my dear uncle...

today aheading home on 63 was really a painful thing for me... really felt like cryin and tears were ard the corner..i guess it must had been a painful decision for ya too.. i am so sorry tt the whole saga ( singapore style nt hk) has brought u so much sorrow too... all i can say is sorry.. but i guess it is too late....

me and my big mouth always sayin tt 10 yrs down the road, we won't be frens... it is just like a curse huh... now my heart still aches.. i guess cos u always have this special place in it.. now tt u have chosen.. and i have not made my decision... ( i don't see tt i will make one tt u hope to be soon) i prob will still keep this special place for ya in my heart...

you will always be a dear fren... may u escalate to great heights... and i hope things will change for the better in the time to come... take care.. my dear uncle...

***The Keys to Your Heart***

You are attracted to those who have a

split personality - cold as ice on the outside

but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when

your partner is patient and

never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think

you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with

someone who was emotional, moody,

and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting.

You want a relationship that looks to the future...

one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero.

You care about society and morality.

You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious.

You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something

you don't need.

You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/

a consoling soul...

alot things happen thr the weekend.. some pple may think that i am really cruel and evil... have i not been wat will happen... since things are already like tt... just leave it as it is.. i don't want to probe further.....

it was a nice lunch with jace today at ri ben chun.. great experience... it is so nice to see the gal so happy with her life... i am glad for her.. she deserve all those... :) jia yo gal.. hope tt we can meet up soon...

learnt abt sth today at ALPHA... it is as they say dense... i need to really experience it b4 i can come to accept certain things... as they say it is a very personal connection with him.. maybe i will experience it.. maybe i won't... just let things happen naturally.. if it is meant to be... i believe it will..

time to let go..

when it is time, pls do and not persisit on.. it will do noone good..

Waraku Dinner...

it was a night out man... dinner at waraku was really satisfyin. omg... i ate so much... still want me to eat... felt like a pregnant lady after the meal lah... luckily went for a short walk after tt... nice chat tt we have... haha think really gonna miss ya quite a bit... sob sob sob.. gettin alittle emo huh... :P

today got to noe someone of my age is gettin married next march!!! OMG!!!! shocked? hahah.. ya kinda... 24 next yr only.. gettin married? prob really the last thing on my mind for now.. :) she is very pretty... tall and slim but on diet for her wedding.. cos she says she can't fit into her gown.. i am like!!! u gotta to be kidding!!!! i better start to diet from now on man!!! den got chance if i ever intend to fit into tt gown... :P

The importance of life

Now, i really value the importance life... how precious it is.. esp if your loved ones are ill.. kinda hooked onto this recent drama, 天涯俠醫 it is showin on channel 8 every weekends at 7pm.. it is a very interesting hong kong medical drama which shows the soft sides of docs when the treat their patients. they always say tt doc have the healing touch.. true enough.. i think the sense of achievemnt of seeing someone ill to become healthy is just beyond words..

all these made me realised that there is so much out there in the world, so much sufferings, and so much knowledge tt needs to reach out to that has not been done.. i shld count myself lucky to live in such a protected environment... alot of feelings huh...

tt is y i do treasure pple ard me... it used to be the fact that i hope everyone is happy and i want to make everyone happy... but now.. tt is just so impossible... as long i noe tt i have done my best to create a story in ur life and if things doesn't work out, there is no point to drag on further. i can't control the world and everyone.. i can just only do my best... treasure one another... ask yourself if u have given ur best in any relationship be it kinship, frenship or lovers... try to look at things for different angles... sometimes u might spot a rainbow in a stormy night... :)

MegaBites...

oooo.. today was a busy day!!! went runnin ard the whole morning.. but lunch was a pleasant surprise.. :) first it was huiching's mum's home made bread.. yum yumm hmmm walnut bread somemore.. den it was the highlight!!! MEGABITES got halal certified!!!! oooooo i tried their fish and chips. wow the servings was really big!!

saw this tv prog!! they were on the topic on pretty gals are def more well-liked than the ave lookin ones.. well i think it is just so true for generally good-lookin pple :) they tend to get the perks.. hence it is impt to invest in looks... it can aid ya far.. :)

sometimes u might think tt u r stupid,, don't okies gal.. it is just a learning process.. it is better to nip the mistake at its bud rather than draggin it further.. so be brave to change it and not draggin it further... :)

KPO queen?

a new tag i got... wat meant as a simple gesture turned out to be malicious spread... tired and sick of these... maybe i shld adopt JACK's view of meetin only once in a yr.. prob tt is when pple will treasure one each other.. as there is a sayin absence make the heart the fonder.. maybe this is a good way.. i appreciate those who stand by me.. shld really live for myself now.. there r so many other things for me to do.. this will not bring me down.. if pple wants to talk and comment... it is up to them.. my heart still beats for anyone who needs it...

UPSET....

feelin very upset.. dunno y.. shldn't have done sths... want to talk it out but i can't. just feel like crying.. it has been awhile.. awkward and complicated day.. was i in the wrong? maybe i was.. tired and frustrated.. don't want to deal with this again.. it this was meant to be like tt, den let it be.. i can't do much too now.. either...

COmplicated day

HAPPY

when i got praises tt i am looking better as each days passes

when i am praised sweet, sexy and pinky

when iwas doing rounds and yup....

when i got a PINK rose

when i have lunch

UNhappy

when i got pestered

when i don't get to drink milo

when i don't get to eat

when i don't get pampered opps..

high school musical 2

watched high sch musical 1 today... gettin really excited abt 2. youtube the 2nd one and it was fab... kinda miss doing musicals... it has been always one of my passion.. kinda miss singin with ben....if we can let do another singing session b4 u leave.. :)

went for the course last fri... everyone there was advicing me to do all the things i want when i am young... esp b4 gettin settled down... and don't wait till i am OLD... it will be too late... i guess i really shld look thr this again...

shoes and men

went for a course today.. well it was a nice break .. and the environment is so PRO-FAMILY... not tt i anti... but hhaaha it is really too PRO-Family.. I miss work.. haha.. i miss hanging out with my colleagues... hope to see ya guys soon.. :)

went out with olivia today.. she is goin to leave for France to study soon.. sob sob.. do keep in touch ya gal.. saw this really nice pair of heels.. damn sexy.. wanted to badly to get it.. but i din.. u noe y!! cos it is damn high and i will be damn tall with it.. it will be sexy.. but i will look intimidating.. MAN do i envy FIONA and WANSI for able to wear those KILLER HEELS!!!!

Olivia related Shoes to men.. she said it is ain't easy findin a good pair of shoes.. just like findin a good partner.. never easy to find one out of so many.. i told her tt i will be damn tired from wearin heels.. she commented tt men r like heels.. they can make ya and the r/s tired too.. ture enough.. :) but i am still dying to wear them..

my sis also tells me tt man r intimidated by tall gals... haah how true is tt? i suppose it it.. i guess for now.. for pratical purpose.. i will stick to my lower heels.. but i am still dyin to wear the high ones.. for.. hmmm vanity and also another purpose... :)

What Can I Do?

I haven't slept at all in days

It's been so long since we've talked

And I have been here many times

I just don't know what I'm doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me

What can I do to make you care

What can I say to make you feel this

What can I do to get you there

There's only so much I can take

And I just got to let it go

And who knows I might feel better

If I don't try and I don't hope

What can I do to make you love me

What can I do to make you care

What can I say to make you feel this

What can I do to get you there

No more waiting, No more aching

No more fighting, No more trying

Maybe there's nothing more to say

And in a funny way I'm calm

Because the power is not mine

I'm just gonna let it fly

What can I do to make you love me

What can I do to make you care

What can I say to make you feel this

What can I do to get you there

Love me..

Esplanade

it was the long waited esplanade photo takin session.. must say it was really a tiring day.. i guess pictures tell the stories.. clearer i can describe.. so here it goes..

Truth Hurts

A disturbed mind

An aching heart

A pair teary eyes

A dull face

Blurr am i?

Dumb am i?

Naive am i?

Stupid am i?

Hurt i am.

Cry i am.

Pain i am.

Sad i am.

timid fen... :X

today cld be a good start!!! but i spoilt it lah... aiyah... y like tt... :( must be more daring and stronger lah... can't like so timid liao.. jia yo!!!! can do it one.. :)

sometimes it can get quite tiring.. but seeing them gettin well and smile and appreciatin me... really makes my die.. and touched my heart. i learnt alot too.. must pick up my dialect and malay well soon.. feel so apologetic.. esp when i can't speak their lang... jia yo!!!!

missing all my frens.. have been at home for sometime...cos of a nasty flu bug which still nt fully recovered.. let meet up soon again okies.. i shld nt be contagious already. :P maybe being ya with u guys can make me better soon.. :) miss ya...

LALA LAND

it used to be my one n soley nickname.. but now it represents my feelings.. :? life have been so interesting with MILO, teh su su, holicks, hmmm maybe more to come.. i never felt so motivated to do so many things.. OMG OMG!!! must work hard to all my dreams and hopes.. i get so touched by the smiles of them.. it is so rewarding when u noe tt they appreciate.. it just warms the soul.. i am lucky to be in this.. a new motto.. treat others as how u wanted to be treated... :)

a smile will never fails to brighten up someone's day :)

AH CHOOOOOO..... but with a sweet touch..

got this really nasty viral infection... Gooodness.. i am a frequent client at the clinic till the nurse noes me by name!!!!! wakin call huh!!! better do sth.. gt this really really big pill.. yup THE PILL.. omg.. so tough to swallow.. and now panadol come in orange... somehow me and medicine just click.. love to understand wat is for wat.. :)

tt is just the down side of the day. today was pretty lucky.. haha for those who noe.. i was sneezing away with a smile on my face.. :) siao right.. but den again.. :)

pple just love my nails.. haha tt i went for manicure or sth.. ahha.. it is DIY!!! cheap cheap one... tsk tsk.. maybe can consider a side line in tt.. :)

take care pple.. miss ya... :) check out the next bimbotic post..
oh forget got 2 cakes from secret recipe.. love the new york cheesecake.. yum yum.. the other just aint my cup of milo.. :)

peanuts, cashew nuts, sesame

last sun was spent with my darling gal frens.. went to waraku for lunch till dinner... den i was so tempted to get donuts from donut factory.. went to c the queue.... omg.. super long... but the donuts look soooooo tempting.. ooooo wanted to get... maybe another time bah....

NUtz.. and more NUTz... the past week has been wat my sis says a good gal n not out.. it is driving me NUTZ.. peanuts.... cashew nuts.. sesame... black beans... yellow beans... red beans... realised tt i can't stay at home too often... think i will become nutz....

now i realised the importance of weekends for workin pple.. they r just too impt already.. omg.. hmmm have been gettin really irritable recently.. prob due to too much home... omg.. this is mad...

work has been fun so far.. has been rootin my foot more firmly in it... feeling more confident and daring now... :) well i still get teased as usual by pple ard me :P wat is new right.. but never mind as long it is not harmful and everyone is happy :) i am tooo :)

30 something VS 20 something (MARS)

men... 20 sth vs 30... lots and tons of difference.. i may not be a man expert.. but this is the feelin i generally get.. men r liek when the r more valuable as they aged.. they grow more mature and wiser.. cheek told me this too..he never needs to worry. men just don't have this timeline.. a older man can always date a younger woman. hmmmmmmmm.....

20 sth men r often seraching their goals and dreams in life.. there r many thigns tt they r still learning.. their charm comes in teh terms of their endless energy and passion they have for their dreams. :) theyalso have the innocance......wat they lack is life experience, stability and maturity? .....

30sth.. wat they have is stability, wise, more mature? am i right to say this? they noe how to handle ladies better? more and more of ???? cos i noe not many of them to judge.. but as i said when men aged they become more valuable...

it was werid tt night when i went home with a guy fren.. he was like remiding me tt my peak period is coming to an end soon... better work harder to u neo wat.. :P it kinda felt off when he was the one who reminded me..