to just payin the 10% service charge and not expect anything? i am not tryin to be critical or stingy but i think there is indeed alot of room to grow especially in the service sector. maybe Singapore shld consider either paying the service staff really well and thus their staff will be happy and thus take pride in their job... eg pple in Japan or even Thailand!!! Or we shld really adopt the tipping system. this will make the service staff more enthusatic in their jobs and earn the respect of the consumers.. I seriously think that the Singapore Service Industry should really change. I am someone if u treat me nice and with respect.. i will compliment you... but it is damn tough to find such serice staff now.. everyone takes 10% for granted.

Ok i noe i sound really horrible.. esp when i am tellin everyone that i want to enter this line.. u guys r going to tell me i am sure nt able to take all the shit from my future customers... but i am faith in wat i am going to do.. if i believe in it.. i am sure that i will excel in it.. i will definietly have lots of pride in watever i am going to do in future..

a point to ponder..... Service Line In Singapore

幸福。。。。。。幸福。。。。幸福。。。。。

我真得很幸福。。。。。。。。幸福。。。。幸福。。。。。

sipping.. a cup of hot milk... feelin so 幸福....... went out with my usual gang today..plus suresh, wansi and jack... :) it is such a long time since we gathered n had a let ya hair down session.. Went to breko!!! haha... the usual place where we have beer... Ordered a Chicken LITTLE!!!! BUT　ｉｔ　ｗａｓ　ｌｉｋｅ　ＣＨＩＣＫＥＮ MAXIMUM!!! OMG!!!!!!! the servings was sooo huge i really cannot finish... i was stuggling with it...haha... gave like 1 whole piece to jack... thanks for helpin to eat... .. haha... next time shld not order tt much .. omg!!!! who wants more food can jio me for eatin sessions.. i will order and norm cannot finish one... hehe.. well uncle asked his norm questions again... alot of ADULＴ STUFF!!!.... but really loved one question... how much do ya think u r happy with NUS life... hey my labbies and frens!!! it u ask me just yr!! i will give full MARKS!!!! without even thinkin.. though work is tough but it U guys who made it seem liek a breeze and not having to slog thr all the tired and stressful moments!!!!!! really loved ya guys... MUACKS!!! okies.. i noe i am being mushy.. but u pple noe me..... hehe... totally love ya guys.. soo lookin forward to more gatherings... :) i will also make time for my old frens too i promise!!! :)

梁山伯与茱丽叶

为什么你还是不言不语

不言不语

难道是你不懂我的心

不管你用什么方式表明

我会对你说我愿意

like this part of the song alot... alot.. fell in love with the song when i first heard it.. really meaningful and sweet.. :) 曹格 is such a good singer... comparable to fany too...

I am Back!!

had lots of fun in the past 3 days.....

FRI 1/12

Went back to lab after the long break for exams... was really excited and had mixed feelings.. cos most of my labbies r not back.. uncle ben was back though.. haha he forever there one lah.. but luckily he was there... omg.... otherwise haiz.. dunno lah... haha.... anyway.. though there were some hiccups during lab.. but things was alright... i guess i was luckily to have pple to help me!!! :) so lucky.... my shifu gave me a PINK!!! bracelet!! OMG!!!! PINK!!!!!! is it tt obvious i really am in love with PINK!!!!!! must tone down liao!!! but shifu i love the bracelet!!! haha.. it suits my dark complexion!!! :) Thanks SHIFU!!!! ALSO!!!! 2 pple said tt i lost wt!!! oMG!!! i think exam stress lah!! but it really made my day!!!!! must lose more wT!!!! but i am happy for now!!!! went for a run with fang yi in the evening... wanted to run 10 rounds... but managed only 8.. must jia yo in future.. it was really a good run!!! met adrain, her senior... we chatted for 2 freaking hours.. omg... but it was great.. cos he is very knowledgeable.... though he is chatty but wat he says makes sense.. omg... haha... it was damn enjoyable talkin to him... din felt tt it was 2 hrs... haha.. by the time we finish talkin!! omg.. it was 920.. i was super hungry... we quickly showered.. and was ready by 940... speed leh!!! 20mins!!! omg.. our norm is 1 hr... haha.. took a cab to holland V and met up with uncle ben for dinner ( his's supper) at Brekkos.. OMG!!!!! we chated till 1am before heading home to crash!!! it is nice to have such a close Guy fren.. can seek his opinion on a guy's mindset.. and views... :) thanks uncle BEN!!! i was super tired but had lots of fun!!!! :)

PS: to ans ur question tt night, ben, my ans is prob a 0 out of scale from 0 to 100... for the moment :)


2/12

OMG... today.. it was family.. i was feelin quite tired from the previous day.. but went out with my family!!! :) we went to Tampines IKEA!!!! omg.. it was such a wrong decision!!! we waited for half an hour for the bus.... it was soooo long...... and there was a super long queue...... but 3 buses came at the same time andi got a seat... :P when we reached there.. omg.. i never see so many pple in my life b4..... went into the mall... they were giving out small read hearts.. so cute.. haha.. i guess i was not so mad after tt afterall.... wanted to shop for a new furniture for my sis's rm... but it was too croweded and we decided to go back to tampines malll!! went to kopitiam for lunch.. .omg.. the kopitiam there has sooo good food... hehe.... good variety and unique stuff... omg... i was definitely spoilt for choices.. after meal, i was feelin super duper tired... wanted to head home to zzzzzaz ahah.... but the lure of the com fair at expo was too great... went to expo.. there was the JOHN LITTLE MEGA sale... omg i was shoppin like mad!!! bought 2 pairs of shoes.. and a nice bag.... good bargain!!!!!!! omg omg... i din feel like sleeping after tt ahhaha... am i a shopaholic must control!!!!! OMG must tell ya guy sth!!!!! the queue at the cashier was FREAKING LONG!!!! there were like close to 20 counters!! but the queue was super long!! i waited for close to 1.5 hrs in the queuse OMG!!!!! OMG!!!!! never in my life i this happen!!!! if anyone from there is lookin at this... prob do an evaluation and improve the next time!!! OMG!!!! went home after tt was.. super drained.... cos i was in heels the whole day.. my back ache.. really bad... but was looking forward to my pizza dinner haha.. had bbq chicken...oooooo totally love it... except for ONIONS!!! omg was super tired... but stayed up to type a report to my boss heeh....Pat actually jio me to club.... was sooo tempted.... hehe... but din go cos work more impt hahaha

I hope next week wld be more happening.. and i believe it will be.... so lookin forward to it!! :)

fany is soo my dream guy!!!

i am sooooooooo in love with FANY from fly to the sky!! omg he is so cute.... shuai... dances really well.. hotter than RAIN!!! okies i noe i am so gonna get killed... and most impt!!!!! he has a voice tt melts my heart... okies... shld show u pple some photos.. haha he is from the pop grp from KOREA!!!! FLY TO THE SKY>>> omg... hmmmmm so shuai right!!! i noe u pple gonna say i hua chi again!!! but heck!!!! he is just so charismatic... :)



Went to sing K with Pat yesterday.. my god... it was horrible lah... not up to my norm standard hehe.... think i was too tired liao.. must zz well den got energy to sing.. must go sing k soon again

WEnt out with stef toda.y... she wld be leaving for a 17 days trip to New Zealand... haha... omg.. she has a cute love prob... which is bugging her.. well i hope tt things works out for her...

omg.. my mum is so cute today.. she told me tt my neighbour just broke up with his gf!!! and she was tellin me how gd he is ... omg... i got so irratated tt i asked her.. u can't wait to marry me out of the house right!! wah she best... her reply wat gt 1 spare rm more mah!!! diazo... i almost fainted.. but she is damn cute lah...

Fen to mummy: mummy if i cannot find someone tt i like... i dun want to settle for anyone okies.. :) at most i go outside n rent a room lah.. if ya want my room so badly.. kidding...

亲爱的

亲爱的我也不相信心会疲倦的

亲爱的我们别再骗自己了

亲爱的听时间的话放开手

别感伤应该感动

我最亲爱的。。。

..................................................................

可能你从来没感觉到

最好你永远感觉不到

爱上你 越来越无可救药

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2 sets of lyrics.. but they are just so powerful.....

Had a great studying day.

Woke up pretty early today at 8am... had decided to study in sch with huifang :). went out of the house with my mummy at around 915am. this was my usual and i tt i wld be early in sch today.. was super proud of myself!! haha .. reached the sch lib and guess wat... everyone else was eariler!!! jie ying, xiao ling and hui fang were there since 930am.. so ashamed of myself.. omg.. but was really gald to see themm really miss havin fun with them..everytime i see think i think of fun only omg!!! haha.. but u peeps really brighten up my day.. :) went to the toilet and on the way back, met a SA fren.. eng choon.. i still rem his name.. bet he forgot mine haha... nice chap.. was my 1st 3mth fren.. ooo we were catching up on the old days and what's happenin in our lives.. it was a nice and warm feeling.. :) miss those old days.. :)

after tt uncle ben sms me.. in sch? i replied haha otherwise where at the market? hmmm he was like so fierce for what.. and best he sms fang yi askin how long does a gal's period last.. omg... and suggested that he shld get chocolates.. den i was liek if ya dun get dun come hahahaha WAS I MEAN? omg.. sorry uncle ben.. dun mean anything okies... oh must compliment that it was a very gentlemanly act!! KEEP IT UP!!! hehe.. gals we got kuo fu le!! hehe i totally love the chocolate he bought. heheh

LUNCH Was sth i was lookin forward to.. actually we all look forward to everyday.. but dunno if everyone was stress or just tired... meals these few days r quite quiet.. i sure hope everyone is ok: )

continued to study in the afternoon .was quite confused abt a particular topic. wanted to find the prof but he was out.. so went to ask suresh.. haha.. thanks uncle for guiding me..

. slept abit in the lib hehe...den we went to xp's rm at ard 6pm.. wanted to jog.. was in our attire and guess wat!!! it rained.. omg.. i was so lookin forward to this jog.. BUT it rained.. well we waited for awhile and the rain stopped.. omg.. we were so thrilled.. omg omg.. so we went down to run.. on our way to the track.. it stormed... hiaz.. we ran all the way to the grandstand.. hehe.. the rain was really quite bad... we were totally soaked so we kinda waited for it to stopped. was deciding to check out the gym.. but in the end we waited.. there was lighting and thunder.. i was deciding if i shld run.. heh.. but ran for a while in the end.. and ran along the grandstand... omg.. cos the lighting was pretty bad.. after tt we went to munchie monkey to have dinner...alright.. enough of this... hehe.. back to books and mug...

PS: all the posts that i had created are soley to update my frens whom i don't meet often. they are just a written entry of my day's happening and thoughts.

ONLY Friends?

Woke up at 11 am today... the sleep was good man.. have not slept for tt long these few weeks liao... wanted to meet uncle ben for step up.. but he he din reply my sms.. too bad den... went to meet steffy at 330 today.. hehe... she want to get a present for her best fren... so we went to bugis street... wow... RETRO is still in ... hehe.. everywhere was flooded with pokka dots.. and LOUD music... we managed to get her fren a nice retro top.. it was 26 but steffy manage to get it at 22.. coolr ight... if i .. think 26 26 lor... ehhe... after tt 2 hrs of shoppin.. omg.. we were so drained lah.. must be the loud music... hehe.. we went over to bugis junction wanted to cont our shoppin spree.. BUT too shag liao.. so went to have dinner.. eheh... stef brought me to this really nice spagadies place. called sketches.. u can creat our own spagadies.. at quite a reasonable price... get to choose a max of 3 pasta , 1 sauce and 5 toppins... ooooo it was damn nice.. hehe... must intro it to fang yi.. she will be sooo thrilled lor.. hehe.. the pasta + serive charge and Gst was like ERH!!!!! 12 bucks.. nt bad... love tt place.. hehe... must go again.. hehe..

sth tt we spoke abt was whether a guy and gal can just purely be FRENS!!!!! she thinks it is possible... ME 2!!!!! but everyone must be clear.. haha.. it is so cute how she makes this pt clear with some of her guy frens.. TTT WE R JUST ONLY FRENS hehe..cute huh.. i shld practice this too.. :)

Mugg....

omg.. today was muggin in the sch lib from 10 till 5 plus.. for surface sci... i have never done tt b4... was just plain studyin studyin n more of tt... but i was luckily to have study mates... hf, xl and uncle ben.. hehe.. must really thank u peeps... correct so many of my mistakes.. omg... hehe... esp the HREELS AND IR part hehe... diaoz right.. went str for the test.. and dr sim went thr the paper str after tt.. omg.. there were alot of memory work part... think must pia for the finals liao...

after tt met suresh and gang.. they were thankin me for the soccer ball tt i passed them.. i was hoping tt they will practice lah.. and u noe.. wat guys if ya reading this lah.. but i think abit the er.... CAN OR NOT!!!! at least a tie lah.... hehe... but it a too nice ball to kick ard with lah i must agree hehe

went to NYDC to have dinner... we had our as usual uncle ben would you talk hehe..omg so many adult topics... oh no no NOT R21.. but more of mature stuff like gettin insurance..

came home today.. spoke to my mummy abt the family trip end yr.. still deciding if i shld got to taiwan with them.. but my fyp is at the back of my mind... i dunno i fi can play.. hmmm a decision tt i need to make b4 this weekend...

there is so much to do.. but so little time... hmmmmmm

TRUST

it takes alot of courage to trust someone fully. this is really tough... at least for me i find it tough.. for me .. either i trust u 100% and tell ya everything or it is the other.. normally in my case if i feel tt someone is sincere enough, can liao.. haha.. and tt is my bad pt too.. trust pple too much.. esp for frenships. and in the end get hurt. as for work... i find it tough to trust ppel unless i see if for myself.. tellin me is useless most of the time.

Trust is a big issue with r/s too.. i think it is quite impossible to ever find someone u can trust totally.. i really envy those who can do this. sometimes pple might say tt time is a the factor and eventually u will trust the person.. haha is this really true? can 2 pple believe wat the partner says.. hmmm i beg to differ. call me a pessimistic person. but i dun think tt will happen.. well BUT!!!!!!! ............................ i am still hopeful to find someone tt i can eventually trust.. :P wish me luck den!!! :)

LUNCH

was really sian this morning.. cos have been doing work for the past like 36 hrs.. hehe.. din really sleep properly last night... must be the tea!!! was turning and tossin on the bed... woke up damn early this morning.. 8plus.. was lazing on the bed.. din want to get up.. till 845am haha.. after breakfast was doing structural assignment.. quite challenging leh.. count till i see stars ahah..den cld take no more ..

met pat for lunch at VIVO.. haha... we went to sushi TEi... ate ebi bowl , fried squid, and salmon maki.. my fav was salmon maki... yum yumm.. the ebi bowl had lots of onions.. i hate onions.. eeeeek.... den we went to shop shop ard to digest the food.. ahhaha... i bought a necklace.. a pair of earings and heeh.. 2 CUTE clips... oooooo.. after which we headed for BEN and Jerry's ice-cream.. was quite full but heck, it is happy food.. it wld make me happy haha went to counter.. i was served by this really cute gal.. ya i mean gal.. she had big and pretty eyes.. hehhe like me.. and a beautiful smile... she was like r u 2 sharing.. y dun try the mix and match.. haha i was like.. er give me a min.. cos WAS really fulll , wanted a small scoop only.. but den after tt i was like ..er price abt the same.. so we got the mix and match.. we had New York super fudge choc, cookies and cream and Dublin Mudslide.. ( contains RUM) haha.. and almonds and hot fudge.. super sinful lah.. omg...... but heck... pat loved the cookies and cream totally... i liek new york one.. better haha.. pat mention that the dublin mudslide tasted like jiang qing.. i was liek where got.. must be the alcohol lah ahahahha..... den the more i tasted i was like.. hmmmm you tiao.. omg.. it tasted like tt... haha..... but we treid to finish... dman full lah... haha...

we went off after tt.. came to to cont work haha... but my bus broke down on the way home.. i was liek haiz.. and it was raining till u have a mudslide... so much after eatin tt mudslide haha... well had to get out of the bus and waited for another... when the next bus came... everyone rushed onto the bus like there were freebies like tt.. haiz.. the singaporean KSium!!!! haha... well but there was this guy.. at first i was liek ... wa not garang.. go up the bus must open umbrella.. even i also heck just run up the bus.. haha... but later he offered to shelter a lady up a bus.. hehe.. so gentlemanly.. WE NEED MORE OF SUCH MAN IN THIS WORLD MAN!! ahahhaha alright enough of this.. go back to mug liao hehe..

ME

feeling high now... took a 2 hr afternoon nap.. just now.. it feels so good to get so much zz haha.. let me tell tell u guys more abt myself haha... i am a chinese gal.. though very dark and dun have the typical chin look u noe the small slit eyes, the small mouth ahha.. and super fair skin... but i got very NICE EYES AND A BEAUTIFUL SMILe. :O i noe i got nice features.. Alot of pple tell me tt haha i never brag okies.. cos REMEMBER!! self praise is not praise!! it is international disgrace!!!!all these are wat pple tell me one.. haha.. also i use werid language.. my english is wat i call juicy, beefy and flowery.. haha.. if u want to communicate with me have to learn those lah... otherwise tough leh.. i can be quite siao at time... esp when i get enough zz and will suan pple.. BUT>.. most of the time i dun get enough zz so i let pple suan... so peeps.. i never show u guys my real power hor!!! heeh... okies as for my character.. haha PPLE TELL ME TT I AM sweet, cute, adorable, thoughtful, nice, caring. omg... i can't contiune.. i dunno i am tt great!! hahaha.. .okies okies enough of this rubbish... check out my next entry den haha.. ciao...

Having kids..

i totally love children.. omg.. this topic... it is one of the signs of growing old.. hmmm today went to MM with gor, xl and hf after surface lecture. we were talkin abt how many kids we want.. xl and hf thinks tt the ideal is 3, my gor 2 max.. no more than tt.. me.. i dun mind have alot.. if i can afford it haha.. my gor was sayin 2 is enough liao.. it is financial taxing and mentally too. hmmmm true in a way. but i jsut really love kids.. i will def need to find someone who share my tts.. :) den xl asked if i am prepared to be a housewife. haha... i dun mind just stayin at home to care for the kids and watch them grow.. it is a process that one shld have otherwise u will regert it i think haha.. oh no.. this is so wrong. i am feeling soooo old hehe....

The life span of a woman

had a girly talk with some of my jie meis today.. we were chattin on the topic of the lifespan of a woman.. apparently 25 is the big no. once we hit tt everything will just go down hill for us.. we will jsut lose all our youths, energy and even our child-bearing abilites will decrease. hmmm tt sound really sad right? omg.. but it is the truth.. there an article on single woman over 35 unable to find a partner.. i mean difficulties lah.. hmmm well it sounds really unfair right? how come man can age gracefully.. but the situation does not seems like with woman.. we just grow and get abandon somewhere.. ???? wah sounds sooo wrong leh.. hehe.. but in any case..i am still hopeful for the future.. :)

emo again...

have been really moody recently... really emo at times... can't stand myself too.. dunno wat's wrong with me... tired? stress? hmmmmm maybe it is the end term stress..dunno... so drained.. i noe my post has been really depressing.. but tt is how i feel... dun worry abt me peeps.. i just need time to settle.. den i will be fine...

i think i really like vivo.. city.. the garden tt overseas sentosa is really nice... it is a nice place just to sit down n have a nice chat....

Vivo City Again

woke up this mornin feelin damn sian... was browsing online, checking out new song.. totally in love with tata young's El Nin-YO!!! it is a hmmm sexy and catchy song... heard tt tata young was voted the sexiest woman in Thailand.. but u noe y.. they can't tell the difference for the rest if they r man or woman!! goodness!!! but must say tt tata is really hot!!!

was surfing online till abt 1230.. felt super sian.. as i had been at home for the past 30 plus hrs.. haha... can't stand it... called pat out and went to VIVO city to watch The OH in Ohio ... hhaa... was excited to watch it at VIVO GV.... after all tt buzz abt the biggest cinema in sg!!!! BUT!!!!! goodness.. we were cramped in a 6 rows cinema diaoz right!!!! hahahh... well it was alright.. but the show din wow me!!! haha.. not a fantastic show though.. dun really recommend it.. hehe... after tt we went to do wat i really loved!!!!! GUESS!!!!! SHOPPING!!!!!!!! was shoppin ard.. BUT EVERYTHIN WAS SO EX!!!! buay ta han.. tt place only for tai tai... not for a poor sch gal.. haha... but it was fun to look ard.. VIVO CITY bring back some memories.. of my 1st visit... argh... but well.. it was a fun afternoon though....oooo must say tt i love the scenery there... it is just sooo romantic!!!!!! hehehe met my dad on the bus ride home.. goodnesss... so ciao!!! hahah

JUST had soon kueh!!!! made by my nai nai!!!! yum yum!! food makes me happy!!!! tt explains right!!! but!!!!! totally love it.. the other time she made, i din get a chance to eat... ate 2 today... wanted another but my stomach cld not fit lah... it a nice change after eatin porridge for the whole day yesterday. hhehe.

Miss Piggy

i think i am really ms piggy today!! slept ate slept ate.. these were the only 2 things i did today.. goodness.. but i really enjoy sleepin... have been deprived of zz recently... too much things on mind. it was a gd rest.. i must get well soon!! cos i want to play and have fun next week!!! miss soooo much this week already!!!

listening to 梁静茹's 暖暖. it is a very sweet song... i totally love it more than qin qin.. there is a particular paragraph tt caught me..

我想说其实你很好

你自己却不知道

真心的对我好不要求回报

爱一个人希望他过更好

他从心里暖暖的

你对自己更重要

hmmm i found this meaningful... wondering if such giving love can exist in reality.. will anyone love someone so deeply and not hoping anything for in return? hmmmmmmm ????????

i think i am werid

still nursing a flu at home... while my frens r out partyin.. it is rarely tt i am stuck at home on a friday night.. at this time i shld be out havin fun with my kakis.. :P well never mind... a good rest is to walk a longer route.. haha.. direct translate frm chi!! opps...

had a shiong day at lab.. did TLC.. was hoping that it can offer me some tender lovin care.. but it din.. i was sneezing and doing my separation today.. wah best!!! but i guess i survive.. complete things that i wanted to do.. :P went for tutorial.. it was quite boring.. wdt!!!

i think i am werid.. i am not used to pple being nice to me... i am tt kind if ya just alittle nice to me.. i will feel so touched.. goodness i think i am mad!!! i am more used to suaning.. and helping others.. i guess maybe i dun like to show my weakness to anyone.. i always put a strong up front.. hmmm tt is bad right? there r still so many things i want to learn.. to be a better person.. at the end of the day.. i still believe that we all r born for a purpose.. me? maybe to serve mankind... haha... i just like helpin pple.. treating them sincerely.. it is just me.. i dun mind.. chi kui.. abit.. if tt makes one happy.. it is my gd pt and bad pt !!! haiz.. but who cares. as long everyone is happy!! I AM!!! :)

I think i must be blind at times

sometimes i think i make a decision too fast, get excited abt thing too easily and judge pple to fast.. :) i am glad tt there r pple ard me who will advice me. i think i shld change this bad habit soon.. so horrible man!! must open my eyes bigger next time :)

my project is running pretty alright i hope.. it looks promising to me.. haha.. feelin comforted.. though now stuck at home nursing a flu and fever.. hope i will be back in action soon!!!

being sick makes one so vulnerable

sitting in front of the com now.. listening to GOong OST's Parrot.. not feeling very well.. aching ... feeling a little emo now.. hmmm wat wrong with me man!! maybe too tired.. liao.. feel like escapin to somewhere for a while.. but goong is really nice... it makes me gong i guess? haha..
went to watch The prestige with a fren. It is a fantastic show!!! must watch.. i was glued to the screen.. for the full 2 hrs.. tt i guess the story right but there was endless twist tt i din not expect. it was a show abt love, brotherhood, hate, revenge. a little on the heavy side.. though alright i need to crash.. gonna have a heavy week ahead..

Had a great night ... :)

woke up early today.. wanted to for lect at 10am..dressed up quite a bit.. but the only prob was my contacts decided not to stick onto my eyes.. haha.. sound werid right... but i want to look gd ... haha.. so just left it on.. and pray tt it won't drop out.. went downstairs already when I gt xp sms tt she is not going.. felt really sian cos all my frens were not going.. so went back home to try to fix my com and zz for a while.. dunno y so sleepy.. my throat is really bad too..

woke up at 11am.. oh no!!! quite late liao... quickly.. freshen up and went down to wait for the bus.. crap.. waited for quite some time... bus did not come.. was late for tutorial.. hehe... but who cares.. this is the most heck tutorial i ever have.. always go in unprepared and crap abit and leave haha... nice tutorial cos there r quite a few out-spoken guys who shares pretty solid opinions.. not bad!! well gave my presentation ... it was abreeze man!! xl and i were like news reporters haha... it was nice tt we got an appaluse after the end of the presentation.. kudos to those who clapped.

went to arts.. for lunch.. hai..kenna suan again.. as usual.. goodness... am i tt easy to suan? after tt went to xp's hall to nuah... we spoke alot.. nice chattin.. and listeing to her work experiences tt allowed her to grew up.. hehe.. i think i am still really green.. need to roughen up alittle more

the highlight of the day was going to esplanade to take photos.. goodness... the ex and present leong's lab grp were all there... 9 of us.. 8 gals and ermm.... uncle ben.. :P.. never had so much fun takin photos leh.. goodnes. there were so many couples.. haha.. we like so extra and so many lightbulbs..
the mei nu mens in full force ... :P

flirting!!!

went to shoppin with pat today.. shop shop.. bought a pink top.. wanted to buy tt white dress one.. but dunno when i will wear it.. den i think now it is not the time to change image haha... i think cute still suits me better... lady like.. maybe when i grad lah..i also got 3 new pairs of earning!!! cool.. love them... went back to bugis today.. sooo tempted to buy this retro purple dress... really loved it... but dunno when will wear it.. can't wear to sch lah. too loud... dun want to get stares.. :P

wat is flirting? according to Wikipedia it means : Flirting is a form of human interaction, usually expressing a sexual or romantic interest in the other person. It can consist of conversation, body language, or brief physical contact. It may be one-sided or reciprocated.

Can everyone flirt or on certain pple... wat kind of flirts are considered disgusting.. can only good lookin pple flirt? haha.. is sweet talkin a type of flirting too? hmm all i can say is that..if ya can't flirt, dun try hard.. it will look super unnatural. i still think sincerity is the best.. :P

feeling blessed....

dunno is it cos i just ate chocolate ice-cream and chocolate.. :P i feel so happy now.. haha.. suddenly i feel so blessed.. so many frens and family who love me and dote me and care for me.. (despite all the suaness!!!!) i feel tt i am the luckiest person on earth!!!.. JUST want to SAY A BIG THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO HAS CONTRIBUTED TO MY BLESSED LIFE.. HEHE... i noe u gals must be sayin tt i am siao.. haha but who cares!!! :P

SInging Therapy !!!

met up with pat today and we went to SING K for 5 hrs...it was damn shiok!! we were super energy low initially!!! cos i think we had a heavy lunch.. lunch was alright only.. not as good as the one i had at crystal jade yesterday!! heeh... but singing pick up after 2 hrs.. i was dancing and singing to the fast no. pat said tt i wld be better off singing fast song... no slow slow sad sad ones.. my goodnesss.. think i too happy liao.. in everything ahha... i sang jolin's Mr Q and F.I.R.'s THREE TIMES!!!! my goodness all very fast songs!! but i cope pretty well :P hehe.. next time must sing sing sing... so fun.... so fun.. haha...

Retail therapy really helps..

went to VIVO city with my family today.. it was a family outing today.. my grandparents were there too!! went to crystal jade to eat.. IT was one of the best lunches i ever had in my life.. the service was superb!! highly recommended!!! i wld def go back there again!!! i had a great day just shoppin, checking out new clothes.. din buy anything though.. thinkin of changing my image to more classy. now alittle too cute... a little too young... someone commented that i was growing old today!!! ':(.. cannot be too cute.. well but tt is me.. okies shld change slowly.. hoping to wearin dresses!! okies must work tt body first too!!!! okies need to get back to runnnin again!!! run run run!!!!

What do i find in the special someone

have been feelin really tired these few days.. dunno if it is the haze, too much of work.. :P.. super drained... and shag... but still went out for our weekly dinner and drinks.. i din drink today though... was not feelin tt well.. think comin down with sth nasty.. hmmmm but uncle ben brought up an interesting topic today.. actually lots lah. he was askin us wat do we find in our partners.. haha... well for me i think lots of chemistry is impt... i need to communicate with him. he shld be able to listen to me and also conduct a decent fun conversation with me... haha.. hmmm well.. there is of course alot more other things... for eg.. all gals wld want to find a guy tt they feel safe with... it is tough at least for me... i dun get tt with everyone easily. we went on to many very serious topics on r/s... it is nice to have such heart to heart talk with uncle ben.. :P... really treasure this feeling!!

had a really bad day

already promised myself not to be sad again.. but somehow... tears just flowed.. it is a way for me to really de-stress... i guess.. i like cryin.. i just dunno y.. hooked on it.... well... there is sth i must say.. i can be really stubborn at times.. when i am tired, lost and pek chek .. i wld force myself to go on and not give up..tt is me.. tt is y i din want to eat today.. ir eally no mood to eat...no matter how u force me.. but thanks for gettin me a lunch.. and my fav strawberry milkshake... i felt so much better after guess food does make me happy.. haha..
well u gals have seen almost all my sides.... this is so not exciting already... i will go and think of more surprises.... :P anyway thanks gals... thanks for just being there for me today... sob sob..
PS: i dun mind more TLC and less suaning!!!

IT WAS A MEMORABLE NIGHT

it was the best mid autumn festival i ever had in my life!! thanks peeps for making it such a happening one!!

Date: 6/10/06
Time 8.15 till late!! ( cld be earlier but sth happen!!!)
People: Invited Frens!!


the action started when everyone gathered in our office.. the haze was too bad already.. (PSI was 69 at 6 pm) JY and i decided not to run if it was over 50.. we really slack goodness. hence, we asked everyone to gather in our office haah.. Everyone reached at around 645. Mr B left his guitar in the office, hence we asked him to play sth for us. He played a couple of songs, made me to sing cos he was complainin tt he was sick!! rubbish lah!! he has a superb voice... check his singing one of these days ya!!! we decide to proceed on with our mission!!! but!! sth happen... want to noe.. ask me the next time u see me ya!!! dun wish to post it online.. but it was def a happening night!!!! WE only MANAGE to play with lanterns ard 8 plus.. had lots of fun with fire sparkles and the lanterns... it was really a childhood activity!! after tt we had dinner/ supper at 11 pm!! and of course our weekly dosage of beer!!!! really love u bunch of peeps!!! we have so much fun!! never had so much fun in my uni life!!! THANK GUYS!!! MUACKS!!!!!!

just feel like bloggin..

guess wat.. i am in sch now.. was doing my surface sci paper the whole day.. damn tired now.. later got surface sci lecture. hmm but really feel like bloggin... had a great past weekend. was quite stress last week but all the blues went away after i spoke to my boss. i have a clearer direction of where i will be heading.. after tt went to jog!!! 8 rounds... jogging never felt so great!!! happening.. i must aim to jog more often.. went for dinner and drink after tt.. it was a nice a feeling.. the following day went for my tung lok tim sum buffet tt i was cravin for a few weeks with my family.. had lots of fun eatin prawns.. hehe.. after tt headed home and slept. really piggy leh.. buay ta han..

i think the really happening thing was tt i watched gong finish within 2 days.. started on sat night.. well it really got me so hooked!! i am totally in love with SHIN GOON!!!! argh.... he is sooooo charming!!! wdt.. i also want someone like tt..it is a must watch show peeps... ehehhe

now i am in the lib typin my essay.. hhehe hf and xl r sitting opp me watchin some variety show.. hehe.. slack leh they 2.. haha well but i really treasure this bunch of frens.. i think they r really happenin maN!!!!! we r even going to play lanterns this fri after joggin... hehehe... must jog more... lookin foward to look pretty during my prom!! hehe... fang yi going to say tt i am hua chi again!!oh no!!!! heehhe....

oooo ice-cream

my goodness!! i ate sooo much ice-cream and chocolate this week.. but they r the happy food tt keep me happy!! i can feel the fat swimming ard on my butt!! how how.. need to work out already.. i think i shld not just cont to be so sad.. try to finish 1 thing at a time.. work is endless. but i shld aim to live a life. and not just work like a zombie. i shld start afresh and cont to work!! must jia yo!!! thanks stef for being there for me when i really needed someone to chill out!!! i enjoyed tues dinner and ben and jerry ice-cream. and today's sushi and anderson ice-cream.

hmm we spoke abt an interesting topic. we were sayin tt how gals turn les.. cos we so understand each other!!! i was tellin her tt i hope to be a guy.. cos i think i wld noe how to charm gals but she told me tt cos i am a gal so i noe how to!!! hehe but i think it wld be interesting to be a guy.. den i was tellin her tt i think tt it is quite easy to charm a guy. she told me it is easy to charm mature guys.. hmm well i guess shld be more of guys who can play along.. it is a skill i think ... hehe...i think this is really interesting..

eyes sore... headache

have been cryin for the past few days.. just feel so tired, drained and..... there r so much to do.. to think .. sometimes i start to ponder if i am really cut up for all these.. y do i feel so tired.. it it cos i take things too hard.. or do i want to please everyone too much till i forget abt myself.. how i wish i cld hide into sth really small and be away from this world for a while. just have a moment for myself. really feel like puttin everything down and escape into my own world for a while.. just a while..

Snif Snif

wow.. it has been a while since i blog. have been really drained for the past few weeks. now tt i am sick, tt is when i find time to sit down and blog.. lol.. hmm my honours project is going out i guess. i am takin it slightly easier as compared to the start. BUT tt does not mean tt i am slacking!! just not so stress out. hmmm but the other mod r drivin me mad!! think i shld work harder for the other mod. the past week have been rather lethagic but still fun. i love sittin outside the lab area to have lunch with my frens. it is a nice da bao feeling.. away from the crowd in the canteen. at least we can laugh and talk normally. in the canteen sometimes it is tough to hear each other.. i never had so much fun in my uni life till yr 4 when i met this bunch of crazy gals n guys.. goodness.. really treasure u guys.. everyone must jia yo.. i noe many of ya r at the saturation point.. but go on and push on.. cos u r not the only one.. i will be there with ya!!! jia yo peeps!!!

The Roles have changed

Went out with stef today and my honours classmates yesterday.. sth interesting tt we spoke abt was gender roles. we were sayin that we think that the roles have changed.. the gals r being more garang, more decisive whereas the guys r the opp.. my goodness.. some guys r hopin tt they will find a gal tt will take care of him and not the other way round where it used to be the man who brings the bread and butter and wear the pants. Another issue.. r our singaporean guys really not gentlemanly or they r just bo chap!! it is interesting to noe tt in the states

1) the guy must always finish the food faster than the gal or he cannot finish eating his food if he gal has finished hers ( no wonder the guys r quiet when they eat!! no time need to race against the gals, otherwise no food!!)

2) a guy shld never sit down till the gal does..

wow. do our guys do tt? maybe some.. but wat happened? actually i dun really blame them.. maybe it is how the society tt shaped them to be like tt? from young, pampering from their mums? when the grow old, woman shld be treated equally since we also have equal education.. haha.. BUT I MUST SAY STH!!!!! no matter how close a guy and gal is!!! the guy shld really learn to treat a gal a gal and not his guy buddy.. tt is the least u can do.. we dun expect u guys to open car doors for us lah.. but ya treat us as a gal.. need tips? haha leave a tag... see if i can go and fish out how a gentlemanly guy behaves.. hehe

Kudos to everyone!!!

Had lots of fun.. played volleyball today though i was really lousy at it.. got to noe the real way to start a ball!!! thanks gals for teaching me. next time if got chance shall try touch rugby. hehe.. den we went to holland V in our stinko clothes. to eat dinner and drink!! goodnesss.. we were smellyl ah.. but heck.. hehe.. the guys bathed though.. hehe.. We even celebrated Carmen's bday!!! haha.. so cool!! i only knew her for like 3 hrs n we were celebrating her bday. the cake was really good!!!!

I am sure lookin forward to more of such stuff!!! eg: celebrating each other's bady.. going to club? sing K? ooooo fun fun... it wld be a good break from work!!!

Long Waited Break!!

went to sing K with pat today.. it was lots of fun my goodness.. today's singing was so much better than last sat. she was sayin that i suit only sweet songs, cannot sing sad and slow songs. i dun have the feelings for it. alamak.. like tt how? Choose wat songs to sing? haha recorded and listened to my singing. sound damn childish leh.. den my sis was sayin tt i only suit stella's song.. goodness the typical cresentian.. die lah!! shld i join jue dui superstar? but i feel so stressed and streched.. so much things to complete. feel like dropping my tuition too.. though my kid is improving.. tt is comforting.. hehe.. need to get back to the piles of work.. :( but must jia yo!!! but at the back of my head, i am thinkin of wat songs to sing...

Cryin is the best medicine for me..

was at lab from 9 am till 9pm today.. goodness.. 12 hr in lab.. i am really starting the 12hrs 7 day week soon ... lab was really tiring today, did 12 plates of TLC till i start to see stars.. zzzz it has been an emotional week for many of us in the lab.. 3 pple cried. till todate.. ME!!! almost too!!!! was controllin my tears.. think they will fall real soon.. i guess honours is really different... OH SOrry JY>>> i din mean to ignore ya.. but it was really a super bad time.. ya i noe no excuses... shake hand and back in harmony okies.. :P

there r so many things i want to do but i seem to be racing with time.. sob sob.. there r so many dreams tt i hope to realise.. but time time again!!! i guess reality and dreams never go hand in hand... okies must work hard.. and survive this yr.. jia yo everyone.. if want to cry, find me!! lets cry tog yah!!! :""""<

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACE!!!

just got back from jace's birthday party.. it was quite a good one!!! the food was great(there was salmon, fresh prawns!! yum yum.. one of the best i had), and most of the YEP pple were there.. it was def a big gathering!! wanted to dance salsa but did not.. hehe.. but the company and catching up with everyone was great!!.

had a really super busy week!! was so packed doing my proposal!! my goodnesss!! never in my life stayed till 4 am to do work lor.. WDT!!! well though tired but i am happy.. tt is wat matters..

went to ai qing hai on fri, it was a little pricy and a little low on my expectations.. but it can be a good place to chill out.. things to improve on, younger singers to attract younger crowd, better chairs and prob tibits. hehe!! how i wish i can sing there one day.. hehe

my goodnesss went to sing with stef today!!! wah it was the worst K session we both had.. we were so tired tt we wanted to stop after 1 hr goodnesss.. like tt how to train our vocals.. bad bad.. need a good rest and another K session soon.. hehe...
sleepy... shall rest soon ....

yawnz..

my goodness it is already 12.54am!!! have been up the past few days doing my proposal. it is really driving me NUTS!!! feelin a little drained.. was looking thr my proposal. my goodnesss there is like 101 thingsi need to do. no wonder our seniors have been asking us to start early. my goodness. i think my stuff is quite a bit.. haiz.. gettin a little worried already.. i think the only happening thing tt i look forward to is jace's bday.. i bet it will be fun.. haha and there is lots of catching up to do!!! :P Paiseh to all my frens. have been ignoring alot of ya and tellin ya tt i am super busy.. but i really am.. will try to catch up with ya guys soon. :P!!

shopping shopping and more shopping!!!

oooooo i am so gulity!! argh... pulled myself out of bed this morning at 9am to study lanthanids!!! cos... i met up with des ah gong to go shopping the whole afternoon!!!..well as usual he was late late.... he promised to treat me for lunch if he was late.. and we went ot V8 to eat.. hehe.. he had lamb chop and i had the chicken baked rice.. din really like the baked rice though. it was chicken rice. found the baked rice a little oily.. din finish it.. and as usual he finished my food.. he really a glutton leh!!! well but i dun care.. ahha since it was his treat man!!

den we went to sim lim sq to check out his cam.. he want to get a super ex cam lah.. cost like 1000 plus!!!!! my goodnesss.. so ex .. i dun get wat is the fuss with it. and he tells me tt it is a guy thing!!!! well he was hinting tt i shld get him one my goodness tt is probably my take home pay in future lah.... crap. den we decided to head to PS to check out sth too.. walked there!!! luckily i wore my shoes and not slip ons.. hehe.. came prepared. but we went back to sim lim sq after PS as we tt tt sim lim sq offered a better price... BUT BUT!!! it was out of stock!! goodnesss!!!!! well.. we decided to go to suntec since i need to repair my NOKIA 6111 goodnesss it is liek only 6mths old and it is not functionin well sob sob... on our way there we had ice-cream this time my treat hehe.. as usual we walked there!!!

we shopped at suntec, marina and finally raffles city.. haha it is fun shoppin with des ah gong.. cos he quite street smart.. though sometimes got gold fish memory lah.. hehe.. we chatted abt so many things abt his life and wat he wants.. hehe.. nice feeling.. though ah gong u must learn to be more caring hehehe.. take care of ya heel.. not young liao.. hehe

Jogging was SHiok!!! and Wala Wala too!!

went to jog ard sch yesterday with xp and hf.. it was fun!! we ran ard SDE from the stadium. there was a up slope from the arts to central library.. goodnesss!!! tt was horrible.. only manage to do 1 run but they did 2.. kudos to them man!! but i must aim!! soon gals give me somemore time.. i can make it one!! i want to train up!! but for now.. must heal those aches.. lol...

last night i think i was mad!! suddenly feel like drinking! goondess wat has come to me!!!! went to wala wala with xp, jy and hf.. goodnesss lah!!! there was a band playing though.. nice environment.. non-smoky..haha sth intersting happen!! when i went up to the waiter and asked him if there was a band playin..he told me tt the place was closed.. goodness and i actually believe him when there were pple drinking!!! think i was too shag or maybe too naive.. diaoz right!! well if tt was a pick up line.. it is sure a bad one!! lol.. maybe all the guys out there shld check try this... is SUBway the train a male of female? will post the ans in a few days time..

i think r/s r really tiring... my gal frens still r the best pple ard. in this world.. at least they treasure and be there when i need them and esp an listening ear.. but of course.. i can ur listening ear too when ya need okies!!!! :P thanks for everything gals... really appreciate it.. guys.. note this... No guy shld treat a gal a buddy no matter how close he is to her.. treat her like a gal and give her the decent respect she deserves okies!!!! just a tt.

I AM JUST TOO NICE!!

sometimes i think i am being too nice.. and thus not interesting.. OR too nice till i get taken for granted.. really sick and tired of all these crap!!! BUT IT IS JUST ME!!! i think ir eally need to noe how to stand up for myself!!! totalyl hate it.. when i just give in to others.. really sick of it.. but i just can't!! wat's wrong with me!!!!! i am totally insane!!!! prob stressed out with every thing...

AND I TOTALLY Can't understand men!! goodness.. somehow the gap is deepen.. and it is going on.. haiz... wat is wrong with everything...

tml sch officially starts... hmmm excited for it but more for the jog tt i am going for after sch... hope tt will take away all the -ve tts for a while... haiz.. another -ve and sad post... promise will cheer up and live life to the fullest soon.. tt is a promise i make!!!! jy aifen!!

I AM NO PUSHOVER!!!!!

feelin tired now..just got back from fireworks display!!! it was superb!!! goodness.. hope to go to the fri and sat.. must jio pple to go!!!

i dun get it how some guys can break off with someone else and the next moment chase another person!!! tt is totally INSANE LAH!!! dun they have feelings!!!! dun they need to re-gather their tts and goals and not repeat the same mistakes the next time.. i realised tt i dun understand guys at all.

there r so many things i wish i can share BUT!!!!!! it is just too tough i am too confused and tired of it... i am sick of being alot of roles in life.. really want to stop it... i may look strong outside. but NO NO i am not... haiz.. really need an listening ear... :(

The Beginning to a New Start...

Went to sch today.. after a long 3 mth break. actually din really take a good break as i was working in sch.. in the lab. but i must say that this is one of the happiest period in my life, though busy but i made alot of good frens.. tt i never had b4. heh. we went for lunch today at holland V crystal jade. tml we are lunching together too!! it is a nice feeling.

i feel that it is def a good start for me since certain things in life has come to a clean break. i def feel lighter and happier i guess. i am glad and can really concentrate on my project. this is nice.. i think i am a changed person now too.. with the new hair and attitude.. :P i must work hard in this yr, though i think it is gonna be really really tough...but i must jia yo!!!!

Am i being too nice at times? sometimes i really dunno how to reject pple.. today we were talkin abt treating someone nice which i shld not.. but i dunno i feel obliged to. it is my nature i guess!! is tt bad? i try not to be a pushover.. but i will never noe how to stand up for myself.. is tt bad too? yeahi guess so.. haiz.. but tt is me i guesss.i want to treat pple nice and make them happy.. if they r!!! i am too.

SALSA is really HOT HOT!!! ooooooo

it is 1.48am.. goodnesss... listening to micheal buble quando, quando, quando.. such a soothing.. song... can really groove to it.. just watch MILO PING performance.. goodnesss they r sooo talented.... SAM is really cool. can sing, can play drums can play marinba.. so talented... oooo i also want such a cool dude.. where to find... as thomas said they r either extincted, dead, attached or gay!! goodness!! haiz.. hahah watever i dunr eally care.. i totally love my life now!!!

Went to dance salsa.. it has been a while since i really dance salsa... it was totally enjoyable tonight... my guys frens kept spinning me... i was super giddy.. hehe.. a guy came up to ask me if i was from TP and asked me for a dance.. goodness.. he was dancing weird moves..FROm JJ.. hhmmmm we really super no chemistry.. hehe.. we only dance 1 song though he was like we could dance 3 songs.. hehe... cmi lah..... was dancing with ed... we did shinning today.. also dunno y i really dared to show my moves today.. hehe luckily the guys did not see.. hehe.. so paiseh... dare not really to perform in front of pple i am too close to. hehe but i must learn all the shines.. and dance.. i think it will be super sexy and nice hehe....

i guess i really got over wat i want to and move on with my life.. looking forward to my happening hmmmm but stuck in the lab life.. hehe. jia yo bah!! aifen!!!
:P

but i wanna go home...

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris or Rome...
But I wanna go home
...uhm Home
May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Just wanna go home
I miss you, you know

Another winter day
Has come and gone away
In either Paris or Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
I still feel alone
Let me go home
I miss you , you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby I'm done
I gotta go home

Let me go home
It'll all be alright
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home

just love this song soo much.. it is sooo touching and meaningful.. it is really good to listen this song when one's tired... it is michael buble's home... check it out!!

Singapore Idol Really ROCKS MAN!!!

MAN i am been leading a really happening life recently..... WOWH!!!!! went to watch SI live today cos got tics via JT who happens to be related to paul twohill!!! my goodness!!! the place really rocks... everyone was screaming and shouting.. my throat hurts quite a bit now though!!! the life singning was really much better.. and Jonathan LEONG really is charming.. he has the deep and sexy voice.. wooooo!!!!! really sweep me off my feet.. my goodnesss Hardy was really cool too... suave and groovy.... hehe.. Jay was really funny when he raps.. my goodnesss.. it was def an experience... it made me want to join all these for the fun!! my goodness.. maybe i shld really shed some wt and consider the chi one!!!!! hehe.

yesterday went back to lab to clear up the place.. my goodness so many rbfs.. learnt how to used to the base bath. it smelt like chicken essence. maybe i was really hungry den... BUTT!!!!!!!!! the highlight was the day was when i went to listen to louis saliano's band played jazz at RItz... really like the place.. it was really super duper relaxing... i am begainnin to like this type of life already... hmmm it turns out tt louis saliano is paul twohill's uncle.. my goodnesss lah.. the world is really small... hahah.. den stef drove to geylang and we had beef horfun and you tiao and dao hua...the beef hor fun was... wowo.... the best food i ever met.. beef super tender tt melts in ur mouth!!! the hor fun was fried till it was really fragrant..

i guesss i am back in action alread.y.. was quite down a few days ago.. but i am glad to have frens who stayed with me... thanks... gals... it was sweet of u gals...

feeling really heavy

somtimes i think i think too much... always think of things tt may not or WILL NOT HAPPEN.. always hoping for sth but in the end things dun turn out the way i want.. IN the end.. full of hurt and disappointment.... maybe i take things too hard. i shld just learn to let go. things will be fine i guess. listening to 可惜不是你.. really sad n nice song.. does it reflects wat i want to say? haha maybe maybe not.. will sing this at K tml...

kinda like my new hair.. a little thin though but it is much neater and manageable..:P more nu ren and also can be quite cute if i get a clip. tml shall shop for a pink clip!!!

so excited for this week!!! have so many things packed... going to listen to jazz at RITZ.. watch SI!!!!! my goodness. i hope this will keep my mind off certain issues...

AIfen Jia YO!!!!:P

Being Superficial

last night had so much fun.. where was i in the past few years man!!! went to listen jazz with stef at regent hotel. it was ok!! prob not really my type of jazz.. den we went to have supper.. wanted to just settle for the place we went to have the peanut butter toast, but i felt like having ore lua.. suggest cine... but i changed my mind, wanted a burger. stef suggested kallang Macs cos it was a 24hr chain. den i was like since we in the east y not geylang beef horfan. went there and circled a few rounds but cld not get a parking slot so we headed for kallang mac. on our way there, i felt like eating at cine, but we were near Kallang macs already so we settled for there... my goodness!!! i am soooo fickled minded... argh.. can't stand myself at times too!!!

Went to rebond my hair just now, I sat there from 1130 to 430!!! my goodness!!! it was super long.. my butt was really aching from too much sitting down.. lol.. dun really like my hair for now.. it is quite short and stink of the rebond cream. i miss my long and flowy though quite messy hair.. sometimes i wonder why do i go and rebond? can't i just leave it the way it is!!! do i need to change myself to fit in the crowd? The NORM? but if i dun do tt, will i be abnormal? WHAT IS EXACTLy the norm and wat is not? it is all very subjective. R pple really gettin tt superficial? y r pple going for plastic surgery? is tt the norm now and acceptable? The long and flowly hair tt many artist have is what everyone one desires? sometimes i feel that this world is just full of lies and bluffs.... an image is no other than a mask one give oneself.. it is just so tough to find the real person behind tt mask at times too...

Shop SHop SHOP!!!!!!!

went shopping today... bought 2 tops and heel... wow..it never felt sooooo goood!!!!! must shop more..... last night went for supper with stef!!! it was good.. esp the peanut butter toast with condensed milk... mmmmmmmmmm the taste is still in my mouth!!she drove!!! my goodnesss.. i want to drive soon too!!! before tt audrey, hf, me and ben went to the airport to sent the PHD students off to spain.. we had poppye chicken... it was ok only i feel... it is crisper than the KFC one though.. hehe.. den we were crapping too!!! i was a total fashion disaster last night man... the clothes all super dun match!!! my goodnesss..... pls forget wat u have seen pple!!!!... :P oh we got ben a shirt too.. a while top.. audrey chose it.. not bad quite smart lookin alittle mature though i tt... ben hope ya like it man!!!

tml, i am going back to the lab to run stuff haiz........ noone will be there with me.. it will not be the 6 pple full in force already.. :....( hope things will turn out fine.. must jia yo jia yo!!!!!

我真的累得不想再拉扯....

today i finally got my honours project. it is going to be my baby for the next year. i was feeling really hurt for the past 2 days. had mixed feelings about doing this project. till now i still have these werid feelings.. i dunno...i think i shld take a break and start fresh. maybe the drive for the project will come back den.

want to talk abt my shifu... have been wanting to say sth abt him here but din.. i really dunno to say if i am grateful to have him as my shifu or not.i think he is very knowlegeable and really caring person. Initially i was really grateful to have him as my shifu, and i think everyone admire me for tt.. he taught me all the scope of lab skills.. was nice to me.. everyday ask me to THINK!!!! THINK>>> i like this teaching style really!! i must say!!.. THANK YOU!!!! for tt shifu.. i think things start to go downhill when prof leong asked me to things totally differently from wat my shifu proposed.. i felt tt he was really reluctant to ans my questions.. everytime when i go and find him, He will be like WHAT DO YA WANT? hostile? strict? tt was wat all my peers told me... after a while.. i felt really pointless to go to him.. someone tt treat me like tt?

maybe i shld not say this but well... since everything is cfm y not.. XP i am not mad at ya for anything.. but i do feel hurt how come he is more concern abt XP work.. and not mine.. it will be nice to liek pop by and ask hey wat r ya doing? NOPE@!!! none of tt... i do get upset how come he is so nice to XP and not to his tudi..jealous? maybe... i guess i am human afterall. i bet he is fumming after today prof leong said i blame ya for tt!!! i actually felt upset and want to apologise for gettin him into all these crap... but shld i? shld i be nice to someone who has caused so much agony in my life.. haha sounds like we r in a r/s or sth.. lol... y do i care? SHIFU... i care cos u treated me nice from the start and i hope i can return it the same way.. i want to treat pple nice.. it is my goal... well... i hope things will improve btw us...

i am starting to miss this working partnership... all my labbies.. i think they r the best bunch of new frens i found.. and worked. with .. gals no matter wat happen next time... lets try to meet up for anything.. tennis.. jogging sessions... KTV? clubbin also can!!!!

had a really rough day at lab today. some of the prof cfm their students already, XP and JY got their project today. At first i tt it was nothing, prob mine will come soon but it din. dunno y i feel so upset too.. stressed and worried. i dislike the uncertainess feeling. Am i really tt not good or just really horrible? feeling like crying.. cos i really not confident of gettin my 2nd choice. is nanoparticle the project i will be doing for the next year? will i be able to survive? was taking honours the correct choice?

there r just so many things tt i want to say but it is just too messy. too many feelings, dunno whether to be angry, sad, worried, just vexed.. vexed.. n more of tt!!!life suddenly seems so lost. it is very frustrating.. i really dunno what else to say.

maybe i shld stop and leave things to fate.. if i am destined to do certain things i will be... :(

MIssin ya guys already

went out with my labbies today for dinner.. (HF, AUDREY N JY)haiz.. too bad my AXA parnter cld not come.. WE ended lab really late today, left only at like 7 i think. this is the first time all of us stayed till so late to do lab. my goodness, it is either me and XP or like today with the rest!! am i slow or really slow... :P think i am slow lah!! hehe... had lots of fun today in lab!!! it was like a mini KTV session and i am like the jukebox ..... hf will go aifen sing sing sing sing... wah!! buay ta han... they better start to pay me more than a penny liao..need to drink more honey for my voice... so tt it will sound sweeter.. though i noe i am already sweet.. oppps....there i go again.. PS:( HF, u sing really well and can be a pro with more practices... )

we went to holland V NYDC to have dinner and ate mud pies.. oooo so sinful.. den sat at Starbuck to crap.. haha.. we talked abt so much girly stuff... hehe.. and gossips... tooo.. shhhhh can't really mention here though..

next week might be our last week.. man i think i will cry lah.. i will def miss this working labbies... they r just so fun to be with lah.... always crapping and singing.. we still so many things undone leh.... must set a date for them already... labbies... no matter how far we separate, lets do meet up for crapping and fun sessions.. hope to be there for ur impts events.... :P

IT's the time!!!

the deadline for honours project is on friday!!! though i had narrowed down my options, i have not really chose a project. everything seems to be interesting but i dunno if i can manage. SOmetimes i really think that i think tooooo much.... always think and think and think and in the end i miss the chance. I must learn to be more decisive faster. super duper slow coach leh... somtimes too many options may not be good afterall.

Do i really take things too seriously? Y am i so concern over certain things. Maybe it is really time to heck care and learn to let go. the more i hold onto, the more tired i feel...

I will def miss everyone in this lab.. the workin enviroment, the laughter we had. oh mostly importantly!!!! the SINGING Sessions we have in lab.. ben too bad u r not here to enjoy huifang's voice... she sings really nice... :) keep it up man.. audrey on the other hand has a higher pitch voice, sometimes a little kiddish but i like her voice, quite round and flawless. :P she must be sneezing now.. My AXA partner, hmm din really hear her sing though, but i bet she has a fab voice.. and the out of blue crapper jy, she just so love to sing.. :L

Monday blues

lab was really super duper happening today... so many accidents... :P first audrey was making her grignard reagent and it was super stinko lah.. till my shifu also cannot ta han.. den it was the out of blue crapper JY, she spilled some toluene and cpd onto her clothes. :P my goodness lah... my reaction din go well either. haiz... also dunno wat's wrong with it...:(

went home with XP today. din noe that we had so much chemistry.. we r always teasing and crapping.. abt everything.. she is a really superb babe man!! nice, humble, approachable only if ya noe her well otherwise dun step on her toes.. lol.. er thick skin? maybe haha. she is a really sincere lady who is truely concern for pple.. or is it just what she says cos we meet so often... tml we r going joggin.. lol so exciting...look out for my labbies photos..

must talk abt my shifu too!!! today he ask me to THINK!!!! haha cos he says he has not given me thinkin questions.. :P he actually looks good today with his new shaven look.. clean and neat.. nice man!! keep it up shifu if ya reading this... :P

had a eventful day i guess... yawn... tired.. from yesterday's lack of zz due to WC finals.. :{ but it was all worth itt...

Graduation

Today marks the day for many of my chem peers where the finally put on the robe and grad from NUS chemistry department. Was there to take photos with many of my good friends and peers. they all looked really smart and good. It reminded me that i have been in NUS for 3 yrs and these are the pple who went through 3 years of chemistry education with me.. WHAO!!!! times really flies. i think i dun even know half of the cohort. MY goodness!!! i made lots of frens on this journey and lost some. I really treasure those pple who loved and cared for me.. i think they r a bunch of frens that i really hope that will stay with me forever. got to noe my labbies.. audrey and sgg... and now the workin labbies... huifang, aka the stonner, jie ying aka the out of blue crapper, xue ping aka the AXA. really treasure this bunch of pple and also must mention the rest, later the will kill me.. my gor,, ben ben, pat aka pple who studied with my during the exams.. we pia like nobody business... but haiz.. the results still end up so horrible.. but never mind, i made really good frens.. i feel so blessed for havin such pals who loved me and cared for me.. i bet they will lend me a shoulder if i really need.. really touched...

Now tt the ceremony is finally over, i will be embarkin on my honours yr alone. it is at the exciting and scary at the same time.. havin really mixed feelings.. dunno whether to look forward or dread it. it will be a really tough yr def!!! i hope i can survive... and i noe i will... and i can.. well they always say study life is def better than workin. i guess i am luck to have another yr.

goals set for this yr:
1) work really hard for honours
2) be a better fren n person
3) lose wt

hahah... like new yr resolutions.. hmmm i will work hard towards those goals....jia yo!!! i can do it!!!

yawnz....

today had NMR test. Wah!!!! SUPER DUPER kan cheong man!! bet my hands were trembling when i was typin all the codes. :) but...... I passed!! now i must aim to do 6 NMR samples within 15mins!!!! my goal!!! have not been doing much in lab as there was not argon tank and DCM. haha i am so obsessed with my lab. love my lab partners sooo much, and everything in lab. USEd to HATE lab and synthesis.. but everything seems to be so interesting!!! my goodness it is JULY, the last mth of the holiday stint and i am beginning to miss it already!!! I must be really mad...

my mum was so cute!! she came over to me just now and asked me how i was doing cos she thinks tt i am too quiet already so unlike me at home. oh i am quite bubbly at home too.. hmm tt sure sounds familiar!!! :P

on a more serious note: am i treatin my frens for granted? sometimes i wonder y do i lose certain frens? :( is it tt we dun click? or just tt i treat them badly? haiz... has been bugging me for a few days...

listening: the blower's daughter by Damien Rice
it was in the movie closer. nice and soothing song... do check it out... :)

Entering the Blogging World

My goodness!! am i slow or just really slow!! i am only blogging now when the big hu-ha abt bloggin started so long ago. but i guess it is never too late to start and lettin all my dear frens to noe more abt my life. It is a good way when all of us r tt ever busy. :) let's start from today. From now onwards you guys r going to hear every bit of my life, all my thoughts, all my feelings, all my complains, all my likes, all my dislikes and maybe all the juicy gossips.. OMT!! is everyone going to run away from me from now on.. :P i am too tired already..start start my actual entry another day. :)