TRUST

it takes alot of courage to trust someone fully. this is really tough... at least for me i find it tough.. for me .. either i trust u 100% and tell ya everything or it is the other.. normally in my case if i feel tt someone is sincere enough, can liao.. haha.. and tt is my bad pt too.. trust pple too much.. esp for frenships. and in the end get hurt. as for work... i find it tough to trust ppel unless i see if for myself.. tellin me is useless most of the time.

Trust is a big issue with r/s too.. i think it is quite impossible to ever find someone u can trust totally.. i really envy those who can do this. sometimes pple might say tt time is a the factor and eventually u will trust the person.. haha is this really true? can 2 pple believe wat the partner says.. hmmm i beg to differ. call me a pessimistic person. but i dun think tt will happen.. well BUT!!!!!!! ............................ i am still hopeful to find someone tt i can eventually trust.. :P wish me luck den!!! :)

LUNCH

was really sian this morning.. cos have been doing work for the past like 36 hrs.. hehe.. din really sleep properly last night... must be the tea!!! was turning and tossin on the bed... woke up damn early this morning.. 8plus.. was lazing on the bed.. din want to get up.. till 845am haha.. after breakfast was doing structural assignment.. quite challenging leh.. count till i see stars ahah..den cld take no more ..

met pat for lunch at VIVO.. haha... we went to sushi TEi... ate ebi bowl , fried squid, and salmon maki.. my fav was salmon maki... yum yumm.. the ebi bowl had lots of onions.. i hate onions.. eeeeek.... den we went to shop shop ard to digest the food.. ahhaha... i bought a necklace.. a pair of earings and heeh.. 2 CUTE clips... oooooo.. after which we headed for BEN and Jerry's ice-cream.. was quite full but heck, it is happy food.. it wld make me happy haha went to counter.. i was served by this really cute gal.. ya i mean gal.. she had big and pretty eyes.. hehhe like me.. and a beautiful smile... she was like r u 2 sharing.. y dun try the mix and match.. haha i was like.. er give me a min.. cos WAS really fulll , wanted a small scoop only.. but den after tt i was like ..er price abt the same.. so we got the mix and match.. we had New York super fudge choc, cookies and cream and Dublin Mudslide.. ( contains RUM) haha.. and almonds and hot fudge.. super sinful lah.. omg...... but heck... pat loved the cookies and cream totally... i liek new york one.. better haha.. pat mention that the dublin mudslide tasted like jiang qing.. i was liek where got.. must be the alcohol lah ahahahha..... den the more i tasted i was like.. hmmmm you tiao.. omg.. it tasted like tt... haha..... but we treid to finish... dman full lah... haha...

we went off after tt.. came to to cont work haha... but my bus broke down on the way home.. i was liek haiz.. and it was raining till u have a mudslide... so much after eatin tt mudslide haha... well had to get out of the bus and waited for another... when the next bus came... everyone rushed onto the bus like there were freebies like tt.. haiz.. the singaporean KSium!!!! haha... well but there was this guy.. at first i was liek ... wa not garang.. go up the bus must open umbrella.. even i also heck just run up the bus.. haha... but later he offered to shelter a lady up a bus.. hehe.. so gentlemanly.. WE NEED MORE OF SUCH MAN IN THIS WORLD MAN!! ahahhaha alright enough of this.. go back to mug liao hehe..

ME

feeling high now... took a 2 hr afternoon nap.. just now.. it feels so good to get so much zz haha.. let me tell tell u guys more abt myself haha... i am a chinese gal.. though very dark and dun have the typical chin look u noe the small slit eyes, the small mouth ahha.. and super fair skin... but i got very NICE EYES AND A BEAUTIFUL SMILe. :O i noe i got nice features.. Alot of pple tell me tt haha i never brag okies.. cos REMEMBER!! self praise is not praise!! it is international disgrace!!!!all these are wat pple tell me one.. haha.. also i use werid language.. my english is wat i call juicy, beefy and flowery.. haha.. if u want to communicate with me have to learn those lah... otherwise tough leh.. i can be quite siao at time... esp when i get enough zz and will suan pple.. BUT>.. most of the time i dun get enough zz so i let pple suan... so peeps.. i never show u guys my real power hor!!! heeh... okies as for my character.. haha PPLE TELL ME TT I AM sweet, cute, adorable, thoughtful, nice, caring. omg... i can't contiune.. i dunno i am tt great!! hahaha.. .okies okies enough of this rubbish... check out my next entry den haha.. ciao...

Having kids..

i totally love children.. omg.. this topic... it is one of the signs of growing old.. hmmm today went to MM with gor, xl and hf after surface lecture. we were talkin abt how many kids we want.. xl and hf thinks tt the ideal is 3, my gor 2 max.. no more than tt.. me.. i dun mind have alot.. if i can afford it haha.. my gor was sayin 2 is enough liao.. it is financial taxing and mentally too. hmmmm true in a way. but i jsut really love kids.. i will def need to find someone who share my tts.. :) den xl asked if i am prepared to be a housewife. haha... i dun mind just stayin at home to care for the kids and watch them grow.. it is a process that one shld have otherwise u will regert it i think haha.. oh no.. this is so wrong. i am feeling soooo old hehe....

The life span of a woman

had a girly talk with some of my jie meis today.. we were chattin on the topic of the lifespan of a woman.. apparently 25 is the big no. once we hit tt everything will just go down hill for us.. we will jsut lose all our youths, energy and even our child-bearing abilites will decrease. hmmm tt sound really sad right? omg.. but it is the truth.. there an article on single woman over 35 unable to find a partner.. i mean difficulties lah.. hmmm well it sounds really unfair right? how come man can age gracefully.. but the situation does not seems like with woman.. we just grow and get abandon somewhere.. ???? wah sounds sooo wrong leh.. hehe.. but in any case..i am still hopeful for the future.. :)

emo again...

have been really moody recently... really emo at times... can't stand myself too.. dunno wat's wrong with me... tired? stress? hmmmmm maybe it is the end term stress..dunno... so drained.. i noe my post has been really depressing.. but tt is how i feel... dun worry abt me peeps.. i just need time to settle.. den i will be fine...

i think i really like vivo.. city.. the garden tt overseas sentosa is really nice... it is a nice place just to sit down n have a nice chat....

Vivo City Again

woke up this mornin feelin damn sian... was browsing online, checking out new song.. totally in love with tata young's El Nin-YO!!! it is a hmmm sexy and catchy song... heard tt tata young was voted the sexiest woman in Thailand.. but u noe y.. they can't tell the difference for the rest if they r man or woman!! goodness!!! but must say tt tata is really hot!!!

was surfing online till abt 1230.. felt super sian.. as i had been at home for the past 30 plus hrs.. haha... can't stand it... called pat out and went to VIVO city to watch The OH in Ohio ... hhaa... was excited to watch it at VIVO GV.... after all tt buzz abt the biggest cinema in sg!!!! BUT!!!!! goodness.. we were cramped in a 6 rows cinema diaoz right!!!! hahahh... well it was alright.. but the show din wow me!!! haha.. not a fantastic show though.. dun really recommend it.. hehe... after tt we went to do wat i really loved!!!!! GUESS!!!!! SHOPPING!!!!!!!! was shoppin ard.. BUT EVERYTHIN WAS SO EX!!!! buay ta han.. tt place only for tai tai... not for a poor sch gal.. haha... but it was fun to look ard.. VIVO CITY bring back some memories.. of my 1st visit... argh... but well.. it was a fun afternoon though....oooo must say tt i love the scenery there... it is just sooo romantic!!!!!! hehehe met my dad on the bus ride home.. goodnesss... so ciao!!! hahah

JUST had soon kueh!!!! made by my nai nai!!!! yum yum!! food makes me happy!!!! tt explains right!!! but!!!!! totally love it.. the other time she made, i din get a chance to eat... ate 2 today... wanted another but my stomach cld not fit lah... it a nice change after eatin porridge for the whole day yesterday. hhehe.

Miss Piggy

i think i am really ms piggy today!! slept ate slept ate.. these were the only 2 things i did today.. goodness.. but i really enjoy sleepin... have been deprived of zz recently... too much things on mind. it was a gd rest.. i must get well soon!! cos i want to play and have fun next week!!! miss soooo much this week already!!!

listening to 梁静茹's 暖暖. it is a very sweet song... i totally love it more than qin qin.. there is a particular paragraph tt caught me..

我想说其实你很好

你自己却不知道

真心的对我好不要求回报

爱一个人希望他过更好

他从心里暖暖的

你对自己更重要

hmmm i found this meaningful... wondering if such giving love can exist in reality.. will anyone love someone so deeply and not hoping anything for in return? hmmmmmmm ????????

i think i am werid

still nursing a flu at home... while my frens r out partyin.. it is rarely tt i am stuck at home on a friday night.. at this time i shld be out havin fun with my kakis.. :P well never mind... a good rest is to walk a longer route.. haha.. direct translate frm chi!! opps...

had a shiong day at lab.. did TLC.. was hoping that it can offer me some tender lovin care.. but it din.. i was sneezing and doing my separation today.. wah best!!! but i guess i survive.. complete things that i wanted to do.. :P went for tutorial.. it was quite boring.. wdt!!!

i think i am werid.. i am not used to pple being nice to me... i am tt kind if ya just alittle nice to me.. i will feel so touched.. goodness i think i am mad!!! i am more used to suaning.. and helping others.. i guess maybe i dun like to show my weakness to anyone.. i always put a strong up front.. hmmm tt is bad right? there r still so many things i want to learn.. to be a better person.. at the end of the day.. i still believe that we all r born for a purpose.. me? maybe to serve mankind... haha... i just like helpin pple.. treating them sincerely.. it is just me.. i dun mind.. chi kui.. abit.. if tt makes one happy.. it is my gd pt and bad pt !!! haiz.. but who cares. as long everyone is happy!! I AM!!! :)

I think i must be blind at times

sometimes i think i make a decision too fast, get excited abt thing too easily and judge pple to fast.. :) i am glad tt there r pple ard me who will advice me. i think i shld change this bad habit soon.. so horrible man!! must open my eyes bigger next time :)

my project is running pretty alright i hope.. it looks promising to me.. haha.. feelin comforted.. though now stuck at home nursing a flu and fever.. hope i will be back in action soon!!!

being sick makes one so vulnerable

sitting in front of the com now.. listening to GOong OST's Parrot.. not feeling very well.. aching ... feeling a little emo now.. hmmm wat wrong with me man!! maybe too tired.. liao.. feel like escapin to somewhere for a while.. but goong is really nice... it makes me gong i guess? haha..
went to watch The prestige with a fren. It is a fantastic show!!! must watch.. i was glued to the screen.. for the full 2 hrs.. tt i guess the story right but there was endless twist tt i din not expect. it was a show abt love, brotherhood, hate, revenge. a little on the heavy side.. though alright i need to crash.. gonna have a heavy week ahead..

Had a great night ... :)

woke up early today.. wanted to for lect at 10am..dressed up quite a bit.. but the only prob was my contacts decided not to stick onto my eyes.. haha.. sound werid right... but i want to look gd ... haha.. so just left it on.. and pray tt it won't drop out.. went downstairs already when I gt xp sms tt she is not going.. felt really sian cos all my frens were not going.. so went back home to try to fix my com and zz for a while.. dunno y so sleepy.. my throat is really bad too..

woke up at 11am.. oh no!!! quite late liao... quickly.. freshen up and went down to wait for the bus.. crap.. waited for quite some time... bus did not come.. was late for tutorial.. hehe... but who cares.. this is the most heck tutorial i ever have.. always go in unprepared and crap abit and leave haha... nice tutorial cos there r quite a few out-spoken guys who shares pretty solid opinions.. not bad!! well gave my presentation ... it was abreeze man!! xl and i were like news reporters haha... it was nice tt we got an appaluse after the end of the presentation.. kudos to those who clapped.

went to arts.. for lunch.. hai..kenna suan again.. as usual.. goodness... am i tt easy to suan? after tt went to xp's hall to nuah... we spoke alot.. nice chattin.. and listeing to her work experiences tt allowed her to grew up.. hehe.. i think i am still really green.. need to roughen up alittle more

the highlight of the day was going to esplanade to take photos.. goodness... the ex and present leong's lab grp were all there... 9 of us.. 8 gals and ermm.... uncle ben.. :P.. never had so much fun takin photos leh.. goodnes. there were so many couples.. haha.. we like so extra and so many lightbulbs..
the mei nu mens in full force ... :P

flirting!!!

went to shoppin with pat today.. shop shop.. bought a pink top.. wanted to buy tt white dress one.. but dunno when i will wear it.. den i think now it is not the time to change image haha... i think cute still suits me better... lady like.. maybe when i grad lah..i also got 3 new pairs of earning!!! cool.. love them... went back to bugis today.. sooo tempted to buy this retro purple dress... really loved it... but dunno when will wear it.. can't wear to sch lah. too loud... dun want to get stares.. :P

wat is flirting? according to Wikipedia it means : Flirting is a form of human interaction, usually expressing a sexual or romantic interest in the other person. It can consist of conversation, body language, or brief physical contact. It may be one-sided or reciprocated.

Can everyone flirt or on certain pple... wat kind of flirts are considered disgusting.. can only good lookin pple flirt? haha.. is sweet talkin a type of flirting too? hmm all i can say is that..if ya can't flirt, dun try hard.. it will look super unnatural. i still think sincerity is the best.. :P

feeling blessed....

dunno is it cos i just ate chocolate ice-cream and chocolate.. :P i feel so happy now.. haha.. suddenly i feel so blessed.. so many frens and family who love me and dote me and care for me.. (despite all the suaness!!!!) i feel tt i am the luckiest person on earth!!!.. JUST want to SAY A BIG THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO HAS CONTRIBUTED TO MY BLESSED LIFE.. HEHE... i noe u gals must be sayin tt i am siao.. haha but who cares!!! :P

SInging Therapy !!!

met up with pat today and we went to SING K for 5 hrs...it was damn shiok!! we were super energy low initially!!! cos i think we had a heavy lunch.. lunch was alright only.. not as good as the one i had at crystal jade yesterday!! heeh... but singing pick up after 2 hrs.. i was dancing and singing to the fast no. pat said tt i wld be better off singing fast song... no slow slow sad sad ones.. my goodnesss.. think i too happy liao.. in everything ahha... i sang jolin's Mr Q and F.I.R.'s THREE TIMES!!!! my goodness all very fast songs!! but i cope pretty well :P hehe.. next time must sing sing sing... so fun.... so fun.. haha...

Retail therapy really helps..

went to VIVO city with my family today.. it was a family outing today.. my grandparents were there too!! went to crystal jade to eat.. IT was one of the best lunches i ever had in my life.. the service was superb!! highly recommended!!! i wld def go back there again!!! i had a great day just shoppin, checking out new clothes.. din buy anything though.. thinkin of changing my image to more classy. now alittle too cute... a little too young... someone commented that i was growing old today!!! ':(.. cannot be too cute.. well but tt is me.. okies shld change slowly.. hoping to wearin dresses!! okies must work tt body first too!!!! okies need to get back to runnnin again!!! run run run!!!!

What do i find in the special someone

have been feelin really tired these few days.. dunno if it is the haze, too much of work.. :P.. super drained... and shag... but still went out for our weekly dinner and drinks.. i din drink today though... was not feelin tt well.. think comin down with sth nasty.. hmmmm but uncle ben brought up an interesting topic today.. actually lots lah. he was askin us wat do we find in our partners.. haha... well for me i think lots of chemistry is impt... i need to communicate with him. he shld be able to listen to me and also conduct a decent fun conversation with me... haha.. hmmm well.. there is of course alot more other things... for eg.. all gals wld want to find a guy tt they feel safe with... it is tough at least for me... i dun get tt with everyone easily. we went on to many very serious topics on r/s... it is nice to have such heart to heart talk with uncle ben.. :P... really treasure this feeling!!

had a really bad day

already promised myself not to be sad again.. but somehow... tears just flowed.. it is a way for me to really de-stress... i guess.. i like cryin.. i just dunno y.. hooked on it.... well... there is sth i must say.. i can be really stubborn at times.. when i am tired, lost and pek chek .. i wld force myself to go on and not give up..tt is me.. tt is y i din want to eat today.. ir eally no mood to eat...no matter how u force me.. but thanks for gettin me a lunch.. and my fav strawberry milkshake... i felt so much better after guess food does make me happy.. haha..
well u gals have seen almost all my sides.... this is so not exciting already... i will go and think of more surprises.... :P anyway thanks gals... thanks for just being there for me today... sob sob..
PS: i dun mind more TLC and less suaning!!!

IT WAS A MEMORABLE NIGHT

it was the best mid autumn festival i ever had in my life!! thanks peeps for making it such a happening one!!

Date: 6/10/06
Time 8.15 till late!! ( cld be earlier but sth happen!!!)
People: Invited Frens!!


the action started when everyone gathered in our office.. the haze was too bad already.. (PSI was 69 at 6 pm) JY and i decided not to run if it was over 50.. we really slack goodness. hence, we asked everyone to gather in our office haah.. Everyone reached at around 645. Mr B left his guitar in the office, hence we asked him to play sth for us. He played a couple of songs, made me to sing cos he was complainin tt he was sick!! rubbish lah!! he has a superb voice... check his singing one of these days ya!!! we decide to proceed on with our mission!!! but!! sth happen... want to noe.. ask me the next time u see me ya!!! dun wish to post it online.. but it was def a happening night!!!! WE only MANAGE to play with lanterns ard 8 plus.. had lots of fun with fire sparkles and the lanterns... it was really a childhood activity!! after tt we had dinner/ supper at 11 pm!! and of course our weekly dosage of beer!!!! really love u bunch of peeps!!! we have so much fun!! never had so much fun in my uni life!!! THANK GUYS!!! MUACKS!!!!!!

just feel like bloggin..

guess wat.. i am in sch now.. was doing my surface sci paper the whole day.. damn tired now.. later got surface sci lecture. hmm but really feel like bloggin... had a great past weekend. was quite stress last week but all the blues went away after i spoke to my boss. i have a clearer direction of where i will be heading.. after tt went to jog!!! 8 rounds... jogging never felt so great!!! happening.. i must aim to jog more often.. went for dinner and drink after tt.. it was a nice a feeling.. the following day went for my tung lok tim sum buffet tt i was cravin for a few weeks with my family.. had lots of fun eatin prawns.. hehe.. after tt headed home and slept. really piggy leh.. buay ta han..

i think the really happening thing was tt i watched gong finish within 2 days.. started on sat night.. well it really got me so hooked!! i am totally in love with SHIN GOON!!!! argh.... he is sooooo charming!!! wdt.. i also want someone like tt..it is a must watch show peeps... ehehhe

now i am in the lib typin my essay.. hhehe hf and xl r sitting opp me watchin some variety show.. hehe.. slack leh they 2.. haha well but i really treasure this bunch of frens.. i think they r really happenin maN!!!!! we r even going to play lanterns this fri after joggin... hehehe... must jog more... lookin foward to look pretty during my prom!! hehe... fang yi going to say tt i am hua chi again!!oh no!!!! heehhe....