emo again...

have been really moody recently... really emo at times... can't stand myself too.. dunno wat's wrong with me... tired? stress? hmmmmm maybe it is the end term stress..dunno... so drained.. i noe my post has been really depressing.. but tt is how i feel... dun worry abt me peeps.. i just need time to settle.. den i will be fine...

i think i really like vivo.. city.. the garden tt overseas sentosa is really nice... it is a nice place just to sit down n have a nice chat....

Vivo City Again

woke up this mornin feelin damn sian... was browsing online, checking out new song.. totally in love with tata young's El Nin-YO!!! it is a hmmm sexy and catchy song... heard tt tata young was voted the sexiest woman in Thailand.. but u noe y.. they can't tell the difference for the rest if they r man or woman!! goodness!!! but must say tt tata is really hot!!!

was surfing online till abt 1230.. felt super sian.. as i had been at home for the past 30 plus hrs.. haha... can't stand it... called pat out and went to VIVO city to watch The OH in Ohio ... hhaa... was excited to watch it at VIVO GV.... after all tt buzz abt the biggest cinema in sg!!!! BUT!!!!! goodness.. we were cramped in a 6 rows cinema diaoz right!!!! hahahh... well it was alright.. but the show din wow me!!! haha.. not a fantastic show though.. dun really recommend it.. hehe... after tt we went to do wat i really loved!!!!! GUESS!!!!! SHOPPING!!!!!!!! was shoppin ard.. BUT EVERYTHIN WAS SO EX!!!! buay ta han.. tt place only for tai tai... not for a poor sch gal.. haha... but it was fun to look ard.. VIVO CITY bring back some memories.. of my 1st visit... argh... but well.. it was a fun afternoon though....oooo must say tt i love the scenery there... it is just sooo romantic!!!!!! hehehe met my dad on the bus ride home.. goodnesss... so ciao!!! hahah

JUST had soon kueh!!!! made by my nai nai!!!! yum yum!! food makes me happy!!!! tt explains right!!! but!!!!! totally love it.. the other time she made, i din get a chance to eat... ate 2 today... wanted another but my stomach cld not fit lah... it a nice change after eatin porridge for the whole day yesterday. hhehe.

Miss Piggy

i think i am really ms piggy today!! slept ate slept ate.. these were the only 2 things i did today.. goodness.. but i really enjoy sleepin... have been deprived of zz recently... too much things on mind. it was a gd rest.. i must get well soon!! cos i want to play and have fun next week!!! miss soooo much this week already!!!

listening to 梁静茹's 暖暖. it is a very sweet song... i totally love it more than qin qin.. there is a particular paragraph tt caught me..

我想说其实你很好

你自己却不知道

真心的对我好不要求回报

爱一个人希望他过更好

他从心里暖暖的

你对自己更重要

hmmm i found this meaningful... wondering if such giving love can exist in reality.. will anyone love someone so deeply and not hoping anything for in return? hmmmmmmm ????????

i think i am werid

still nursing a flu at home... while my frens r out partyin.. it is rarely tt i am stuck at home on a friday night.. at this time i shld be out havin fun with my kakis.. :P well never mind... a good rest is to walk a longer route.. haha.. direct translate frm chi!! opps...

had a shiong day at lab.. did TLC.. was hoping that it can offer me some tender lovin care.. but it din.. i was sneezing and doing my separation today.. wah best!!! but i guess i survive.. complete things that i wanted to do.. :P went for tutorial.. it was quite boring.. wdt!!!

i think i am werid.. i am not used to pple being nice to me... i am tt kind if ya just alittle nice to me.. i will feel so touched.. goodness i think i am mad!!! i am more used to suaning.. and helping others.. i guess maybe i dun like to show my weakness to anyone.. i always put a strong up front.. hmmm tt is bad right? there r still so many things i want to learn.. to be a better person.. at the end of the day.. i still believe that we all r born for a purpose.. me? maybe to serve mankind... haha... i just like helpin pple.. treating them sincerely.. it is just me.. i dun mind.. chi kui.. abit.. if tt makes one happy.. it is my gd pt and bad pt !!! haiz.. but who cares. as long everyone is happy!! I AM!!! :)

I think i must be blind at times

sometimes i think i make a decision too fast, get excited abt thing too easily and judge pple to fast.. :) i am glad tt there r pple ard me who will advice me. i think i shld change this bad habit soon.. so horrible man!! must open my eyes bigger next time :)

my project is running pretty alright i hope.. it looks promising to me.. haha.. feelin comforted.. though now stuck at home nursing a flu and fever.. hope i will be back in action soon!!!

being sick makes one so vulnerable

sitting in front of the com now.. listening to GOong OST's Parrot.. not feeling very well.. aching ... feeling a little emo now.. hmmm wat wrong with me man!! maybe too tired.. liao.. feel like escapin to somewhere for a while.. but goong is really nice... it makes me gong i guess? haha..
went to watch The prestige with a fren. It is a fantastic show!!! must watch.. i was glued to the screen.. for the full 2 hrs.. tt i guess the story right but there was endless twist tt i din not expect. it was a show abt love, brotherhood, hate, revenge. a little on the heavy side.. though alright i need to crash.. gonna have a heavy week ahead..

Had a great night ... :)

woke up early today.. wanted to for lect at 10am..dressed up quite a bit.. but the only prob was my contacts decided not to stick onto my eyes.. haha.. sound werid right... but i want to look gd ... haha.. so just left it on.. and pray tt it won't drop out.. went downstairs already when I gt xp sms tt she is not going.. felt really sian cos all my frens were not going.. so went back home to try to fix my com and zz for a while.. dunno y so sleepy.. my throat is really bad too..

woke up at 11am.. oh no!!! quite late liao... quickly.. freshen up and went down to wait for the bus.. crap.. waited for quite some time... bus did not come.. was late for tutorial.. hehe... but who cares.. this is the most heck tutorial i ever have.. always go in unprepared and crap abit and leave haha... nice tutorial cos there r quite a few out-spoken guys who shares pretty solid opinions.. not bad!! well gave my presentation ... it was abreeze man!! xl and i were like news reporters haha... it was nice tt we got an appaluse after the end of the presentation.. kudos to those who clapped.

went to arts.. for lunch.. hai..kenna suan again.. as usual.. goodness... am i tt easy to suan? after tt went to xp's hall to nuah... we spoke alot.. nice chattin.. and listeing to her work experiences tt allowed her to grew up.. hehe.. i think i am still really green.. need to roughen up alittle more

the highlight of the day was going to esplanade to take photos.. goodness... the ex and present leong's lab grp were all there... 9 of us.. 8 gals and ermm.... uncle ben.. :P.. never had so much fun takin photos leh.. goodnes. there were so many couples.. haha.. we like so extra and so many lightbulbs..
the mei nu mens in full force ... :P

flirting!!!

went to shoppin with pat today.. shop shop.. bought a pink top.. wanted to buy tt white dress one.. but dunno when i will wear it.. den i think now it is not the time to change image haha... i think cute still suits me better... lady like.. maybe when i grad lah..i also got 3 new pairs of earning!!! cool.. love them... went back to bugis today.. sooo tempted to buy this retro purple dress... really loved it... but dunno when will wear it.. can't wear to sch lah. too loud... dun want to get stares.. :P

wat is flirting? according to Wikipedia it means : Flirting is a form of human interaction, usually expressing a sexual or romantic interest in the other person. It can consist of conversation, body language, or brief physical contact. It may be one-sided or reciprocated.

Can everyone flirt or on certain pple... wat kind of flirts are considered disgusting.. can only good lookin pple flirt? haha.. is sweet talkin a type of flirting too? hmm all i can say is that..if ya can't flirt, dun try hard.. it will look super unnatural. i still think sincerity is the best.. :P

feeling blessed....

dunno is it cos i just ate chocolate ice-cream and chocolate.. :P i feel so happy now.. haha.. suddenly i feel so blessed.. so many frens and family who love me and dote me and care for me.. (despite all the suaness!!!!) i feel tt i am the luckiest person on earth!!!.. JUST want to SAY A BIG THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO HAS CONTRIBUTED TO MY BLESSED LIFE.. HEHE... i noe u gals must be sayin tt i am siao.. haha but who cares!!! :P

SInging Therapy !!!

met up with pat today and we went to SING K for 5 hrs...it was damn shiok!! we were super energy low initially!!! cos i think we had a heavy lunch.. lunch was alright only.. not as good as the one i had at crystal jade yesterday!! heeh... but singing pick up after 2 hrs.. i was dancing and singing to the fast no. pat said tt i wld be better off singing fast song... no slow slow sad sad ones.. my goodnesss.. think i too happy liao.. in everything ahha... i sang jolin's Mr Q and F.I.R.'s THREE TIMES!!!! my goodness all very fast songs!! but i cope pretty well :P hehe.. next time must sing sing sing... so fun.... so fun.. haha...

Retail therapy really helps..

went to VIVO city with my family today.. it was a family outing today.. my grandparents were there too!! went to crystal jade to eat.. IT was one of the best lunches i ever had in my life.. the service was superb!! highly recommended!!! i wld def go back there again!!! i had a great day just shoppin, checking out new clothes.. din buy anything though.. thinkin of changing my image to more classy. now alittle too cute... a little too young... someone commented that i was growing old today!!! ':(.. cannot be too cute.. well but tt is me.. okies shld change slowly.. hoping to wearin dresses!! okies must work tt body first too!!!! okies need to get back to runnnin again!!! run run run!!!!

What do i find in the special someone

have been feelin really tired these few days.. dunno if it is the haze, too much of work.. :P.. super drained... and shag... but still went out for our weekly dinner and drinks.. i din drink today though... was not feelin tt well.. think comin down with sth nasty.. hmmmm but uncle ben brought up an interesting topic today.. actually lots lah. he was askin us wat do we find in our partners.. haha... well for me i think lots of chemistry is impt... i need to communicate with him. he shld be able to listen to me and also conduct a decent fun conversation with me... haha.. hmmm well.. there is of course alot more other things... for eg.. all gals wld want to find a guy tt they feel safe with... it is tough at least for me... i dun get tt with everyone easily. we went on to many very serious topics on r/s... it is nice to have such heart to heart talk with uncle ben.. :P... really treasure this feeling!!

had a really bad day

already promised myself not to be sad again.. but somehow... tears just flowed.. it is a way for me to really de-stress... i guess.. i like cryin.. i just dunno y.. hooked on it.... well... there is sth i must say.. i can be really stubborn at times.. when i am tired, lost and pek chek .. i wld force myself to go on and not give up..tt is me.. tt is y i din want to eat today.. ir eally no mood to eat...no matter how u force me.. but thanks for gettin me a lunch.. and my fav strawberry milkshake... i felt so much better after guess food does make me happy.. haha..
well u gals have seen almost all my sides.... this is so not exciting already... i will go and think of more surprises.... :P anyway thanks gals... thanks for just being there for me today... sob sob..
PS: i dun mind more TLC and less suaning!!!

IT WAS A MEMORABLE NIGHT

it was the best mid autumn festival i ever had in my life!! thanks peeps for making it such a happening one!!

Date: 6/10/06
Time 8.15 till late!! ( cld be earlier but sth happen!!!)
People: Invited Frens!!


the action started when everyone gathered in our office.. the haze was too bad already.. (PSI was 69 at 6 pm) JY and i decided not to run if it was over 50.. we really slack goodness. hence, we asked everyone to gather in our office haah.. Everyone reached at around 645. Mr B left his guitar in the office, hence we asked him to play sth for us. He played a couple of songs, made me to sing cos he was complainin tt he was sick!! rubbish lah!! he has a superb voice... check his singing one of these days ya!!! we decide to proceed on with our mission!!! but!! sth happen... want to noe.. ask me the next time u see me ya!!! dun wish to post it online.. but it was def a happening night!!!! WE only MANAGE to play with lanterns ard 8 plus.. had lots of fun with fire sparkles and the lanterns... it was really a childhood activity!! after tt we had dinner/ supper at 11 pm!! and of course our weekly dosage of beer!!!! really love u bunch of peeps!!! we have so much fun!! never had so much fun in my uni life!!! THANK GUYS!!! MUACKS!!!!!!

just feel like bloggin..

guess wat.. i am in sch now.. was doing my surface sci paper the whole day.. damn tired now.. later got surface sci lecture. hmm but really feel like bloggin... had a great past weekend. was quite stress last week but all the blues went away after i spoke to my boss. i have a clearer direction of where i will be heading.. after tt went to jog!!! 8 rounds... jogging never felt so great!!! happening.. i must aim to jog more often.. went for dinner and drink after tt.. it was a nice a feeling.. the following day went for my tung lok tim sum buffet tt i was cravin for a few weeks with my family.. had lots of fun eatin prawns.. hehe.. after tt headed home and slept. really piggy leh.. buay ta han..

i think the really happening thing was tt i watched gong finish within 2 days.. started on sat night.. well it really got me so hooked!! i am totally in love with SHIN GOON!!!! argh.... he is sooooo charming!!! wdt.. i also want someone like tt..it is a must watch show peeps... ehehhe

now i am in the lib typin my essay.. hhehe hf and xl r sitting opp me watchin some variety show.. hehe.. slack leh they 2.. haha well but i really treasure this bunch of frens.. i think they r really happenin maN!!!!! we r even going to play lanterns this fri after joggin... hehehe... must jog more... lookin foward to look pretty during my prom!! hehe... fang yi going to say tt i am hua chi again!!oh no!!!! heehhe....

oooo ice-cream

my goodness!! i ate sooo much ice-cream and chocolate this week.. but they r the happy food tt keep me happy!! i can feel the fat swimming ard on my butt!! how how.. need to work out already.. i think i shld not just cont to be so sad.. try to finish 1 thing at a time.. work is endless. but i shld aim to live a life. and not just work like a zombie. i shld start afresh and cont to work!! must jia yo!!! thanks stef for being there for me when i really needed someone to chill out!!! i enjoyed tues dinner and ben and jerry ice-cream. and today's sushi and anderson ice-cream.

hmm we spoke abt an interesting topic. we were sayin tt how gals turn les.. cos we so understand each other!!! i was tellin her tt i hope to be a guy.. cos i think i wld noe how to charm gals but she told me tt cos i am a gal so i noe how to!!! hehe but i think it wld be interesting to be a guy.. den i was tellin her tt i think tt it is quite easy to charm a guy. she told me it is easy to charm mature guys.. hmm well i guess shld be more of guys who can play along.. it is a skill i think ... hehe...i think this is really interesting..

eyes sore... headache

have been cryin for the past few days.. just feel so tired, drained and..... there r so much to do.. to think .. sometimes i start to ponder if i am really cut up for all these.. y do i feel so tired.. it it cos i take things too hard.. or do i want to please everyone too much till i forget abt myself.. how i wish i cld hide into sth really small and be away from this world for a while. just have a moment for myself. really feel like puttin everything down and escape into my own world for a while.. just a while..

Snif Snif

wow.. it has been a while since i blog. have been really drained for the past few weeks. now tt i am sick, tt is when i find time to sit down and blog.. lol.. hmm my honours project is going out i guess. i am takin it slightly easier as compared to the start. BUT tt does not mean tt i am slacking!! just not so stress out. hmmm but the other mod r drivin me mad!! think i shld work harder for the other mod. the past week have been rather lethagic but still fun. i love sittin outside the lab area to have lunch with my frens. it is a nice da bao feeling.. away from the crowd in the canteen. at least we can laugh and talk normally. in the canteen sometimes it is tough to hear each other.. i never had so much fun in my uni life till yr 4 when i met this bunch of crazy gals n guys.. goodness.. really treasure u guys.. everyone must jia yo.. i noe many of ya r at the saturation point.. but go on and push on.. cos u r not the only one.. i will be there with ya!!! jia yo peeps!!!

The Roles have changed

Went out with stef today and my honours classmates yesterday.. sth interesting tt we spoke abt was gender roles. we were sayin that we think that the roles have changed.. the gals r being more garang, more decisive whereas the guys r the opp.. my goodness.. some guys r hopin tt they will find a gal tt will take care of him and not the other way round where it used to be the man who brings the bread and butter and wear the pants. Another issue.. r our singaporean guys really not gentlemanly or they r just bo chap!! it is interesting to noe tt in the states

1) the guy must always finish the food faster than the gal or he cannot finish eating his food if he gal has finished hers ( no wonder the guys r quiet when they eat!! no time need to race against the gals, otherwise no food!!)

2) a guy shld never sit down till the gal does..

wow. do our guys do tt? maybe some.. but wat happened? actually i dun really blame them.. maybe it is how the society tt shaped them to be like tt? from young, pampering from their mums? when the grow old, woman shld be treated equally since we also have equal education.. haha.. BUT I MUST SAY STH!!!!! no matter how close a guy and gal is!!! the guy shld really learn to treat a gal a gal and not his guy buddy.. tt is the least u can do.. we dun expect u guys to open car doors for us lah.. but ya treat us as a gal.. need tips? haha leave a tag... see if i can go and fish out how a gentlemanly guy behaves.. hehe

Kudos to everyone!!!

Had lots of fun.. played volleyball today though i was really lousy at it.. got to noe the real way to start a ball!!! thanks gals for teaching me. next time if got chance shall try touch rugby. hehe.. den we went to holland V in our stinko clothes. to eat dinner and drink!! goodnesss.. we were smellyl ah.. but heck.. hehe.. the guys bathed though.. hehe.. We even celebrated Carmen's bday!!! haha.. so cool!! i only knew her for like 3 hrs n we were celebrating her bday. the cake was really good!!!!

I am sure lookin forward to more of such stuff!!! eg: celebrating each other's bady.. going to club? sing K? ooooo fun fun... it wld be a good break from work!!!