Friday, March 30, 2007
Regrets...
OR... have ya regret sayin certain things or not tellin someone certain things... i think do things and follow your heart and do not regret.. :)
busy busy day...
JOb Interviews...
the interview went wel.. it is a job which i can c myself workin in.. hmmm hope to hear from them again.. the director seem like a great person to work under..got another one next tues.. super excited abt tt one.. but i think it wld be going to be tough.. but den will go for it and see how it goes.. :)
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
had a really packed day..
went to the bazzar.. din noe it exist.. bought ice-cream.. ( happy food).. had cookies and cream and rum and rasin.. wowo..yum yum.. the guys sellin i think student.. not very pro in scooping the ice-cream. it was dripping outside.
i think this is a time when everyone's tolerance level is super low. i believe that for sth to happen, it takes 2 hand to clap.. never one sided.. i maybe the catalyst but one still need the reagents b4 it can work.. okies this sounds too chemistry... i don't think i am the worse.. learing to control emtions is sth which i am still working on..
the bed looks sooo tempting..
want to thank alot of pple who r there for me esp during this period of time..ermh... must give special thank to the person who gave me goat's milk yesterday and today.. a peanut pancake.. omg.. i am on the verge of being 黑黑胖胖!!!!! but it was a sweet action.. let see tml wat it will be!!! really touched... omg.. feel like cryin liao.. sob sob.. but i get touched super easily one!!!! like gettin me my fav ice-cream when i am cravin for it also can!!! :) omg.. OH NO!!! i need to start to save up for the abalone... shark's fin.. faint.. i think the next two weeks cannot eat liao.. :( haha.. okei sokies.. must jia yo!!!! everyone!! the bed still looks damn tempting... ooooooooooooo....
stefy!!! so happy for ya!!! hope tt u liek the job!!!
Monday, March 26, 2007
Lala land...
went on to prep stuff to run... spend ard 4 hrs.. running the stuff.. wow... it is freaking long.. omg.. din had lunch.. was feelin super hungry throughout.. thanks for staying throughout man!!! really appreciate it.. luckily we both din faint of hunger. haha.. well at least this time i din whine when i am hungry.. ahah.. in norm days i wld.. well the stuff i ran din realyl help.. so yupz.. back to sq one.. runnin sth tml if i can get the time.. omg.. i think after all these i prob touched all the instruments i possible can..
was so hungry.. but cld nt eat.. felt like throwing up all the time.. think too much wind in the stomach liao.. dinner was macs.. was struggling to finish my food too.. omg..
had a regular chatting session during dinner with my kakis.. we were talkin abt lots of things.. like will ya feelin insercure if ya partner is super good looking.. den we went onto .. will ya cont to date someone if ur family is against it.. den we went onto.. how wld ya reject a guy.. hmmmm it is so my topics. ahha. i always ask such werid werid questions.. think most of them cannot stand it liao..
went to chit chat with my elder.. haha.. so nice she gt me goat's milk.. she went to a farm!! OMG!!! i so want to go prawning..... !!!wow.. there is the after taste.. omg.. i dun rem drinkin goat's milk b4 leh.. but she so cute.. anyway.. it is supposed to be damn nutritious.. i think all of us need it badly now. haha thanks... really apprectiate the sitting down and chit chattin session.. :) i noe u r reading this... thanks thanks!!! :) for the salsa performance tt u promised on my behalf..... i will dance if double OH 2.. do her hip hop.. :) which is pretty much impossible.. haha
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Way Back Into Lurveeeee..
Saturday, March 24, 2007
a CLean sat..
wanted to watch music and lyrics really badly today... wanted to just stop wat i am doing and escape for a while.. i can't work with a tired soul and stress mind.. wanted to watch so badly till i din even mind a 950pm show.. omg.. i must be really mad.. doing werid things.. well there was no tics.. otherwise i shld be sittin in some theatre watchin the show.. :) prob won't catch it liao.. with next week really packed.. and all the deadlines to meet..
listening to like a shinnig star by fly to the sky... the song tt i was repeating on thursday night.. i guess i have really quiet recently.. and all my posts has been really depressing.. mood swings r high recently.. stress? maybe? tired? maybe? drained? maybe? i really wished that everything will be over really soon.. and i just want to move on...
Friday, March 23, 2007
The defination of rich and poor...
hmm i am super tempted to just go somewhere where simple life is lead.. and experience for awhile b4 coming back to this busy lifestyle.. i want to get back the feelin of feelin satisfied.. grateful.. thankful.. i think it is very recharging.. and soul-seraching.. hmmm.. maybe shld start planning..
Thursday, March 22, 2007
i miss that smile..
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
my pig sty
spend the whole day.. at home doing stuff.. nt bad..but still workin hard.. need to speed up abit more.. too slow liao.. had a fun time at home with my sis too!! she was playin fly to sky songs.. omg.. they have such goood voice.. tt kind u will melt in ...ooooooo.. almost instantly.. :) okies.. i am crazy. but their music is tt kind cannot listen and do work one... one bad thing abt workin at home is i tend to take naps.. hmmm nt too good.. haha no time liao.. still zz.... really piggy!!!! OINK OINK... think will be rollin in mud so soooooon... good good.. can do a spa.. :)
spoke to mummy today.. reassured her on some things.. it is one of the reasons y i stayed at home today too.. she said certain things which i really dun agree.. but den she is older n wiser.. i respect her opinions.. tough for me on my side though... it has been a tough few days for both of us.. i just hope that things will eventually work out and be fine.. jia yo!!!! i can do it...
long day?
din really zz well last night.. many things were runnin thr my mind... went to bed only like 1 plus.. well i guess i only fell asleep den bah.. woke up at 5am... went back to zz.. wanted to slp a little more.. but ended up wakin at 8... went to print stuff.. and headed for sch.. ran ard today pretty much.. was in the sian.. and I AM NOT THERE MOOD.. GOSH as i type.. the rain is gettin heavier outside.. tt is quite abt it for the day's happenings..
i dunno y it is a big fuss over such a small trival thing.. at least to me it is small... sometimes.. feelin really restricted tt i can't make my own choices and live the way i want.. y things can't be as simple as ABC and 123....hmmmmm i hope things will die down and back to norm...
Monday, March 19, 2007
CLose frens
sth on the serious side... pple tend to take things for granted esp.. when it is easily obtained.. this happens esp with ppel who see each other almost everyday.. they tend nt to treasure the small things tt one do for each other daily.. and treated it as per norm... it is nice.. to say thank you.. or just a smile a day.. will def brighten one's day... okies... stef was tellin me tt her bro is a damn nice dude.. he is tt kind will let ya bully.. but there is a threshold.. for him it is high.. but once u hit it.. there is no way turning back..
hmmm now back to my topic for today... close frens.. they do nt happen overnight, over secs, over mins.. over a sunrise... it takes time to build this frenship... it takes time to build tt trust level the connection level.. the clickishness.. if there is such a word... and it is different for individuals.. for me.. some r really fast attained. while others need efforts to explore... but i need to feel tt ur sincerity in being frens with me... and next is the turst level... close frens does nt always need to tell each other. tt hey.. this is wat i really meant.. i think it shld be more of spontaneous.. enough have said for today... i supposed...
learnt a bitter truth today... well.. it is still for me to decide if i shld follow.. hmmmm
Assurance...
Trust is a big isssue btw me and my frens.. it is sth which i treasure btw frens when i have it with them... when i do... it means tt i really do.. there is no going back from there.. well it has its cons... but it is a priniciple i live by....
was watching UGLY Betty just now... damn cool show.. talks abt a gal who is super erhmmm the title says it.. UGLY ... welll for this case it is apperance... superficial it may be in this world.. and i bet it do... for me.. no matter how good lookin u r... if ya have a really sucky character.. u will def fall alot in ranks... a good hearted but plain lookin person might be a prince or princess.... i read from somewhere tt woman r much better in character judgement.. hmm sounds pretty dejavu.. i think i wrote sth liek tt b4..
i think for many girls.. they don't need brad pit or tom cruise.. someone tt they can bring out to boast.. they jsut need someone tt they can trust.. and be there for them.. cheer them up when they r down.. listen and NOT provide solutions when times .. and give in to them when necessary. haha ( sound familar).. i just need someone i can really trust.. guys.. prob want a hot babe..at least presentable.. bah... someone they can bring out to show off to their frens.. and hence.. they might nt be off better judges in character.. well.. i noe this does nt apply to all guys lah... i better mention this b4 some of u guys get totally offended... correct me if i am wrong.. :P
Saturday, March 17, 2007
a well rested day..
was reading the newspaper on divorce... the articles mention how much harm it can do to children.. some of which even mention that.. the children of such backgrd will nt be confident in entering a r/s or even marrying.. well... for now.. pple whom i noe tt come from such bkgrds r doing pretty well.. they are hopeful of the future and do want to find someone they can spend the rest of their lives with.... for me... i will only have kids when i am confident of providing the best for them.. at least a complete family...
today, spent most of my time resting and sleeping... i think the best way to move on is to recharge.. :) i sure do have a long way ahead... must jy! jy!!
many things happened in the past week...was pretty irrtated with someone.. for sayin certain things out... but i guess i pretty much clarify things out... so now i am ok liao.. i just want to say.. sometimes.. i might say things which i may nt mean tt seriously... and i have a tendancy to forget too.. esp when i am liek super tired now.. okies i noe tt is def nt an excuse.. i am horrible in expressing myself.. okies maybe... shld start to keep quiet.. and tone down abit... hmmmm
great day..
everyone is gettin really busy nowadays.. it is so tough to find time for the whole grp to sit down and just nuah.. really miss those days last sem.. when we can afford to.. think this shld be the craziest period for many of us...
had to attend a talk in the evening.. wow.. the talk was really long.. it was enriching though and hmmmmm entertaining? okies.. i think some might agree with me..
was lookin foward to the bbq at west coast.. wanted to meet his little cuz.. so cute.. the photo.. omg.. had a long day.. but once i reached there.. saw the little gal.. wow.. i was realyl perked up..she is realyl cute. and super pretty.. she was wearin earnings tt i will wear lah.. omg she super energetic lah.. omg.. reminds of my younger days.. haha.. okeis i sound super old... bbq was nt bad... but abit paiseh.. din really bbq just went there to eat.. and play bridge.. er... okies next time.. yup.. :) fed quite abit of mosquitoes.. man.. they were sayin tt it has to do with body temperature... guess i was hot.. :P okie sokies... but thanks... i had a great night.. :)
Thursday, March 15, 2007
pretty proud of myself...
went to munchie monkey.. had a soft shell crab thingy... super hooked on it.. but rice was really dry... nt too nice.. oh i had a nice FNF orange which used crushed ice.. instead.. and it looked really diffferent... more high class.. lol.. we were all crappin.. laming at jokes..singing songs..i was singing.. to gummy bears.. i love eating them!!!!! yum yum. my all time fav.. bus took really supe rlong to come.. :) i think everyone were tired...
i am nt very gd in expressing myself sometimes.. certain things i rather nt say than say.. this is one big prob with me and caused many misunderstandings... certain things.. i prefer if pple come n clarify with me.. den i will say.. be more initaive with me.. bah... when i am stress somtimes.. i dun like to talk.. but think it thr.. for a while.. if i really cannot den prob i will ask bah... :)
lookin forward to the bbq tml.. actually.. it has been since i really chill out and have fun... hope tt i get to see ya cuz.. :) and it being a success...
been feeling pretty feverish recently.. HOT HOt HOt.. hope tt i won't come down with sth nasty too... everyone ard me is sick.. omg!!! take care... DOWN WITH THE GERMS...
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
proud of my little sister and quality time with family
on the way.. passed my laptop to jy... :) omg.. she is in a stripped green shirt and her bag was green.. i was in a pink stripped shirt with a pink bag.. haha .. jy u r becoming more and more liek me... :P reached.. my sis sch at ard 1045.. it was at Woodlands.. omg i felt so homesick... but i had a gd chat with my youngest sis.. the one tt complained tt i see her only 10mins a day.. anyway... when we reached the place.. there was a grand reception.. omg there were cooks or maybe waiters.. serving food... there was my fav choco eclair.. pretty grand... how i wish NUS's will be liek tt too.. but i am doubtful abt it.. heard nt too gd comments abt it.. we shall see it this yr..
saw my sis.. taking photos with her frens.. she also told me the guy tt she liked.. nt bad lookin.. well done mei!!! gd taste.. sia.. it runs in the family btw..:P apparently the whole grp noes.. (sounds familar).. hope things will happen ya.. mei.. :) took a few more photos.. den my family went to tour the sch while i headed back to sch too.. needed to finish stuff...
stayed till prety late in sch today.. wanted to start to type more stuff.. but ended nt.. but was nt slacking... okies must jy !!!!!! well i guess at this pt of time.. a little stress is common.. if nt stress den er.. abit werid right... so dun worry.. :)
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Changes..
the past week saw my little sis.. growin up.. her 21st bday.. wow.. welcome to the adult world mei.. my daddy was sayin tt he has control of us b4 21.. but after tt it is our own world.. and life.. how we want it and rule it.. next week will see her graduatin.. omg.. so proud of her.. she really changed alot.. for the better def!!!! congrats mei!!! i am so proud of ya as a sis... i really need to spend more time with my family... my little sis was complainin tt she only get to c me 10min per day.. tt is super pathetic.... i feel alittle distant from this family. must get back tt feeling... and it is my responsibility...
the world pampers the elites and forgets the less smarts? we r moving into a world where.. the rich will get richer and the poor will always be poor.. the gap will never be narrowed.. this is a competitve world.. if ya nt in the rat race.. u will be left behind with the rest. who will lend ya a hand or be patient enough to listen to ya... hmm wat will this world become.. in future.. for i think.. it is nt going to be pretty... hmmmm any tts?
Saturday, March 10, 2007
drinking..and my lacy dress..
Thursday, March 08, 2007
thanks man!!!
ABC... does nt stand for american born chi.. it stands for ... acting bluffin cheating.. my daddy ever told me tt in this world.. it is full of ABC!!!!! everyone is smoking someone else.. i feel that sometimes i am too naive, too protected, too innocent, to blurr? and this world just dun work this way... there r still lots to learn.. hmmmmm
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
THe Forbidden Fruit is sweet..
listening has never been a prob with me... i am an excellent listener.. but at times. when my heart has made a decision... it is tough to change it unless i am proven wrong.. and i must experience it myself... i will try to LISTEN... open my eyes bigger... and i guess the forbidden fruit is always alluring and sweet... :)
Sunday, March 04, 2007
pisces traits..
On the dark side....
Escapist and idealistic
St Jame Power Station plus match
suresh in the end got his chocolate.. gt 10 pieces for the gals.. so sweet.. :) den we proceeded to VIvo.. met the big grp along the way.. had jack, jiesi, wan si, yurui + bf but they ate dinner liao. so the 3 of us met up with caroline + mia for dinner at bk. while the rest went to st james powerstation first.. :)
the agenda of the day was to watch the match btw liverpool and Manchester United. sat down to watch the match but there was no commentary cos we were outside.. so it was alittle boring.. thus the gals decided to play cards.. thanks for bringing them man!!!! well things got really excited towards the end of the game... cos man U scored a goal.. in the last few mins.. wow.. the guys were damn pissed off!!!! liverpool supporters lah.. :P it is quite funny seeing guys watching soccers.. cos they become small boys again.. :) after tt most of them wanted to go home.. ps.. suresh.. next time.. okies.. if there is more pple..
me.. went to check out st james powerstation.. wanted to see the dragonfly room... cos it is a chinese club!!!! one of the rms at st james powerstation.. it was really eye opener for me.. to me it is more a higher class ge tai.. there were more pples itting down listeing to canto pop rather than dancing to tunes like jolin tsai.. the crowd was much older.. and prob richer.. but the band was good..:P after that we went to the latin room... wow tt was hot hot hot.. they were playin tons of salsa music.. omg.. it has been ages since i danced salsa... space was limted though but it was nice to just groove to the music.. :) i totally love it... liek tt room the most. band was esp friendly.. :) went to other rooms like the jazz.. nice.. chiill out place... the singer tries hard to mimic micheal buble but noone can beat him... den we walked wanting to go back to dragonfly... and passed by this place where there was display of the generators i think ... :) i din noe tt place used to be a powerstation.. wow.. went to queue at dragonfly again.. stand for 15mins... it was like 1 plus liao.. den we decided nt to queue and went to eat supper... dun think will go back there again... the crowd alittle too mature and not spontaneous.. :)
supper was nt bad.. with ba chor mee.. quite like it.. never knew my place food can be so good....
and i learnt alot abt ns.. omg.. they kill sparrows to eat... horrified. suddenly the ba chor mee din taste tt nice.. eeeeek... i guess i am girly gal who will freak out... omg..
Saturday, March 03, 2007
my bday party part 2
After the games.. it was pretty late... ard 9 plus.. so i cut the cake.. hmmm my cake was from secret recipe... CHOcolate marshmallow.. well as usually i took a long time to decide on my cake.. finally on this cos.. i love it.. but it was pretty heavy.. i really love the deco on the cake.. really sweet.. :) i din expect it to be like tt. tt it will be black.. but den again.. cake cutting was a long process too cos i had so many grps of frens.. :) to take photos with ... as for presents wise.. i ha 3 watches... well love them.. they r all sooo classsy... hmmm a necklace.. a pair of earings.. bag photo album... and a gift set from body shop... loved the gifts.. thanks.. really touched.. for everyone.. who made this a memorable one... .. for the rest of the photos.. hmmm i still can't find a page to upload leh.. will do so when i eventually find a source.. :0
my bday party.. Part 1
finally the food came.. i think everyone were super hungry.. but the guys were gentleman enough to allow the gals to take first.. :) and my frens were nice enough.. they kinda force me to eat first.. seriouslly i din eat the whole day.. so food was really needed at tt time. i was really hungry.. but i took quite little.. cos my guest more impt mah.. :)
well after everyone was well fed... we had games.. the first one was this egg passing game.. the plan was to make me eat egg if the grp drops them.. but it turnso ut tt not enough pple .. so i had to u noe.. play too haha.. passing eggs was pretty fun.. but i love the 2nd game the most.. guess the drink..my game masters mixed the drinks up and pple were supposed to guess. if they make the wrong guess, they had to drink...
i love the strawberry essence one.. omg.. everyone took a long time to guesss... well i had to play twice too.. the first tiem was carrot juice.. one of the juices tt i frequently drink.. so it was quite easy.. the 2nd was coffee plus lime.. omg... i hated coffee the taste was rather choking... :( but i think it was a really fun game... :) after which we had taboo.. created specially for me.. :) all the words were related to me... eg.. cute, salsa, long eyelashes. big eyes.. and michelle chia.. haha audrey was so cute when she describe the words.. she was like... er... oh no no.. how to describe.. :P. to be cont..