Fickle-minded

it is one of the day when i feel like hiding in my own shell.. wish that the clock stopped and to do a little reflection and thinking..

fickle-mindedness.... one of the bad habits i have.. sth which is me i guess.. sth which if u think of me.. the first thing will come to ya mind. well it is this thing which rem me for good and bad reasons.. well most of the time it is bad... sadly to say i think i may have lost many frens cos of this.. there were alot misunderstanding when i din make my stand clearly.. ALSO.. when i tend to forget things which i say.. sth which is me.. i think it is impossible for me to change.. u gotta to accept who i am ..

at times i think i take things too seriously... or maybe u can say tt i am too sensitive... frens mean alot to me... they r on par with my family.. or somtimes.. i wonder if tt has changed... and their words even more..i move with them and their emotions and comments... well is this tryin to hard to please them as some pple may think.... but i am just like tt. i dun work in the way i am happy n others r happy.. it is the other way rd.. i am happy cos u r happy... well some pple may think tt this is plain stupidity.. or foolish.. it may be or may not... but... i really hope that this will change this coming bday party.. where i really can be happy and pple will be happy for me... for just once.. i just want to feel how does it feel... just for once....