an amazing exit...

不想懂得-----张韶涵

当世界 不知不觉的变了
有时候 我怀念以前的我
作的梦 虽然远远的
想像是 一种快乐
拥有了 同时也失去什么
而眷恋 原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾里成熟
心开始曲折
我不想舍得 不想懂得
是谁惹谁 言不由衷
说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么
我不想舍得 不想懂得
谁说割爱 才更深刻
彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
互相照顾就是 幸福的

当世界 不知不觉的变了
有时候 我怀念以前的我
作的梦 虽然远远的
想像是 一种快乐
拥有了 同时也失去什么
而眷恋 原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾里成熟
心开始曲折
我不想舍得 不想懂得
是谁惹谁 言不由衷
说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么
我不想舍得 不想懂得
谁说割爱 才更深刻
彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
能握着手就是 感动的
我愿意 一秒钟放弃全宇宙
只在只有我们紧靠着的小星球

我不想舍得 不想懂得
是谁惹谁 言不由衷
说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么
我多不舍得 多不懂得
谁说割爱 才更深刻
彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
能握着手就是 感动的
是谁惹谁 言不由衷
说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么
我多不舍得 多不懂得
谁说割爱 才更深刻
彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
能握着手就是 感动的

Takotsubo cardiomyopathy

this is a stress-induced cardiomyopathy.. it is a non-ischemic cardiomyopathy that causes the heart muscles to weaken due to emotional stress. in Short this is a broken heart syndrome. cute huh..the first presentation of symptoms are similar to that of a heart failure. The ECG will suggest an anterior wall attack but the angiogram will not show anything.. hmmm this is very common in post-menopause woman.. guys do take note of pple ard ya... esp mums... :)

Bali Thai at novena with my colleagues..

guess it has been sometime since i blog.. here it goes.. been in the holiday mood for sometime man... clearing my leave.. here are some pics with my colleagues at bali thai.. must say tt it is a good bondin session.. :) looking forward to the next one..

been hooked on hip hop songs recently..tt explains the change of the music.. on my blog.. enjoy. :)

tues morning..

just got back from a trip to malaysia.. bought quite a bit.. ate alot.. did not really sleep alot.. it was more to recharge the soul.. :) gearing up for another packed month of activities.. looking forward to all the parties.. :)

had a great bonding session with cousins... check out this website...

www.engrish.com

it is quite funny.. check it out man.. din take many photos.. doubt will upload them.. :) but malacca is a beautiful place.. felt so relax.. prob will take more trips there in future.. :)

blue chips..

been listening to some compliments this week.. tt i am pretty.. :) or abv ave.. and i shld accept it gracefully.. den i will become prettier.. how true is the above statements.. maybe to a certain extent. however no matter i still feel paiseh gettin compliments.. :) still got lots to improve..

went out with a guy fren for lunch.. it is really interesting to listen to his theory of blue chips on gals.. he said tt some gals are consider as blue chips and they shld be hot in the market where pple are keen to buy and fast.

whereas some are just the norm stocks in the market. Surprisingly he noticed that the norm stocks can actually be bought off more often than that of the blue chips.. well this converts to ordinary gals are attached in more quantity than those that everyone thinks will be a hot and good catch.

well his theory is that cos the blue chips are too expensive to buy. if a guy thinks tt he does not have the capital to buy he just won't.. hmm how true is this? so gals.. what chip do ya think are?

A new start

it was a long week last week i may say.. too many things happen.. we shall just leave it there.. and then.. things happen which made me re-consider where i am heading and wat i shld... let's just say reality hit me badly.. but let's put that aside for the time being..

new week is a new beginning for me and alot of things.. excited that i am given a chance.. will def give me best shot.. lookin forward to next weekend too.. for a well deserved break.. :) wish me luck..

LG 'Viewty' (model: LG-KU990)

got this phone at the Singtel Christmas Roadshow on the 24/11!! damn cool, i fell i love with it the moment i saw it. it does not have any Keypads!! yes u r hearing me right!! NO KEYPADS!! but it has a touch screen, similar to the comin up iphone!! it will only be officially released in the market on 1st DEC, some of the more interesting features

1) 5 Mega Pixel camera certified by Schneider-Kreuznach for clear shots

2) Manual Focus & Auto Focus

3) Ultra High speed video capture (120fps)

4) 3.0” Wide LCD Touch screen, 240 x 400 pixel (WQVGA)

5) write sms with the pen provide (chi characters too! cool man i was spoilt for choices)

However for music files does not support many, but i will still give a 7.5 rating out of 10 for this. check this out man!!

Prawning

been wantin to blog abt this for a long time but din get to sit down to it. went prawnin with audrey teh's care grp on 17/11!!! man it was an experince not to forget.

what types of prawns

WIth the help of a verteran, audrey and i caught the first prawn!!! omg.. u shld really see how much i was screaming.. but lookin at the prawn dyin on the bbq pit was er.. no joke.. i din really dare to eat prawn but someone peeled on for me.. so ate lor.. my god.. will abstain from prawns for awhile..

Enchanted- So Close

i love this song so much.. had a long week.. but this shows really balance everything back into place.. WATCH IT!!!

the past week...

it was really a busy busy past week.. just do summary.. celebrated my dear colleagues bday at sofra!! strongly recommend tt place.. service is good.. food is yummy...

attended a conference, i must say it is very enriching.. learnt alot.. learning more abt wat i am doing...

went shoppin at haji street!! i am amzaed.. but the clothes there... not bad.. and went to blue jazz, this really nice cafe to eat.. like it...if nxt time got chance can jio pple there to chill out..

Bang Bang Bang...

today was damn cool!!! went to play paintball!!!!! it was a great experience!!!! din expect it to be so dangerous.. when the instructor was briefin on us.. i was like omg omg.. u can get blind if u remove ya mask.. you can get a wound if ya shoot someone else too close.. still waiting for pics.. but these are some from the company.. http://www.paintball.com.sg/photo.asp

it was an exciting day...

woke up extra early today.. cos dunno will take how long to get there.. :) reach there super early.. met zz on the way.. cool right.. so nice of her to wait for me and hs :P thanks gal. the day went well... E was a superb host.. went ard with her.. knowing places.. gettin to noe new things.. i must admit it is a nice place :) very new and high tech.. but i still miss the familarity back home.. :)

lunch was a spread... dunno wat to choose from.. :) well the gals called me up to check tt i was eatin HEALTHY STUFF!!!!! omg.. i really will put on wt here lah.. given the things i am eating... was really cravin for byrani...but i ate the pineapple rice.. lookin forward to more food.. OMG!!!!!! i can see the scales tipping!!! i miss u guys naggin at me eatin.. :)

well but on the way home!!!! the train broke down!!!! OMG!!!!! cld nt go home by train.. well.. changed 2 buses home.. :) but i get to c where is LTA!!! and little india... :) i guess it was a blessin in disguse...

lookin forward to more challenges.. and to improve things.. but will be missin everyone back home... call me often okies!!!!! anything just call me.. if ya dunno if want to take or not... i love to learn with ya too. :) take care everyone... we shall c each other soon..

a new beginnin...

tml marks a new day for myself.. lots of changes... it will be a very big challenge. excited and hopeful... i really am determined to prove things to pple tt i am capable of.. i guess i am thankful of the chance too..will def miss the big grp of pple i had bonded with..lookin forward to many amazing journeys with u guys in future too.. take care, learn more and climb up quickly.. i really hope everyone will grow in different ways.. def NOT side ways lah.. okes...u r each a beautiful seed tt contributes to this beautiful Garden. :) the song in my blog is dedicated to ya peeps..

for the time being, i hope that i will be stronger, learn all real world better, learn pple r/s better, learn not to lose myself but survive in this giantic world, learn to shut up when i am supposed, learn to defend for myself, learn to be faster in decisions... dreams......

tml is the last day..

alot of last for me tml... 31/10.. pretty much marks alot of impt things in my life... will miss ya my partner for the past 5 mths.. u have been great.. no matter wat the outcome will i hope tt we will still share the chemistry we have.. meet up often okies.. it is amazing how close we grew in these mths.. i guess being a rookie does help huh.. :P take care and let's aim to meet up often.. to discuss abt anything from under the stars to anything beyond the universe... hmm just anything lah... :P or get to lead projects together. i think our partnerin is amazing. will also miss this workin team... it has been a dynamic one... hopefully the new re-arrangement will the best for everyone.. and brings out the best in everyone..

had a hair cut yesterday.. tt it will turn out bad.. but surprise.. surprise.. quite liek my hair.. never had a fringe for a long long time.. at least 10 yrs... surprisin it look okies.. hahaha.. but the fringe looked permed cos i have wavy hair.. but i love it.. shall leave it for u guys to judge.. :)

WE LIVE IN SINGAPURA the MTV version

Shelter by Corrinne May

Corrinne May - Shelter Lyrics

What's wrong, whats getting you down

Is it something I might have said?

You're walking around

with your head to the ground

and your eyes are watery red

I know you've been through rough times

Kicked around, thrown to the ground

but you've always been the strong one

So don't tell me that nobody gets you

'cause I'm standing in your corner

Knocking at tour door

You don't have to be alone

Just call my name

Let me be an answer

'cause it hurts me to see you this way

I wanna ease your pain

Help me understand

Let me be your shelter my friend

We share a bond

You and I we belong

We're like coffee and morning trains

You strip my defenses

I catch your pretenses

The same blood runs through our veins

I swore I'd be your lifeline

Made a vow that I'd surround you with love at every milestone

I'll listen when nobody gets you

I'm still standing in your corner

Waiting by your doorYou don't have to be alone

Just call my name

Let me be an answer

'cause it hurts me to see you this way

I wanna ease your painHelp me understand

Let me be your shelter my friend

It was not too long ago

You sought to understand

You helped me mend

Remember when

So promise me you'll

Call my name

Let me be an answer

'cause it hurts me to see you this way

I wanna ease your pain

Help me understand

Let my be your shelter my friend

S.N.A.G.

hmmm wat does tt means?

SNAG Sensitive New Age Guy

it is a term which people use to describe a man who listen and be sensitive to his parnter.. Ironically, It was a good way for a man to describe himself if he wanted to get laid in the mid 1980s. It no longer is. it is abit similar to metrosexual but with more timidity and sensitivity. how do they behave? do they get more emo? do they cry more often? wat kind of things do they do? maybe they do knit better than gals? maybe they do cross stitching better than i do.. :P maybe they change the sheets neater than i do.. maybe their rm is clean!!

• Who like to talk about their feelings?

(Sensitive new age guys.)

• Who's into crystals, into healing?

(Sensitive new age guys.)

• Who like to dress like Richard Simmons?

(Sensitive new age guys.)

• Who are hard to tell from women?

(Sensitive new age guys.)

• Who like to cry at weddings?

Who think boxing is upsetting?

Who tapes "Thirtysomething" on their VCR,

Who's got "Baby on Board" stickers on their cars, oh,

(Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)Whose last names are hyphenated?

(Sensitive new age guys.)

• Who like, "Three Men and a Baby", a movie I hated?

(Sensitive new age guys.)

• Whose consciousness is constantly raising?

(Sensitive new age guys.)

• Whose tax free income is amazing?

(Sensitive new age guys.)

• Who thinks that red meat is disgusting?

Who's into UFO's, channeling, and usting?

Who believes us when we say we've got premenstrual syndrome?

Who doesn't know who plays in the Seattle Kingdome?

Who likes music that repetitious?

(Sensitive new age guys.)

• Who likes music that's repetitious?

(Sensitive new age guys.)

• Who's concerned about your orgasm? (silence)

Well, I guess it's more important that they have 'em.

(Sensitive new age guys.)

• Who carries the baby on his back?

Who thinks Shirley MacLaine is on the inside track?

Who always sings on sing-alongs,

Even when they can't stand stupid sing-along songs?

(jammin DIA)

taken from http://www.themadmusicarchive.com/song_details.aspx?SongID=199

as requested by my dear partner.. Audrey teh Su Su

The Chai, Chye, Cai family..

when kim chai met chup chye....there will not be mei cai.. sob sob... hopefully tt mei cai will find the pang chye soon..

(PS: Pang Chye is good to lower cholesterol..... eat more.. quaker oats and green apple with skin is good too Laver too !!!!)

the world if full of hopes.. dreams and passion.. it is impt to be happy in everything you do.. tt is my motto... in life...

乖乖牌 - [ KTV Version ]

damn cool song!!!!

laksa VS lasagna.....

i think i must be a blurr sotong.. have hard of hearing man!!! must go dig my ears liao. kept hearing the wrong thing.. but i guess tt makes me likable too.. :P went dancing yest.. oooo my muscle really aches... oooo ouch.. oooo ouch.. had prob making my way thr almost everything... look like a pregnant lady with my hand supportin almost everything... :P

well yest still stayed up to watch F1!!!! cool.. it is a pity tt Lewis Hamilton did not win!!! my sis was super disappointed!! :P.. but i hope Fernando Alonso would win.. :) but third also not too bad!!! but the drama at the BRAZIL race was really great.. with crashes and Lewis Hamilton's car slowin down in the 8th rd and he was thrown back to 18th position.. well he manage to come back to 7th or 8th... omg.. but i must say tt the Ferrari were!!! WHAO!!!!! SPEECHLESS!!!

[KTV]張惠妹_你是愛我的

one of my theme songs now...

[KTV] 林俊傑 - 大男人小女孩

this song is nice.. it is abt mcp and submissive woman.. :)

Nicole Scherzinger - Whatever U Like feat T.I. MUSIC VIDEO

went for my first hiphop class today.. aching.. everywhere. never tt hip hop will be like this.. great expericence.. dance to this song.. check it out man!! ben u will like this.. :P yoz yoz.. check it out man.. but aching..

fringe or not?

my hair is really messy... i think hair is damn impt in the image section!!! considerin to cut a fringe man!! but shld it be the girly type or the mature type man.. how? shld i or not...

i really treasure the things n pple tt i have now... it has been a great experience with u guys... prob things will not be the same in the near future.. but i believe tt we can all survive any challenges given to us.. will treasure the time we have now... and look for the best in the future.. :) let's support and stand by each other.. jia yo!!! you are a great partner, fren and soul mate.. i thank god for sendin you to me.. :) let's work hard together too..

to the guys...

inspired by ben's blog.. tt i have one too

1) gals will never find a man over gentlemanly... we hope tt they will be.

do ya noe that if u were in a table having dinner with a lady, when she stands up to leave the table, every single man is suppose to stand up and the one next to her is suppose to pull her chair out for her.. and when she is back the same shld be done.

2) every gal has a little princess thing in them, we like to be pampered in many ways. there r 5 types of ways to show u love the gal,

physical touch, quality time, words, acts of services, gifts

3) most gals r fickle minded to a certain extend.. maybe cos we want the best and thus can't make decision immediately

4) gals may say things that we don't mean it at times and tt puzzle alot of man

* HINT: read their body language and facial expression

5) gals are emotional beings, we cry and laugh easily

6) gals will tend to want to take care of the guy tt she loves, in terms of like baking cookies for him, making sure that he is eatin well

7) if a gal love a guy very much, she will also tend to love his everything and his family, and tolerate anything tt maybe unpleasant

8) gals will also start to care for the guy's love ones eg picking out gifts during mother's day

9) gals must fall for the guy in order to be with him and that takes time

10) it is difficult to let go if the gal has fallen for the guy and it takes a long time to get over if the relationship does not work out

11) gals seldom take initaive to tell the guy bluntly tt she likes him.

12) gals will try to drop hints though..

13) when a gal tell ya a prob, just listen everthing first, u can console her after tt but NEVER offer her solutions

14) gals will welcome compliments sayin that she is pretty and beautiful but pls tell it with sincerity.. we can sense it if it is fake.

15) when a gal asked you a question, it is good to ask her back her opinions cos often she has made a decision.

16) gals hate it when guys become so emotional and can't control their actions.

17) when a happy go lucky gal suddenly have a very serious talk with ya, it means business, get the message and don't offend her again

18) gals like it when u plan and do special things for them but realistic one lahs...

19) oh gals love it when they get flowers at offices... on V days, Bdays or just a surprise...

2o) gals love man to be attentive, sensitive but at the same time not lose their manly side

video conference with ben..

omg.... today was really amazing... had a video conference with ben for like sooo long.. he showed me his room and surroundings... so cool. the mic and video cam is just so cool.. :) hope tt we can do this more often.. :) so amazin with technology... we even tried singin K online.. hahah omg.. insane sia.. :)

Hari Raya

went to my senior's place yesterday.. it is a very nice and well maintained house... love the feeling once i step in.. it was really homely. :) now's the tricky part... how shld her kids address us..AUNTIES... omg.. freaky huh... told them to address us as jie jie lah.. AUNTIES.. such a big word... i am still so young.. omg omg.. :) well... maybe another few more yr i can be used to being called AUNTIE.. for now.. jie jie lah

bryani was really nice.. yum yum.. one of my fav... and all the goodies.. omg.. so thrilled.. :)

the sang vs the alpha

seeing that most of my guy frens showed their soft side this week made me tt of this topic SNAG VS ALPHA.

well let we start with the alpha man. the 3 critical succuess of alpha man are 1) Self-confidence, = a woman can sense the confidence level of a man even b4 he opens his mouth.. 2) Sense of humor , - laughing lowers the woman's resistance to ya and also helps to build bond. :) 3) Self-control is knowin to perform self restriant. to keep ur cool and calmness during tough situation. good looks are not necessary but at least well-groomed. cos the lady needs to noe that u can take care of urself b4 u can do so of her.

Women WANT to be seduced by men. But only by a man who initiates and takes control in the right way.

An Alpha IS:

- Clever/smart

- Ambitious

- Excited

- Natural

- Honorable

- Dominant (not aggressive, but demonstrating superior social skills)

- Stable- Fit (healthy lifestyle)

- Curious

my dear guys r y u this? ....check out for the next episode abt SNAG... and find out if u r one....

my doggies..

spent the whole day bakin these cuties... ooo.. aren't they cute.. some act cool.. some are tao.. some are cute.. some just look blurr... omg.. they r just too pretty to be eaten.. :) this is just some of the lot i bake... just love them.

singing K

went out to sing K with ben, sun nu and fi on fri night/ sat morn. it was a blast... the four of us turn the area to a mini clubbin room.. :)was really feelin tired earlier on but i guess singing is really my passion and theirs too.. puttin the 4 of us tog was really i suppose a great combi...will def miss singing K with ben esp he is going over for a yr.. we jsut have so much chemistry in singing.. well.... i will trained up and wait for ya to come back to sing again.. :) tired but lookin forward to bakin... later..

my dear uncle...

today aheading home on 63 was really a painful thing for me... really felt like cryin and tears were ard the corner..i guess it must had been a painful decision for ya too.. i am so sorry tt the whole saga ( singapore style nt hk) has brought u so much sorrow too... all i can say is sorry.. but i guess it is too late....

me and my big mouth always sayin tt 10 yrs down the road, we won't be frens... it is just like a curse huh... now my heart still aches.. i guess cos u always have this special place in it.. now tt u have chosen.. and i have not made my decision... ( i don't see tt i will make one tt u hope to be soon) i prob will still keep this special place for ya in my heart...

you will always be a dear fren... may u escalate to great heights... and i hope things will change for the better in the time to come... take care.. my dear uncle...

***The Keys to Your Heart***

You are attracted to those who have a

split personality - cold as ice on the outside

but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when

your partner is patient and

never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think

you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with

someone who was emotional, moody,

and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting.

You want a relationship that looks to the future...

one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero.

You care about society and morality.

You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious.

You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something

you don't need.

You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/

a consoling soul...

alot things happen thr the weekend.. some pple may think that i am really cruel and evil... have i not been wat will happen... since things are already like tt... just leave it as it is.. i don't want to probe further.....

it was a nice lunch with jace today at ri ben chun.. great experience... it is so nice to see the gal so happy with her life... i am glad for her.. she deserve all those... :) jia yo gal.. hope tt we can meet up soon...

learnt abt sth today at ALPHA... it is as they say dense... i need to really experience it b4 i can come to accept certain things... as they say it is a very personal connection with him.. maybe i will experience it.. maybe i won't... just let things happen naturally.. if it is meant to be... i believe it will..

time to let go..

when it is time, pls do and not persisit on.. it will do noone good..

Waraku Dinner...

it was a night out man... dinner at waraku was really satisfyin. omg... i ate so much... still want me to eat... felt like a pregnant lady after the meal lah... luckily went for a short walk after tt... nice chat tt we have... haha think really gonna miss ya quite a bit... sob sob sob.. gettin alittle emo huh... :P

today got to noe someone of my age is gettin married next march!!! OMG!!!! shocked? hahah.. ya kinda... 24 next yr only.. gettin married? prob really the last thing on my mind for now.. :) she is very pretty... tall and slim but on diet for her wedding.. cos she says she can't fit into her gown.. i am like!!! u gotta to be kidding!!!! i better start to diet from now on man!!! den got chance if i ever intend to fit into tt gown... :P

The importance of life

Now, i really value the importance life... how precious it is.. esp if your loved ones are ill.. kinda hooked onto this recent drama, 天涯俠醫 it is showin on channel 8 every weekends at 7pm.. it is a very interesting hong kong medical drama which shows the soft sides of docs when the treat their patients. they always say tt doc have the healing touch.. true enough.. i think the sense of achievemnt of seeing someone ill to become healthy is just beyond words..

all these made me realised that there is so much out there in the world, so much sufferings, and so much knowledge tt needs to reach out to that has not been done.. i shld count myself lucky to live in such a protected environment... alot of feelings huh...

tt is y i do treasure pple ard me... it used to be the fact that i hope everyone is happy and i want to make everyone happy... but now.. tt is just so impossible... as long i noe tt i have done my best to create a story in ur life and if things doesn't work out, there is no point to drag on further. i can't control the world and everyone.. i can just only do my best... treasure one another... ask yourself if u have given ur best in any relationship be it kinship, frenship or lovers... try to look at things for different angles... sometimes u might spot a rainbow in a stormy night... :)

MegaBites...

oooo.. today was a busy day!!! went runnin ard the whole morning.. but lunch was a pleasant surprise.. :) first it was huiching's mum's home made bread.. yum yumm hmmm walnut bread somemore.. den it was the highlight!!! MEGABITES got halal certified!!!! oooooo i tried their fish and chips. wow the servings was really big!!

saw this tv prog!! they were on the topic on pretty gals are def more well-liked than the ave lookin ones.. well i think it is just so true for generally good-lookin pple :) they tend to get the perks.. hence it is impt to invest in looks... it can aid ya far.. :)

sometimes u might think tt u r stupid,, don't okies gal.. it is just a learning process.. it is better to nip the mistake at its bud rather than draggin it further.. so be brave to change it and not draggin it further... :)

KPO queen?

a new tag i got... wat meant as a simple gesture turned out to be malicious spread... tired and sick of these... maybe i shld adopt JACK's view of meetin only once in a yr.. prob tt is when pple will treasure one each other.. as there is a sayin absence make the heart the fonder.. maybe this is a good way.. i appreciate those who stand by me.. shld really live for myself now.. there r so many other things for me to do.. this will not bring me down.. if pple wants to talk and comment... it is up to them.. my heart still beats for anyone who needs it...

UPSET....

feelin very upset.. dunno y.. shldn't have done sths... want to talk it out but i can't. just feel like crying.. it has been awhile.. awkward and complicated day.. was i in the wrong? maybe i was.. tired and frustrated.. don't want to deal with this again.. it this was meant to be like tt, den let it be.. i can't do much too now.. either...

COmplicated day

HAPPY

when i got praises tt i am looking better as each days passes

when i am praised sweet, sexy and pinky

when iwas doing rounds and yup....

when i got a PINK rose

when i have lunch

UNhappy

when i got pestered

when i don't get to drink milo

when i don't get to eat

when i don't get pampered opps..

high school musical 2

watched high sch musical 1 today... gettin really excited abt 2. youtube the 2nd one and it was fab... kinda miss doing musicals... it has been always one of my passion.. kinda miss singin with ben....if we can let do another singing session b4 u leave.. :)

went for the course last fri... everyone there was advicing me to do all the things i want when i am young... esp b4 gettin settled down... and don't wait till i am OLD... it will be too late... i guess i really shld look thr this again...

shoes and men

went for a course today.. well it was a nice break .. and the environment is so PRO-FAMILY... not tt i anti... but hhaaha it is really too PRO-Family.. I miss work.. haha.. i miss hanging out with my colleagues... hope to see ya guys soon.. :)

went out with olivia today.. she is goin to leave for France to study soon.. sob sob.. do keep in touch ya gal.. saw this really nice pair of heels.. damn sexy.. wanted to badly to get it.. but i din.. u noe y!! cos it is damn high and i will be damn tall with it.. it will be sexy.. but i will look intimidating.. MAN do i envy FIONA and WANSI for able to wear those KILLER HEELS!!!!

Olivia related Shoes to men.. she said it is ain't easy findin a good pair of shoes.. just like findin a good partner.. never easy to find one out of so many.. i told her tt i will be damn tired from wearin heels.. she commented tt men r like heels.. they can make ya and the r/s tired too.. ture enough.. :) but i am still dying to wear them..

my sis also tells me tt man r intimidated by tall gals... haah how true is tt? i suppose it it.. i guess for now.. for pratical purpose.. i will stick to my lower heels.. but i am still dyin to wear the high ones.. for.. hmmm vanity and also another purpose... :)

What Can I Do?

I haven't slept at all in days

It's been so long since we've talked

And I have been here many times

I just don't know what I'm doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me

What can I do to make you care

What can I say to make you feel this

What can I do to get you there

There's only so much I can take

And I just got to let it go

And who knows I might feel better

If I don't try and I don't hope

What can I do to make you love me

What can I do to make you care

What can I say to make you feel this

What can I do to get you there

No more waiting, No more aching

No more fighting, No more trying

Maybe there's nothing more to say

And in a funny way I'm calm

Because the power is not mine

I'm just gonna let it fly

What can I do to make you love me

What can I do to make you care

What can I say to make you feel this

What can I do to get you there

Love me..

Esplanade

it was the long waited esplanade photo takin session.. must say it was really a tiring day.. i guess pictures tell the stories.. clearer i can describe.. so here it goes..

Truth Hurts

A disturbed mind

An aching heart

A pair teary eyes

A dull face

Blurr am i?

Dumb am i?

Naive am i?

Stupid am i?

Hurt i am.

Cry i am.

Pain i am.

Sad i am.

timid fen... :X

today cld be a good start!!! but i spoilt it lah... aiyah... y like tt... :( must be more daring and stronger lah... can't like so timid liao.. jia yo!!!! can do it one.. :)

sometimes it can get quite tiring.. but seeing them gettin well and smile and appreciatin me... really makes my die.. and touched my heart. i learnt alot too.. must pick up my dialect and malay well soon.. feel so apologetic.. esp when i can't speak their lang... jia yo!!!!

missing all my frens.. have been at home for sometime...cos of a nasty flu bug which still nt fully recovered.. let meet up soon again okies.. i shld nt be contagious already. :P maybe being ya with u guys can make me better soon.. :) miss ya...

LALA LAND

it used to be my one n soley nickname.. but now it represents my feelings.. :? life have been so interesting with MILO, teh su su, holicks, hmmm maybe more to come.. i never felt so motivated to do so many things.. OMG OMG!!! must work hard to all my dreams and hopes.. i get so touched by the smiles of them.. it is so rewarding when u noe tt they appreciate.. it just warms the soul.. i am lucky to be in this.. a new motto.. treat others as how u wanted to be treated... :)

a smile will never fails to brighten up someone's day :)

AH CHOOOOOO..... but with a sweet touch..

got this really nasty viral infection... Gooodness.. i am a frequent client at the clinic till the nurse noes me by name!!!!! wakin call huh!!! better do sth.. gt this really really big pill.. yup THE PILL.. omg.. so tough to swallow.. and now panadol come in orange... somehow me and medicine just click.. love to understand wat is for wat.. :)

tt is just the down side of the day. today was pretty lucky.. haha for those who noe.. i was sneezing away with a smile on my face.. :) siao right.. but den again.. :)

pple just love my nails.. haha tt i went for manicure or sth.. ahha.. it is DIY!!! cheap cheap one... tsk tsk.. maybe can consider a side line in tt.. :)

take care pple.. miss ya... :) check out the next bimbotic post..
oh forget got 2 cakes from secret recipe.. love the new york cheesecake.. yum yum.. the other just aint my cup of milo.. :)

peanuts, cashew nuts, sesame

last sun was spent with my darling gal frens.. went to waraku for lunch till dinner... den i was so tempted to get donuts from donut factory.. went to c the queue.... omg.. super long... but the donuts look soooooo tempting.. ooooo wanted to get... maybe another time bah....

NUtz.. and more NUTz... the past week has been wat my sis says a good gal n not out.. it is driving me NUTZ.. peanuts.... cashew nuts.. sesame... black beans... yellow beans... red beans... realised tt i can't stay at home too often... think i will become nutz....

now i realised the importance of weekends for workin pple.. they r just too impt already.. omg.. hmmm have been gettin really irritable recently.. prob due to too much home... omg.. this is mad...

work has been fun so far.. has been rootin my foot more firmly in it... feeling more confident and daring now... :) well i still get teased as usual by pple ard me :P wat is new right.. but never mind as long it is not harmful and everyone is happy :) i am tooo :)

30 something VS 20 something (MARS)

men... 20 sth vs 30... lots and tons of difference.. i may not be a man expert.. but this is the feelin i generally get.. men r liek when the r more valuable as they aged.. they grow more mature and wiser.. cheek told me this too..he never needs to worry. men just don't have this timeline.. a older man can always date a younger woman. hmmmmmmmm.....

20 sth men r often seraching their goals and dreams in life.. there r many thigns tt they r still learning.. their charm comes in teh terms of their endless energy and passion they have for their dreams. :) theyalso have the innocance......wat they lack is life experience, stability and maturity? .....

30sth.. wat they have is stability, wise, more mature? am i right to say this? they noe how to handle ladies better? more and more of ???? cos i noe not many of them to judge.. but as i said when men aged they become more valuable...

it was werid tt night when i went home with a guy fren.. he was like remiding me tt my peak period is coming to an end soon... better work harder to u neo wat.. :P it kinda felt off when he was the one who reminded me..

20s something VS 30 something...(Venus)

Quote my Uncle: Girls in UNi yr 1 are like magazines on the shelves.. HOt HOt.. 2nd yr the shift to become story books, only those who r avid readers will borrow them, 3rd yr become journals and research papers, seldom will anyone take notie of them..

True? how much it is .. :)when a woman aged, u can really tell from her face, neck , hands and even body. the magical no. is 25!!! scary huh!! everyone says tt once u hit tt no. tt's it!!!

a galfren ever told me once tt when woman aged, it is quite scary.. she loses her youth, her looks compartment.. she is so prone to all the diesase.. O & G... put 2 ladies together... one a youthful 23 and the other a 33 lady.. who will one pick? hmmmmm.. omg i better treasure and make the best of my youth man!!

i wonder wat will i be when i am 30 something...will i regret not making use of the power of 20 something..

family tree?

this is done by my lovely sun nu... faint.. always tell them tt they r taken from the dustbin.. and they come out with this man!!!!! this is not not the family tree man!!!! faintz.. ah ma no need any ah gong...i just want to take care of the family.. but nice effort sun!!!! aiyo the other sun zi not workin hard... but it is surprise tt both my grandchildren r so artistic... good genes.. huh :)

mummy taught me sth today.. made me realised tt i may have done sth wrong for some pple.. will think abt it.. again...

i so love my job and pple ard me... the satisfaction is just so much.. the pple ard make it enjoyable... thanks guys.. :) i am just so different with u guys... if u r reading this... always siao siao 1 if u ask... now i jsut hope to be happy.. and everyone is safe and healthy... tt is all i ask.. :)

bday celebration with the 4 lovely man-to-be..

it waw i must say a successful celebration!!!! kudos to ws and jy for making it such a fab one!!! hope everyone had fun!! we sure made lots of noises!! pity those working there. the poor waiter.. guys i hope tt u had a memorable 24/25 bday party!!! pics shld be up soon when i get them. :)

learnt sth today.. kinda of shocking.. excited too.. is tt wat i r3alely want.. hmmm will it happen? let's c...

completed the extended family today.. fyi there is no grandpapa.. not one in the near future too.. i doubt it.. :)

some of my fren r thinkin of balloting for HDB!!! and gettin a car? omg... tt is soo... OMG WDT!!! ttstill seems so far from me.... omg when i be doing all these man... can i c myself doing it? hmmmm

tied down...

been a crazy weekend and monday.. so far.. many things happen.. tired to really discuss abt them.. just hope tt it will turn out fine.. worried and concerned... been MIA for quite a while.. give me sometime.. hopefully it will be back to norm soon...

Commencement 07.. 040707.. a day to remember....

feeling so blessed and loved by everyone.. thanks for making this day so memorable... thanks for all the PINK gifts tt i received.. i guess i need not to say anymore.. the pics r good to say the stories.. :)

busy busy busy....

it has been a mad weekend plus start of the week.. emotions run high and learnt many things.. things which i find amusing.. comforting and shocking? speechless at times.. but i got to noe myself better.. got to noe wat i am capable of.. thanks for pple for stood by me.. appreciate it..

tml's convo.. the heart does not beat tt fast.. not really excited abt it.. dunno y.. it marks the official end to my education life for now.. i really hope tt tml will turn out well.. hmmmmm

there r lots of things which i don't think i will try to explain.. just wanna leave it as it is...

freedom

i like my freedom... i don't like to be tied down... i need lots of personal space... feeling so restricted with all the rules n regulation.. feelin so frustrating... argh... but never mind... life has to move on.....

there r just too many things i need to settle.. but decidin on which way i shld approach it from... nice chat with ben.. shld have this more often.. :)

learns...

Learnt abt a truth today... felt sour and disappointed.....

Learnt abt a new wonder drug....felt WOW!!!!

(NO!!!!!!! it is not Sildenafil citrate)

Learnt abt a new frenship... feels sweet

Learnt abt a new skill... feelin sooo proud....:)

Learnt abt quality.... felt so consoled...

Learnt abt the world and seen it in a different way...

love the things tt i am doing now... enjoyin every moment tt i have. i feel so fortunate.. will treasure it n every moment of it.. many thanks to pple who made a difference in my life.. u r always on my mind.. oooo mushy.. huh? :P

job profiling!!!!

went for a talk today!!! it was super enriching and educating.. got to noe some of the pple there. and realised tt i actually noe some of them!!! it is such a small small word. :) found out tt my personality is Influencing, Inspring and stable and steady. it is soo true!!! :) got to noe myself better maybe i can try this test with u guys too!! :) i love my life sooo much . never been better b4 :) want to be a new person :) jia yo!! miss alot of ppel too.. will try to gather n meet up. soon ya..

there r lots of things i still have room to grow.. and pick up new skills. think tt this is a good yr for me to be.. eg learning new dishes.. and learning how to cook my seafood rice. learning how to make good sushi. (there is this bread sushi, maybe i can make for u guys) my granny's home cook HAKKA food. argh. there is just so many.. lets have a cookin session soon. :)

gals who can cook are HOT!!!!

roles have switched? how true is tt... guys cookin and gals not knowin how to? some of my gal frens will tell me tt they don't know how to cook.. do they really not? or just shy when they know... cookin to me is just like art.. and chemistry? it is not easy nor tough.. it is a love... just throw in different spices.. and try lor.. it is stress relieving... hahah but i don't really like to wash up lah.. i love to cook for pple but not eat... hmmmmm hope we guys can have a cookin session soon... :) oh i guess gals who can cook r hot properly right.. i bet someone will totally agree with me.. won't ya.. :)

nasty bug...

wondering y i am here bloggin... there is this nasty bug in my tummy which is drivin me nuts... miss work.. haha workaholic? maybe.. just love my job and pple and enviroment... they r all sooo nice.. :) tml get well soon and be back soon...

a penny for tt..... someone ask me if i can accept someone shorter than me as my future partner... hmmm sth to ponder on.. :) wat do the rest of the gals think?

L is for the way you look at me

O is for the only one I see

V is very, very extraordinary

E is even more than anyone that you adore

Can love is all that I can give to you

Love is more than just a game for two

Two in love can make it

Take my heart but please don't break it

Love was made for me and you

L is for the way you look at me

O is for the only one I see

V is very, very extraordinary

E is even more than anyone that you adore

Can love is all that I can give to you

Love, love, love is more than just a game for two

Two in love can make it

Take my heart but please don't break it

'Cause love was made for me and you

I said love was made for me and you

You know that love was made for me and you

Call Me Irresponsible

Call me irresponsible

Call me unreliable

Throw in undependable, too

Do my foolish alibis bore you?

Well, I'm not too clever, I

I just adore you

So, call me unpredictable

Tell me I'm impractical

Rainbows, I'm inclined to pursue

Call me irresponsible

Yes, I'm unreliable

But it's undeniably true

That I'm irresponsibly mad for you

Do my foolish alibis bore you?

Girl, I'm not too clever, I

I just adore you

Call me unpredictable

Tell me that I'm so impractical

Rainbows, I'm inclined to pursue

Go ahead call me irresponsible

Yes, I'm unreliable

But it's undeniably true

I'm irresponsibly mad for you

You know it's true

Oh, baby it's true

family...

family means soooo much to me... esp now tt i am workin already.. time is limited.. it is impt tt i noe how to spend it well.. frens r impt to me... i enjoy my singlehood now... lots of freedom.. and carefree... :) though my environment quite pro-family... as in having a family of my own.. haha... we shall see.. huh... went out shoppin with mummy again... ooooo u noe u guys always say tt my dresses r soooo nice.. my mummy chose them.. must give her credit... i must say tt she has good taste... tt is how she got my dad.. :)

kinda hooked on michael buble songs... recently... they r hot!!! check them out... http://www.michaelbuble.com/

relationships.....

have been wanting to blog and here it goes... relationships or anything tt deal with pple is always tacky... falling in love is always so simple..but is it really tt? wat does it mean to love somone.. is it to own him/her? is it to wanting to share every moment tog? someone told me today tt truely loving someone is not ownin the person but more that the person is truely happy in life.. wat is the point to have her but not her heart.. or vice versa. i live by this... a true love is precious, is a gift, is a blessing.. i envy pple who can find their soulmates. really i do.. and i hope tt u will treasure each other.. :) for those who have not found ur soulmate.. i still stay by the belief tt there is just the special someone created just for ya.. :)

it was a great reunion....

it was a great night out with everyone... omg. miss them sooo much .. wanted to hug everyone... most imptly, ben came back.. with so many choco.. got my fav choco too.. thanks thanks... :) loved bag too... good taste. :) went to Village and spent 3 hrs there.. asking stupid questions and pigging out.. went on to some serious questions.. if uncle ben were there.. i think the questions will go abit off.. ahha.. met up with him finally later in the evening... had a bridge and chit chat session... till 3 plus am.. omg.. loved these sessions.. :) lookin forward to the next one.. :)

u really made a difference in many of our lives...

omg... too happening already right.. jsut touched down this morning and now out partying with everyone... super envy lah... while me sitting in front of the com nursing a bad throat... okie tml shall paint the town red with u guys... i guessed everyone kinda miss ya alot alot alot.. esp ur lao po and daughter.. just saw the email u wrote.. ahha gettin emo.. got cry or not.. omg.. how i wish i am out there with u guys now...

i miss those times when.......

i sit cross legged at the red tables

i play bridge w/o any worries

i talk crap with u guys at

1) brekko

2) red tables

3) outside level 5 lab

4) Starbucks

omg... the past 2 weeks has been mad for me... paiseh if i turn down so many things... tryin to get adjusted to new life... :0 thanks for being so understanding... promise to organise more outings and spend time with u guys... i noe many of u r going to work sooon.... jia yo.. peeps.. prob will pop by the red table to play bridge with u guys after work.. :)

excited..

the past week has been really busy.. running ard doing stuff... need to prep myself for the future.. :) fun it has been.. enjoyed most of the sessions... and moments.. :) lookin forward to settling down in the new environment and givin my best :) hope i can do it.. :)

sat spent most of my time tryin to save my dyin com.. it is not really functionin well.. tons of bugs i think.. tryin to fix it.. thus din shop with ya guys.. otherwise wld love to go.. haha.. can see all the auntieness in ya peeps... hopefully there will be such a chance soon.. need to get workin clothes.. runnin short of them ooopssss. den met up for pirates 3... heard tt it has bad reviews.. but well gave it a chance..well found it rather draggy.. there were parts where they tried too hard to pump in the funny factor.. it din work for me.. nope it din.. well some parts were pretty good too.. and some were gross.. i was like clentching to my jacket.. er... okies.. moive so-so only.. don't have too high hopes..

after tt went to TONG SHUI.. haha we sure love tt place.. on the way tt ben asked if i am keen to climb Mount K.. if i had the time.. i prob will really go.. qutie gian to try new stuff... :) but abit tough lah.. schedule diff to arrange..

anway had the peanut better toast.. hmm this bunch aint tt crazy over tt leh like the other bunch i brought.. haha well anyway we played BRIDGE!!!! omg.. it has been ages since i played tt.. omg.. missed itl.. hopefully beNNY comes back soon... miss him... omg..

suresh and CK got me gifts.. suresh gave me this PINK turtle.. haha omg.. PINK.. okies everyone must be thinkin so duh right.. but it is cute.. got BIG eyes.. like mine.. :) CK gave me this book with a TURTLE ON it..nice book.. like it too!!! :) my sis.. gave me a bottle sand from there.. really hope tt i get a chance to go there to nuah.. always wanted to go there ever since teh movie... i liek the sea, sand and water.. i just love nature.. :) love the prezzies.. thanks.. peeps..

was chattin with my gf the other day.. she wants to hook me up with her law fren.. sayin how much suitable he is for me and vice-versa.. haah cute huh..but not now... now.. got other things in plan.. excited abt my plans too... jia yo.. everyone in achievin wat u r doing.. and hopin to do so...:)

Josh Groban - You Raise Me

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;

When troubles come and my heart burdened be;

Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,

Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up… To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up… To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up… To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up… To more than I can be.

You raise me up… To more than I can be.