really touched and happy :)

today i am officially 23 liao.. :) old? NEVER!!! it is just the new phase of another part in my life and there will be more stories awaiting for me to create. I had a fantastic PINK bday party actually in fact 2.. one organise by me.. and the other my elder.. :P i want to thank everyone who made this possible and a memorable one.. will be posting up details and photos in the near future.. want to thank:

1) my sec frens.. 10 years already.. and many more to come
2) lab mates... 8 mths.. but i believe that it will never end
3) YEP mates.. it had been 2.5 yrs.. but i believe that we will def celebrate XB's bday every yr for him..
4) game masters... the effort and time u spent on this.. was undoubtfully seen in excellent results..
5) part-time bf... u have been really supportive and encouraging... (jie-mei's men.. i can intro a excellent guy to ya)
7) jc mates... though it was like a few.. but thanks for coming.. and reuniting old ties... miss those bridge days..
8) course mates.. thanks for participating in the games.. gettin my cake.. being my photographer.. and eatin up the food.. :)
9) elder.... the show tt u made.. it really made me cry when i am nt supposed to.. but it is tears of joy..
10) stef.. really treasure our frenship...


hope tt i in miss out anyone... stay tunned for more details...

i am really excited

really tired now.. but super excited abt tml.. it is sth which i have been dreaming of since i started to breathe??? haha.. okie stooo kua zhang... waiting for it for like 23 yrs.. it is finally coming true.. hope tt it will be good.. i noe it will be.. really touched.. by all the efforts tt my frens has put in... gan dong leh.. sob sob.. thank ya for contributing in one way or another... contributing by eating will be good too.. cos i think i over-cater... come with a hungry stomach okies.. i am so excited abt the food too... there will be boneless buffalo wings.. omg.. brocoli with mushrooms.. omg omg... i am hungry liao... hope tt i get a chance to eat them.. :) and someone offered to be my part-time bf... haha.... guess who... :P

someone asked me today.. which one can i accept.. someone older than me by 13 yrs.. or someone younger than me by 5 yrs.. at this point of time i will say i will choose the 13 yrs... well i may not say the same in 5 yrs down the road.. but i feel tt age is not a measurement of maturity..

mixed feelings

it is like the 21st feb... 3 more days or rather 2.. bdays to me are really special every yr... it is a day which i will try to to be sad and cry... a belief tt i have since dunno when.. tt if i cry.. the whole yr will be damn suai.. i will just cry non-stop.. haha.. okies.. must be laughing at me right..hmm but tt is me.... ever since i enter UNI... my bday always falls on the mid-term break.. wow!!!! break... can enjoy right.. but it is always the mini-study break i think... cos after tt there is liek tons of mid-terms tt i need to clear.. i will norm spend the week studying..

this yr... it will be special... have mixed feelings for it though.... had a really hectic past week... getting alittle stressed out.. it is nt supposed to be... maybe i expect too much in certain things... letting go... and lower expectations will be the best solution now... push on!!! jia yo!!!...

CNY

have not touched the com for the past weekend.. was busy visiting relatives and catching up..
let's start with last fri... went home early to help mummy to clean up the house.. am really guilty.. have not been helping with housework recently.. but i am so fortunate to have such an understanding mum.. thanks mummy... love ya.. muaucks... went grocery shoppin with her on fri night and also sat.. wow.. we bought so many things.... :) i jsut love shoppin at supermarkets with her.. abit auntie hor.. as some of u pple going to say.. but i just liek doin such stuff... :) we bought some of my bday stuff too....

cny eve was spent at my nai nai's place... but b4 i went shoppin again... haha at giant for more food.. hmmm think this is really a piggy year man!!! had our reunion dinner there... realised that my ye ye is like 85 this yr... omg... he really old liao.. i must spend more time with them.. they were the ones who carried me when i was small.. :P... okeis.. cnyt 's resolution.. to spend more tiem with my grandparents.. both paternally and maternally.. :) after tt, my whole family went to chinatown.. to shop for more stuff..i wanted to buy the peanuts which r in fashion this yr.. last yr was muah chee... this yr is the assorted nuts... set my eyes on it for a long time... so i wanted to get it... i was also tempted to buy the taiwaneses jelly too.. guo dong.. we went one round it was still 100g for 1 buck.. din really want to get it.. haha den i went another round, this time.. omg 5 bucks for 1 big bag.. haha... i was liek okies pay.. and snatch.. haha.. my youngest sis.. was like tryin to stuff all the guo dong into the bag.. while me been so auntie snatching and diggin for the guo dong... haha.. my nicely done nailed were ruined after tt.. it is qutie a good work out too... omg... it was a nice experience though.. haha... the funniest thing was i saw many men doing tt tooo omg.....

the next day was cny... chu yi.. i got my new dress, new shoes which i bought he previous night.. it was a nice feeling.. hmmm my mum bought everything for me.. come to think abt it.. well i guess everyone can guess the colour.. hmm PINK.. my dress is a white based pink dress with pink flowers..., shoes was pink... i had pink nails... my bag was pink too... hmmm i was wearin pearl earning and necklace.. haha like a little gui fu... haha.. omg. was over dress.. but it was fun.. :P i liek to dress up... but i can't do it often .... :( will try to when i get a chance too... went ard visiting.. those relatives that i see only once a yr? hmmm... same questions asked..
eg: where r ya studying? gt boyfriend liao? or worse... when u intend to get married.. omg... den my daddy will playin along.. ya so old liao.. can marry out.. omg... papa... best leh u !!!!! :P

chu er was spent at my po po and gong gong's place.. it is a gathering tt we have every yr w/o fail.. we will have a buffet dinner.... but this yr we have sooooo much food.. omg.. i helped to fry the vege.. i miss cookin.... it has been ages since i cooked... one day must cook for u guys.. :) saw my cousins.. wow.. all of them r doing soo well... all surpass me... really proud of them..

time really flies... everyone is nt the once little, innocent kids.. today we r all grown up... talkin abt very serious stuff... wat will it be like in 10 yrs down the road.. hmmm excited.. and hopeful abt it..

tolerance level

Tolerance... it is sth. which not everyone possess.. it is sth which i see it in some of my frens.. n i seriously think it is amazing how much patience.. and tolerance they have.. i must really salute u for tt man!!! personally i think that new frens have higher tolerance level for each other.. it is cos they dunno each other tt well.. and thus they do not show their true colours!!! hmmmm for me i think i do have quite a high tolerance level for certain things.. well but it seems to be dropping as days go by... hmmmm and now i do show it when i am unhappy.. or angry..

Valentines....

it was a nice start this morning when beng greeted me with some really expensive chocolates from switzerland. he wanted to give it for my bday.. but decided not.. so i suppose i shall see sth nicer ya... :) well i ended up eating 2 pieces of it.. yum yumm they r pretty good.. but i prefer the box.. it is so pretty wrapped...HINT!!! beng... spoke to him for abt half an hr.. really nice chat... :) appreciate tt there r such frens who ard....

went back to do some work.. den met everyone else.. saw J online.. asked me if i wanted to go ard to give the shui jing baos... haha... din really want to... cos.. tt the guys will do it.. went along tog.. i mean... i did put in some efforts to wrap.. :) waited in my office.. for S to finish talkin to XL... hmm wait til i ended up eating lunch.. haha... well went along with them to give away the shui jing baos.. like .. santa claus liek tt le..... well i guess this time was cupids bah.. :).. it is a nice gesture.. i hope pple do like it.. :)

went back to do sth stuff.. .. B gave us the gals sth.. really cute.. hahha but he left it there... so unsincere one.. lhe.. we refused to take it.. hah.. force him to like take the paper bag to pass it us.. :) but like the PINK thingy.. but next more sincere lah.. want to give.. dun paiseh.. jsut give lor... we won't tease ya one.. it was a nice gesture.. for this we shall nt suan ya too much okies.. :)

settle my bday cake..it will be damn yummy i think.. the person asked me wat i want on the cake.. hmmm tt for onli like within 10 secs.. :). feel so excited when things r finalised and the day is nearing.. :P settled with my caterer too... the uncle so nice. allow me to choose my items.. and order extra mango puddings for the dear gals who requested... i hope it is good.. :)

today XP asked me if i am tt kind must get flowers on Vday one... haha... nice question... i shall leave this hanging.... open-ended question......

was talkin to some of the guys the other day... we were talkin abt droppin hints on pple tt u like.. hmm it is interesting to hear the differnet type of views.. i am still stickin with my a gal shld nt tell a guy str in the face tt she likes him.. somehow.. he won't treasure her tt much.. for me.. i dun think i will ever tell a guy tt i like him.. as for hints.. hmmmmmmmm......

Vday..

today's 13/2 .. tml is Vday... so exciting... J and S will be going ard like cupids to give out nice little shui jing baos... it has a rose on top of it okies.. do look out.. J spent alot of time folding and folding.. and he kept telling S tt his was nt nice.. nt gd enough.. haha.. poor S... Cmon J, give him more credits lah.. the roses by him nt bad too... it was a nice feeling wrapping the chocolates.. everyone who walked past gave us werid look.. haha but who cares... as long.. we get the stuff nicely wrapped.. :).. yum yum.. was jealous when Mr J decided to give special treatment to a particular pack lor!!!! but he did put effort to my pack.. hmm did he? cos qing ling said the other was nicer.. argh!!! :P haha.. bad boss... can't work for him one.. haha well but i think i did a gd job tyin the shui jing baos... i realyl hope everyone likes it... :)

in the evening went down to chinatown with my labbies... :) we went to chinatown market to eat claypot rice!! and hokkien mee and or lua!! but i din't eat the oysters. we had also yam cake and also a very yummy fish head.. omg!!!! damn nice lah.. hehe.... nice recommendation man!! but i think alot of msg leh.. i super thirsty now.. haha but.. den... heck... nice can liao.. went to the ye shi after tt... omg.. sooooo many pple... we tried the peaunts and i bought one with the stripped ones.. so cooll.. never c this b4.. :) but hor. i think my mummy bought one bag at home too. alamak.. how huh!!! will have a peanuts festival at home liao.. :P

somehow.. this yr V-day.. the feelin is very different from last yr.. i can't spell it out but it just feels really different.. meeting more pple and knowing more things somehow makes me think certain stuff differently.. but i am really glad to noe more pple and celebrate with them this yr.. :).. wat will it liek next yr.. hmmm :)

Chocolate hearts...

today was a baking day for me... spent the whole day baking since 8am.. it has been a tradition in my family to bake pineapple tarts since dunno when... this yr.. we have the help with some special tools to make the patterns on the tarts.. they look really pretty... the batch this yr is slightly sweeter than the previous yrs though.. :) but it was really enjoyable to bake again.. have nt done so for a looong time... wanted to try baking my chocolate hearts this yr again..i wanted to give my frens during Vday.. it is sth which i do every yr... since dunno when tooo... did it last yr too.... but... haiz.. this batch really cmi... used the wrong chocolate till everything was like.. really.. unsightly... so i guess.. this yr... u guys won't receive anything from me....... :( in the end.. there was some chocolate left .. my sis decided to do a hand spa with it.. i join her in it... haha it was pretty fun... my hands smell of chocolate now.. haha...

hmmm since V-day is ard the corner... lets talk abt finding the right partners.... :) there is this saying.. or it has been one of my topics..

guys will tend to marry someone like their mums and gals on the other hand will marry someone like their dad...

how true is this statement? some pple tell me it is quite true.. they do find qualites of their partners in their parents.. personally... i do hope to find someone who possess qualites tt my daddy has... :) wat do ya guys think? hmmmmmm

4 OUCH blisters but a consoled soul

was still feelin alittle down this morning.. din want to do anything.. so decided to dress up..and go out to chill out for a while.. wore my fav blue well alittle low cut top... have been wanting to wear tt to sch for some time.. but seems a little too revealing.. well today din really bother.. just wore it... i dun care.. as long i feel gd can liao.. :) put on my new blue shoes.. really girly.. but gave my 4 blisters with one still nt broken.. OUCH.... went back to lab to try to grow crystals.. hopefully they will come out soon.. :) den proceed to career fair.. today was much better... i went to the booths upstairs.. had a better vision and goals on the jobs i want to do.. think shld apply for them soon man!! :) haha.. a weird looking pek pek approached pat and me.. and said tt he was frm some insurance com.. OMG!!!!!! there is com presentation coming up... and hopefully we will attend!! OMG!!!! later he is a pimp how!! :)

after which went to eat ice-cream with pat at swensens.. had the coit tower.. my fav.. always eat tt when i go there.. and we went to get my hair oil... den we went separate ways... i went to find wan si and jiesi.. to shop.. and waited for the rest to come and join us.. saw this black baby dress.. OMG!!!!! super nice !! i love it.. BUT... 100 bucks.. wah.. nt worth leh.. can get a LBD with tt liao... shld start shopping for a LBD soon.. :)

finally the rest came... we went to Waraku Japanese Resturant, My recommendation..

http://www.waraku.com.sg/

:) OMG i totally love the place.. food super good and worth it.. and service.. wow!!! nting to say... we had a little rm to ourselves.. and it was realyl cosy and comfortable.. :) well.. i got to noe.. haha uncle or shld i say auntie jack so much better!!!! and for once!!!!!! i was nt the suaned target.. haha it was him!! omg!!! he sure does weird things !!! haah u can go and ask him urself man!!!! dinner was really gd... had my chicken paper steamboat.. wow!!! really love tt.. :)

my little sis got her O-results today.. she did really well!!! well done mei!!!! for now. i am nt the record holder anymore liao.. :) so proud of ya.. :)

Chemistry btw 2 pple is sth which i call a miracle.. sth which can't never be describe or bought.... when it is lost, it is lost... it is difficult to find back tt feeling once more.. so one shld really treasure and grab the chance.. never wait.. till it is too late and start to regret... hmmmmm...

Fickle-minded

it is one of the day when i feel like hiding in my own shell.. wish that the clock stopped and to do a little reflection and thinking..

fickle-mindedness.... one of the bad habits i have.. sth which is me i guess.. sth which if u think of me.. the first thing will come to ya mind. well it is this thing which rem me for good and bad reasons.. well most of the time it is bad... sadly to say i think i may have lost many frens cos of this.. there were alot misunderstanding when i din make my stand clearly.. ALSO.. when i tend to forget things which i say.. sth which is me.. i think it is impossible for me to change.. u gotta to accept who i am ..

at times i think i take things too seriously... or maybe u can say tt i am too sensitive... frens mean alot to me... they r on par with my family.. or somtimes.. i wonder if tt has changed... and their words even more..i move with them and their emotions and comments... well is this tryin to hard to please them as some pple may think.... but i am just like tt. i dun work in the way i am happy n others r happy.. it is the other way rd.. i am happy cos u r happy... well some pple may think tt this is plain stupidity.. or foolish.. it may be or may not... but... i really hope that this will change this coming bday party.. where i really can be happy and pple will be happy for me... for just once.. i just want to feel how does it feel... just for once....

Relationships

R/s...can it be just purely innoncent love... the sweet feeling... the exciting one..

Couple hood.... it is just 2 pple living tog... the support... the hugs.. the kisses...

when 2 pple come tog in an union.. it is so much more than just the pure love tt they have for each other.. there r so many factors to consider.. whether u r compatiable in terms of religion, family background, friends, culture, dreams, hopes, plans, goals, frequency. personally, i dun really believe that love at first sigh exist.. i dun think one can love someone so deeply just one look.. tt is wat attraction bah.. i think it is the small (NOTE: NT BIG ONES) actions tt one does for each other.. the hardships tt a couple survive through. tt will bring them closer to each and let them learn to love each other.... so what is love?

Everytime We Touch (Slow Remix)

I still hear your voice when you sleep next to me.

I still feel your touch in my dreams.

Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why.

Without you It's hard to survive.

Cause everytime we touch,

I get this feeling and everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.

Can't you feel my heart beat fast,

I wan't this to last,

need you by my side.

Cause everytime we touch,

I feel the static and everytime we kiss i reach for the sky.

Can't you hear my heart beat so,

I can't let you go.

Want you in my life.

Your arms are my castle,

your heart is my sky.

They wipe away tears that I cry.

The good and the bad times

we've been through them all,

you make me rise when i fall.

Cause everytime we touch,

I get this feeling and everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.

Can't you feel my heart beat fast,

I wan't this to last,

need you by my side.

Cause everytime we touch,

I feel the static and everytime we kiss i reach for the sky.

Can't you hear my heart beat so,

I can't let you go.

Want you in my life.

Cause everytime we touch,

I get this feeling and everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.

Can't you feel my heart beat fast,

I wan't this to last,

need you by my side.

quite like this song by casacada.. the slow version though.. very soothing.. and sweet.. :)