u really made a difference in many of our lives...

omg... too happening already right.. jsut touched down this morning and now out partying with everyone... super envy lah... while me sitting in front of the com nursing a bad throat... okie tml shall paint the town red with u guys... i guessed everyone kinda miss ya alot alot alot.. esp ur lao po and daughter.. just saw the email u wrote.. ahha gettin emo.. got cry or not.. omg.. how i wish i am out there with u guys now...

i miss those times when.......

i sit cross legged at the red tables

i play bridge w/o any worries

i talk crap with u guys at

1) brekko

2) red tables

3) outside level 5 lab

4) Starbucks

omg... the past 2 weeks has been mad for me... paiseh if i turn down so many things... tryin to get adjusted to new life... :0 thanks for being so understanding... promise to organise more outings and spend time with u guys... i noe many of u r going to work sooon.... jia yo.. peeps.. prob will pop by the red table to play bridge with u guys after work.. :)

excited..

the past week has been really busy.. running ard doing stuff... need to prep myself for the future.. :) fun it has been.. enjoyed most of the sessions... and moments.. :) lookin forward to settling down in the new environment and givin my best :) hope i can do it.. :)

sat spent most of my time tryin to save my dyin com.. it is not really functionin well.. tons of bugs i think.. tryin to fix it.. thus din shop with ya guys.. otherwise wld love to go.. haha.. can see all the auntieness in ya peeps... hopefully there will be such a chance soon.. need to get workin clothes.. runnin short of them ooopssss. den met up for pirates 3... heard tt it has bad reviews.. but well gave it a chance..well found it rather draggy.. there were parts where they tried too hard to pump in the funny factor.. it din work for me.. nope it din.. well some parts were pretty good too.. and some were gross.. i was like clentching to my jacket.. er... okies.. moive so-so only.. don't have too high hopes..

after tt went to TONG SHUI.. haha we sure love tt place.. on the way tt ben asked if i am keen to climb Mount K.. if i had the time.. i prob will really go.. qutie gian to try new stuff... :) but abit tough lah.. schedule diff to arrange..

anway had the peanut better toast.. hmm this bunch aint tt crazy over tt leh like the other bunch i brought.. haha well anyway we played BRIDGE!!!! omg.. it has been ages since i played tt.. omg.. missed itl.. hopefully beNNY comes back soon... miss him... omg..

suresh and CK got me gifts.. suresh gave me this PINK turtle.. haha omg.. PINK.. okies everyone must be thinkin so duh right.. but it is cute.. got BIG eyes.. like mine.. :) CK gave me this book with a TURTLE ON it..nice book.. like it too!!! :) my sis.. gave me a bottle sand from there.. really hope tt i get a chance to go there to nuah.. always wanted to go there ever since teh movie... i liek the sea, sand and water.. i just love nature.. :) love the prezzies.. thanks.. peeps..

was chattin with my gf the other day.. she wants to hook me up with her law fren.. sayin how much suitable he is for me and vice-versa.. haah cute huh..but not now... now.. got other things in plan.. excited abt my plans too... jia yo.. everyone in achievin wat u r doing.. and hopin to do so...:)

Josh Groban - You Raise Me

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;

When troubles come and my heart burdened be;

Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,

Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up… To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up… To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up… To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up… To more than I can be.

You raise me up… To more than I can be.

fab day

had a fantastic day.. it felt comfortable.. thanks for all the well wishes... hope tt i will survive and excel in wat i am doing.. :) really excited and full of anticipation... hope tt things will be fine for ya drey... it will work out one.. :) have fun everyone.. jia yo!!!!! :)

nuah the whole day

woke up late and laze in bed this morning.. did nothing much.. wanted to laz ard the house.. wanted to be prepared for tml.. excited yupz.. went for a family dinner at this really good zi cha place a ghim moh.. per person ard 10. got oat prawns, sweet and sour pork, asparagus, claypot tofu and you tiao.. yum yum.. the servings were large.. and food is fab.. must go there again.. next time.. got quite a few well wishes for tml.. thanks guys... will heed ya advice and jia yo one.. everyone take lots of care n work hard.. hope tt things will be fine for drey tml.. don't worry gal.. it will be okies.. :)

shoppin with mummy

it has been ages since i shopped with mummy alone.. have not been spendin quality time with my family.. neglected them quite a bit.. busy.. okies i noe u will tell me tt it is an excuse.. i think more effort shld be made.. i treasure my family alot.. they r the most impt pple in my life.. tml hoping tt i can cook for them again.. it has been ages.. wanted to try out the HAKKA dishes my nai nai taught.. but mummy say not tml... i want to go learn cookin from nai nai.. i love her dishes.. oooooo the vinegar pork thingy... yum yum.. the abacus... ooo drooling.. and the Hakka yong tau foo... i think these food r impt to me.. :)

we had fun.. cos mummy wanted to get shoes.. me 2.. workin soon.. den all my shoes abit the cmi... we shopped and it helps tt it is the gss.. i bought sooo much again .. omg.. eg make-up..this princess pocket thingy.. so pretty.. a pair of nice shorts.. eye make up remover.. wanted the clinque one.. but the lady was liek aiyah recommend this korean brand quite cheap.. so try.. :) 1/3 of the price.. oooo got a bag.. haha another bag... but is damn cheap.. can't resist.. well in the din get my shoes.. hope those i wear cmi on monday.. :) super excited to work on monday.. Wish me luck... :)

PS: paiseh to my dear YEP mates.. din join u guys for lunch today.. hope tt u peeps had fun... :)

ABC

ABC.. american born chinese? X.. i think i have said this b4.. it is acting bluffing n cheating.. blog abt this b4 i think.. learnt abt sth last night.. well it reflected alot of things.. things which pple prob hate facin it? the world is aint tt simple or beautiful as some may view it.. it is totally ugly.. lots of politics. alot of bullshiting.. alot of bluffing and tons of cheating...

there are many things which just ain't within our control.. unlucky? maybe.. fate? maybe? well someone did tell me tt there will not be high w/o lows.. i guess life aint as smooth as silk? u won't appreciate the ups if there weren't downs.. u won't grow and learn sth if there weren't the downs. most impt!!! buck up and move on.. the day will still shine for ya tml.. who noes the rainbow might appear on the other end waitin for ya to discover.. never lose hope in things.. and never regret the past.. tt is a motto which i live by..

the end and the beginning..

today marks the start and the end of different chps of my life.. went to my com HQ for an orientation talk and to get my badge.. starting work next monday.. excited.. dunno wat to expect though.. senior sound really sweet.. cross fingers.. hope tt things will turn out well..

received my results.. pretty tense.. cos it is the last sem.. was hopin tt i can come with wat i was hopin for.. i did.. so congrats... grades were not tt great.. but i guess it is pointless to be sad.. move on and work hard.. one of my gf called me up .. she was really upset abt her results.. all i can say tt .. be upset and go cry it out.. if ya really want to. but there is still a long life ahead.. buck up.. and move on.. there will be bound to be more challenges in life future..

CONGRATS to those who did well.. we survived.. today marks the unofficial end to most of our education life.. we have come such a long way... to get this paper qualification.. but tt is not the end but just a start.. press on for those going to the workin society.. may ya survive the politics there and excel in it.. for those cont grad studies.. hope tt u do make a finding and prob get a Noble prize? :) all the best to everyone... jia yo!!

meetin up was sooo fun!!!

met 2 of my frens today for lunch and dinner separately.. met jace for lunch first.. went to Waraku Japanese Restaurant... love their stuff there.. my fav jap restaurant so far.. :) had the beef combo thingy... yum yum and also a scallop paperboat and also prawn... it was really really good... well the company was great too... we catch up on stuff.. we xchange abt stuff... it was nice to hear her opinons on stuff.. and hear her sharing her life... miss ya gal.. i told her tt she changed for the better.. it was a nice feeling talkin to her.. she told me tt i become happier this yr.. :) more smiles... thanks babe... hope tt things will also be ok for ya.. :) jia yo in working life too :)

she gave me lots of goodies from taiwan... yum yum
there is the nougget.. got some Strawberry pie thingy.. got this tai yang biscut which she says really really nice.. must go try later.. :) den we went to shop at bugis.. she wanted to get sneakers.. but we din find.. so went to drink bubble tea.. i had a strawberry shake while she tried the papaya shake.. hers was quite horrible and she din finish it.. mine was oooo nice.. we had nice chicken wings tooo :) yum yum.. so fat.. eat and eat.. :P but we walked alot and shopped alot.. din get things. but saw alot of pretty dresses.. :) so tempted to get them.. but must control.. after which she had to go to meet another 2 frens for dinner... me 2... went to VIVO to find olivia..


it has been ages.. i met up with her too.. since my bday party.. :) ooo.. think she lost wt.. we went to this restaurant at VIVO.. cant' rem the name but bugis go tthis outlet too.. i had chicken baked rice.. and a strawberry and kiwi shake.. while she had roast chic with linguine and her coffee thingy... her food looks soo good.. next time i go there must try tt..we were talkin abt the old days when we were bridge addicts.. haha. i was tellin her tt i actually meet up my nus kakis for bridges.. she was not stunned.. ahha she still loves bridge.. was discussing tt we shld have an old gathering with our jc mates.. it has been ages since we met.. and it is a pity tt not many turn up for my bday party.. okies.. shall do tt when ya get back from indo.. she is going to france to do her masters for 1 yr. will miss her.. she passed me my bday gift..






the bear is sooo cute.. ooooo.. and i got another spary from boday shop and tt adds to my collection.. now i have moon flower, lotus petal and also the latest addition of oceanus.. nice nice.. like it.. :) thank gal.. hope tt we can meet up soon again.. :)

Dislikes...

1) guys who treat their gf like princess and the rest of the gals like SHIT ( so condemn them)

2) guys who does not listen to gals.. and just speak abt themselves

3) guys who aren't gentleman

4) guys who cheat on their wives

5) guys who start a conversation on msn with ya n not cont and not even say bye when they log off..!!!! ( SO IRRTATING!!!)

6) guys who thinks tt gals r brainless...

7) guys who has super large egos.. till they must win everytime..

8) guys who r insensitive..

9) guys who treat me liek SHIT!!!!!

10) guys who run disappear into thin air when they dunno how to reject a gal who may like him

11) guys who flirt with gals and giving them false hopes...

12) guys who promise gals things n not do it.. ( so frustrating!!!!)

okies tt is enough for 1 night.. well.. on a lighter note.. had a fab day today though.. :)

great day!!!!

started my day with ben, suresh, and ws at brekko for breakfast.. OMG!! i can't believe tt we met up specially for bridge and also breakfast.. it was fun.. but totally insane esp when ben is flyin off in the night.. breakfast was not bad.. yum yum..we played till 12 plus and i had to travel down with xp to east coast.. today cycling day!!! :) 2nd part of day's program.

after tt went off to cycle with the gals.. omg thanks gals... me dunno how to cycle.. but my granddaughter so nice.. agree to double with me.. :) she is really good.. first time double but she was fab.. quite steady.. we cycled till qutie far.. never been there b4.. really nice.. den sl double with me.. and finally.. xp.. omg.. i was pretty much screaming.. cos it was qutie scary.. but really fun.. fun... shld go cycling more often.. though my butt is really sore now.. :) so cute to see the gals imitating my cute pose.. ahha.. okies go rest my tired muscles.. :)

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after which we went to airport to send our dear uncle ben off.. ate dinner and had ice-cream.. yum yum.. it is realy a nice feelin to see the whole gang back again.. well tt there will be like some emo parts.. but there was not.. though i tt he nearly.. :P suresh and xl gave him a hug.. me 2.. well it was more like a pat on the shoulder.. nice feelin though..

a last gathering...........

17/05/07.......

it was a day when we had a really big gathering.. thanks for making the special effort to actually come to have fun tog as a whole for one last time b4 the next one.. have been lookin forward to this day for sometime.. was hopin tt won't cry also.. had been sayin tt will cry for a while but din really cry in front of the grp...










the day started with lunch at tong shui.. attendance: me, jy, hf, xl, drey and uncle ben.. he came in er sth tt he can zz in ... :) lunch was superb... fang had prob with the menu.. haha.. so cute.. first time or rather 2nd.. she has prob with decidin wat to eat.. norm she chop chop one.. now we noe... had our peanut butter toast again.. some had some korean noodles soup thing.. ooo.. yum yum ..had my mango drink with pomelo... had been cravin badly for it.. thanks ben for suggesting tong shui... he also suggested this chee chong fun wrapped with you tiao.. it has a unique taste.. fusion.. ooooo...












After which we went to sing K!!!!! this is the first time ben join us.. gals... first time he is going to hear the birdy sing.. :) well she did fantastic tt day.. manage qutie a few songs.. dun shy okies ... i liek the feelin singin with ben too.. very heart-warming.. will miss tt feelin.. oh we had a special guest tt day who always say aiyh i dun sing one lah.... BUT she-beng was good lah.. shld hear her sing sing sing..so sweet her voice.. i think all of us really let our hair down and had so much fun.. ben esp was dancing to the fast no.l tt i was singing.. there will still be a next time ya.. :)


finally we went back to the place where there were lots of memories. for us. HOlland V Brekko.. a place where we all started out tog as a grp..

it was where will will meet after runs in sch.. it was a place where we started drinkin tog... it is a place where we will bitch abt anything under the sky.. it is a place where uncle ben will ask his wld ya questions... it is a place where or dear xl will get high and threatens to er u noe lah.. it is a place where i will take alot of act cute photos. it is a place where fang will say one more!! beer.. it is a place where xp will go ooo i love my wedges.. it is a place where jy will go i want 2 beers ahha.. it is a place where drey will go HUH!!! and looked stuneed by our questions and topics.. it is a place where hui will start to come out with her long story and explanations.. so many memories... all so endearing so...familiar.. which will stay with me.. the night ended on a nice note with us commenting on the goods and bads of each other.. and wat do each of us see each and everyone in 10yrs time..and also teh type of partner we eventually end up with..well our crybaby cried... me.. tried so hard to hold back.. cld have join her.. but noooo.. it was a fab day with u guys... thanks for being so special and creating this chp in my life...

today was a fab day!!!

enter into a day mornin at ard 1030 am. din want to wake up . just liek the feelin of lazing in bed. but can be tt lazy so pulled myself out of the bed. wantd to shop for stuff. decided on tiong. went there and shopped for 2 hrs all alone by myself.. wow. so proud of it. got all the things i wanted.. vcool sia.. din noe tt can happen. i suppose i can eat alone by myself soon.

went back to sch to meet the rest of a tennis game. always wanted to play since my daddy plays it. finalyl got a chance. cool it was so much fun. though most of the time i was pickin balls. really quit tiring.. er picking balls.. just feelin liek zzzzz now..

went to brekko with the tennis bunch. omg we were so noisy n R-ated. SHeeeeesh.... liang2 was teh innoncent one? haha it is relaly fun talkin to them.. hopefuklly there will still be a chance..

Graduation Ball 12/05

i am sure everyone agree with me tt the ball was a blast. okeis let's got thr wat happen yesterday to me.. :) woke up early in the morning.. had not packed for the day's event.. had to carry lots of things.. make-up, remover.. haha me like a make-up artist..can consider being one.. had to decide wat accessories to go with the gown.. :) realised tt i really need to eat cos i prob won't get to eat much for the rest of the day.. luckily mummy cooked lunch.. had to eat though was not really hungry..

went down to the hair-dresser at ard 1pm. but she had qutie a few customers. so waited for a while. 130 she started to curl my hair. wow.. she really do stran by stran..amazing.. the whole thing took 45mins.. hmm i din really like my hair at the moment.. cos it looks er to me not nice.. went home.. my sis commented tt my hair looked really nice.. mummy said tt the front was too high.. hmmm took awhile for me to get used to the hair though.. had help wearin my dress.. had to make sure tt everything was in place..:) did my make up.. had the basics on.. and just touched up when i reached the hotel.. but it was really hot.. my make up was really melting.. even when i was home n the fashion tapes were not in place.. it was qutie late when i left home ard 330? promise xp and jy to do their make up so kinda had to rush down a little.. :) mum comment tt i looked like SK gal. omg..

the taxi uncle was blurr, brought me to the wrong hotel.but he charged me 4 bucks for the trip.. only :) finally reached the hotel... XP and Jy were doing nails.. CK and suresh were there nuahing and watchin cartoons.. ben and ws were out.. quickly did JY and XP make up.. hope tt i did an ok job.. :) me aint tt pro.. still learning.. had a bun.. was super hungry by den.. it was a really really nice feeling.. the last time when the gals doll up was at XL's bday party.. hahha liek someone was going to get married.. i wonder will it still feel this way when one of us gets married.. :) ws and ben finally came back and we had to go over to rehearse.. it was running late already.. headed for the ballroom at only 515.. the gals were in heels.. tough to walk.. i mean the norm attire we have is shoes in lab.. :) so heels were not our cup of tea. esp for JY.. so cute.. she was clinging onto me.. :) it started to drizzle when we were walkin over omg.. not good when we had our hair and makeup all done.. but fortunately it din like really pour.. gt to practice and did sound check.. the guy was really nice to ensure tt everything was ok for us..

Dinner was really busy for me at least and prob the 2 hosts.. it started with a bang.. with them comin in with mission impossible theme and sexy back.. haha so funny.. they really onz.. wanted to make ben cry with all the medal thing but we din succeed. hmmm was alittle teary in the end already.. ate the first 2 dishes.. had the same green thingy we had the other time.. we made sure tt the host ate...cos i think everyone was really hungry.. haah shld have seen the 3 of us and plus JY.. everytime we went back to the seats we liek hungry gluttons.. eat and eat and eat and run back to do our stuff.. games and the 2 songs turned out pretty well.. was glad the evening turned out smoothly after all the hard work... of endless nights and practices.. :) think ben and suresh really deserves a big PAT on their back..

was really hungry after the whole event. manage to nibble here and there.. went back to hotel, put down our stuff and went to eat.. at my fav place. tong shui... craving for the peanut butter toast ever since i went there.. oooooo yum yum.. had a really really nice mango drink.. and lots of finger food. i really like tt place alot. :) saw tay ping hui look alike.. but i doubt it is him lah.. :) went back to the room.. showering took us quite abit.. stayed up to talk and ask stupid questions.. it was a nice feeling.. but i was sooo tired tt i fell asleep.. but the rest can really stay up the whole night to play.. OMG!!!!

check out the photos here. :)
http://uk.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/suezke/album?.dir=6de9scd

shoppin with mummy

i am fortunate to so many loving frens and my mummy... woke up really late this morning.. cld not wake up.. still feelin under the weather.. JT came over this afternoon.. to check out my LBD. the one i bought on tues.. she likes it alot.. i found it alittle short.. but she says.. LBD all liek tt one.. i quite liek the dress.. and it was a steal... good buy i mean.. :) check out the salon auntie.. she says can do the hairstyle i want but the front cannot.. hmmm i liek tt one.. but will work things out.. :) crossin my fingers.. hope tt it looks good. )

bought chicken rice up to her place.. her mummy was so nice.. made soup for.. argh.. she is just liek my mummy too.. chill out at her place.. and she lend me someo of her pieces.. thanks gal.. :)

had to rush home.. to change to go town.. cos was meetin mummy (real) for shopping.. my mummmy so nice.. we were tryin to shop for a nicer dress.. :) mummy so cute.. noe tt i love zara stuff.. told me to check out there first.. but nothing caught my eye. went to isetans.. there was mango.. wanted to check out if WS's dress was there.. cld not find.. saw a few others.. very old..liek for those 30 plus..

so went str to TANGS.. cos got voucher from there and i got my JC's prom dress from there.. decided to give it a try.. mummy was so cute.. ask me where shld we start from.. :) we started from Daniel YAm.. i was like er.. no lah.. shopped till i saw this black dress.. din really really like it.. cos it was er werid.. buy mummy loves itl. den i was like okies lor try.. it look fab on me.. but i was still not convince.. so tried on another dress.. aint good.. den tried sth tt look horrible on the racks.. BUT>. surprise.. it look fantastic on me.. i totally love it.. it is tt kind of dress tt when u put on u will go i MUST HAVE THIS.. decided to get it.. den my mummy went over to another and saw more pretty dresses.. i pick out this WINE RED dress.. i quite like it.. was thinkin if i shld buy... cos it is not tt kind can wear to work type.. well in the end bought it.. shld be wearin tt piece..

cont shoppin... bought another pair of shoes.. omg... i loved my shoes.. so cheap and nice.. :) it was a fab day out with mummy... so love ya. mummy... :)

under the weather

woke up at the sound of the alarm clock.. hmmm the feelin was different this morning.. abit lost.. aches and unfocused.. dunno y also.. think comin down with sth nasty.. hope it will nt develope into sth bad..had been feeling lousy since last night's dinner.. tt is y i din manage to finish my food... was struggling.. but no doubt it was good.. :( next time must check there out again. sat is pretty impt..pretty excited too.. there r still so many unsettled.. but super excited abt it..was lookin at the program..oooo latin dance.. sexy.. i think i will enjoy tt the most.. okie hope tt it will be a fab night for all of us.. :)

dinner was fab.. went to IKEA with fang, ling, and jie.. it was a nice feeling... very warm.. sth which i miss... really.. it has been so long since i have this feelin... thanks for bringing it back once again.. fang suggested tt we shld all go to brekko tog as a big grp again.. liek one last time. omg.. really quite sad.. tt we r going on different paths in life..omg.. feel like cryin even just writing this.. it has been an amazing one yr.. never will i have survive w/o u pple.. each n everyone of ya r special to me.. really..

thank you..

somehow i dunno y i feel alittle upset after tonight..it is mixed feelings.. really it is .. i had a wonderful time at bakerzin. the ham and cheese pasta was really good.. thanks for the dinner... i suppose it made the night so much better.. the walk was nice too.. talkin abt anything under the stars was fantastic..

gettin to noe ya was an amazing thing this yr.. never did i realised tt i can find someone so similar and yet always there for me.. thanks for the assurance tt i never failed to get from ya.. deeply touched by the small little actions u have done.. and not to mention the endless support i get from ya.. it is really really sweet.. thank you for painting my life with colours when i only saw black and white.. appreciate it..

never regret wat u have done.. as i am really proud of ya.. u have done things which alot other guys wld prob never try.. i admire u for ur courage.. really.. well.. all i hope for now is tt things will be smooth for ya and we still share this special connection tt we have..

shoppin with mummy..

woke up at 12pm today.. din really zz actually had lots of werid dreams.. omg.. hope they dun come true...freaky...:) mummy wanted to shop with me since she got off work earlier today.. so woke up to go shoppin with her.. missed shoppin with her.. it has been ages since i have done this with her.. it was fun.. we were both tired.. haha.. me from clubbin, my mummy er from working? but well we still shopped... bought quite a bit.. and a nice dress...:) quite like a few others too.. hmmm but slowly huh.. :) wish i can do this more often with her.. :)

i wish i could take some time off once in awhile to smell the flowers in the garden.. to star gaze.. to stone? to play my piano.. just slow down my footsteps.. :)

clubbin with my dearies...

it was a fab night out with the bunch.. wanted to club with them since last yr? well finally, thanks to our dear uncle ben, we gt to go.. :) it was bridge in sch first.. omg i can't believe we went back to sch to just play bridge, dinner at botak jones.. had this turkey sausage with ws.. a bit salty but nice portion.. :) next time must try the cajun chicken.. it just looks too tempting already.. we set off for MOS.. :) it was still early... thus ben decided to give us a tour ard clark quay.. wow there r so many changes.. it has been ages since i have been out there.. :) all the pubs look sooooo cool.. must check them out one day.. esp with the theme of a hospital.. cool... :)

i was just thinkin if i will meet my old frens there and the next moment saw my sec classmates.. omg.. must buy 4D or sth... too many coincidences until it freaks me out.. :P finally went into MOS.. was a little disappointed at first as most of the rooms were closed.. wanted to bring the gals to check it out.. but well.. we pretty much enjoyed ourselves.. din we..it started of with ben's wld ya quesitons again.. got a little.. hmmm private.. heheeh.. ask me for the questions.. :P we were at it for 2 freaking hrs? finally manage to get everyone's butt down to the dance floor.. :P our dear drey can really move.. wow.. i was wow by her.. :P shld check her dance moves man.. prob at grad ball :P got alittle bored at the main floor.. and decided to check out the retro room..that is the happening one man.. :P nice songs.. haha drey totally went insane when they were playin her fav music.. so cute.. when she was like ARGH>> my fav music and went back to shake.. so cute... i hope everyone had fun... and really enjoyed this session.. hope to see more to come.. :P hint hint..

Children and woman...

Y do pple have kids? for procreation? for the sake of having children? for completin the defination of family? just follow the crowd? for fun? for security reasons? to please parents? society pressure/ peer pressure? tons of reasons... ya.. this brings me to the point are children an object parents use to compare and show off? many of times i realised it seem like it.. esp in our context.. parents often want the best for their children.. really cos they want the best for their children or so tt they don't lose out in this society and can show them off.. how many times have u ever heard your dad boasting.. wah my son got XX scholarship.. or.. my daughter got top in class? they have so high hopes on us...it will be quite saddening if we cannot meet it.. expectations are often high.. and often we hope to fuifil them.. don't we? but when will this race stop... will it ever.. when will this cycle end.. will it ever? hmmm will i become such a parent in future? hmmmmmm......interesting ya...

do ya noe tt woman has to speak 5000-6000 words a day while a man just have 1000-2000... and most of the time they use their quota during work.. while woman will have endless of them.. maybe tt explains y woman likes to nag and nag.. and man hate them.. hmm well now u noe tt we have at least 3 times more words to be used up per day.. so just let the woman speak.. and just listen bah.. once she hits her quota... she will keep quiet.. :P i think the channel 8 9pm show quite cute.. can check it out..

monday aint tt blue

woke up really late this morning.. did some unpacking.. it was a lazy morning.. din really want to go back to find uncle ben to settle sth.. but i am glad tt i went back.. it was really fun plannin certain things... i bet the games will be damn fun.. and we shall make it a memorable one for u guys... i hope we do..

realised alot of things today.. alot of pple do care for me.. in one way or another.. some show it.. show don't, some show it differently while others keep it in their hearts.... touched by the different actions and ways of expressing.. i really do.. u guys mean alot to me.. okies maybe some of u may not agree.. but i do try to do whatever i can already.. still tryin though.. but do i stand another chance to create more stories together? hmmmm sth which i dare not to think....

fang gave me a video.. saw it just now.. really touched by it.. as usual was tearin towards the end.. i do agree with the contents in it.. you have been a special fren in my life.. i treasure the initial stages of frenship where u opened up to me alot.. and i sincerely hope that things will work out well for us in future... thank you for creating a beautiful chapter in my life.. and hoping that more chapters will come..

weekend was really great!!!!

weekend was fantastic.... it was really rechargin and reflecting.. took a well-deserved break.. did all my fav things.. had a PINK candy floss, a PINK donut, bought a pair of shoes, sang K at 2000m abv sea level.. the stars shone for me on the way back.. it was really really sweet.. wanted to check out the merry-go-around but i guess i was too old.. it was a great trip.. though short but i had sooo much fun...

it has been an eye-opener for me i guess so far.. i saw many sides of pple ard me.. really touched by the things tt they have done.. i am really... maybe u might think all these are some other mushy words tt i use to say.. but NO.. i am sure this time round..

Lucky do i think i am? DEFINITELY.. Love am i by others, there is no doubt to it.. Treasure and Doted... What more can i ask for? somtimes i think i am the luckiest gal on earth.. i have my family who will always be there for me... my frens who will stand by me or offer me advices.. my piano who allows me to de-stress, my blog where i can write my tts.. want to put behind certain things and move on....

Some tts:
had a great chat with stef... asked her wat will she do if someone was panickin and stress cos of a prob? will she scold the person or try to calm them down.. her ans was y bother to scold if s/he was panickin? it will make the person feel even worse!!! calm the person down and try to come with a solution.. if the person actually bothers to panick, it meant tt s/he noes tt s/he is in the wrong and wants to make up for it.. Unless the person dun bother, okies scolding is a way to wake the person up.. and remindin the urgency of the problem.. there r just some things i noe u pple meant well for me.. i appreciate the care and concern and the suggestions.. i really do.. i guess things has not been really rosy for some of us.. tension seems to be in the air.. i do feel it.. aint a block of wood.. i hope things will work out soon.. thanks stef for the fab trip.. :)

thanks gals....

the past 24 hrs has been really bad... cld not catch much of zz.. everyone's worryin for me.. sorry abt it.. i din mean to... i am really touched for all the things u pple have done... really appreciate it.. still can't believe tt i made such a stupid mistake.. can't forgive myself at least for now.. but will learn from it.. and grow out of it... someone said tt i shld be stronger... shld not cry so easily.. maybe i shld learn tt huh... give me some time... as a sayin.. a leapord will never change its spots.. prob take time and through mistakes tt i learn...i prob just need a tiny bit more time than the rest... jia yo everyone... hopefully i will be back a different person...

some tts...

the past few weeks has been really an emotional rollercoaster ride for me.. and maybe pple ard me.. i treasure the highs and experienced lots of lows...many times i just wish that i can escape from this world just for a while.. just to breathe... just to recharge.. and i will be in a better position to think and make decisions... am i too weak? am i a coward? am i a bud not able to withstand all the stress and sucummb to it.. i think i really need to get away to somewhere to have the soul consoled...

pple tell me tt i tend to think too much and most of the time negative way... maybe i am just being emotional... dun want ot find any excuses for it already.. cos it just me... change? it is not overnight........ time is the impt factor...

i guess life is ain't rosy and a bed of roses... even with a bed of roses, there r thorns.. it is true these when we grow stronger... think negatively?? we will grow older and tired...

dislike the feeling of uncertainity.... it sucks big time... sorry to someone.. having to put certain issues on hold.. i noe tt feeling sucks.. things will get into place soon... i din meant it to be this way... but things r just not the right time for me.. at least.. jia yo for ur papers... :)

let me escape from all these for a while.. i really need to recharge...

Rainbows..

Desipte the gloomy skies,

a beautiful rainbow greeted me with a smile this morning.....

The colours shown brightly as the day gets by

bringing colours into my life....

painting beautiful pictures....

However good things always end in a blink

the raindow disappeared

drawing colours away from my life

leaving me behind black and white

when will the rainbow

shine in my life again?

Decisions and more...

today's entry is going to be a gloomy one.. had a pretty rough day today... have been really drained and tired since dunno when.. i guess everyone is...was really tired doing certain things today.. cld nt concentrate.. hope tt things turn out well in the end.. crossin my fingers...

had a gd talk with jie today.. really poured my heart out to her... told her alot of things which maybe others din want to hear.. it was a nice chat.. i guess now we r pretty open with things.. i like this feeling. we r learning to work with each other styles....

had a pia session with the rest today till 11pm.. omg.. took a cab home.. quite drained but going back to books later.. must jia yo everyone... back to sch to mug tml...

decisions... dun really like the fact tt i am forced into decision within such a short time.. wish i really had more time do think of certain things better... wish i had more advice on certain things... really feel quite pek chek... it is not i can't work under stress.. but i dun like to decide impt decisions within a limited. time.. wish i had tt extra breathing corner...

To everyone: thanks for the concern and care... there r many things i need to sort out myself.. and hopefully will be back on feet again.. jia yo.. :)

a consoled soul.....

had a really good chat with she-beng.. never tt we can really have a heart to heart talk.. told her abt the past events and my feelings.. well i had been really emo this week.. it was a really bad week for me... so kinda needed someone to tell who understand my situation.. thanks she-beng.. thanks for being there when i really needed an ear..

she pointed out that there r different types of pple.. the hard-hearted.. and the soft-hearted ones.. the 2 individuals have to learn to live well with each other.. well won't discuss much abt the former.

just prob tell ya more abt her opinions on the soft-hearted since she classify me under tt :) being someone who is soft-hearted, i tend to take others' feelings very seriously.. i want pple ard me to be happy and den i will be.. hence somtimes we tend to be thrown into situations where decisions r tough to make.. cos we just want to make everyone happy.. not knowing sometimes this might be sth irrtating.. this is a quality tt i have.. i am not askin anyone to bear with it.. but if anyone wants me to make decisions.. do keep this in mind... also for the soft-hearted pple.. things r not so simple ABC or 1,2,3..at least i don't..there certain things which i dun say w/o thinkin it throughly..... i will care for wat other think and whether i will do sth which will hurt them.. there r so many considerations... before a decision is made.. this may or may not hurt anyone in the end.. it really depends..

she-beng suggested that i shld just go with my heart and do thing which i want.. and not live for others.. i will be damn drained tired. and in the end everyone is not happy.. perhaps.. it shld be the way.. ya? but i guess there is so much to learn from each other and to live in this world.. workin hard to it.. perhaps my job can train me in this... i am still hopeful..

exams r here.. i noe it has been a really tough week.. really hope tt everyone jia yo.. pulls thr this all tog... it will end really really soon... work hard to memorise everything.. omg!!! okies back to books... jia yo!!

Down.....

y do i feel so down these days..stress? tired? or just PMISNG... argh really hate this feeling...has been ard for 2 days... brain just not workin properly and eyes feels so strained... hope that things will get better tml...

how come i dun feel any happier after i said and have done certain things? wat kind of feelings i shld get? hmmm sad? happy? relieved? confused? it is all sort of feeling tt i have.. really mixed and can't be describe... it has nt been really going smoothly for me at least for the past weeks.. alot of conflicting feelings.. y do i get this.. i am so unsure.. so uncertain.. abt everything.. am i in the wrong? have i done things which i shld not.. unsure again.. am i takin things too seriously... shld i just relax and take things easier.. it is just not me.. i dun want to think... not for now at least... i am so scared tt i may say things which i may not mean it.. i think i am not even making sense here.. okies better stop writing rubbish....

Life is as simple as one, two, three..

Had a rough day at school, tried to study.. but only manage alittle.. not very productive day.. was pretty upset with certain things.. really bad in expressing myself.. think i shld go and take up some courses.. well but came up with this poem..

Life is as simple as one, two, three..

Although I am as blurr as a sotong,

tt is just only one side of me..

The others may be basking in the light

But I was never in the dark

The machines were aliens to me

But thanks for being my friend :)

Entering a new phase of my life,

Matters of the heart are not in the cards

Come April 23rd,

I hope you remain as my friend.

THe Start of A New Beginning

today marks the end of the honours yr.. it was the poster symposium day where everyone had to be in formal attire and give their best presentation to their examiners. it is a nice experience which i will keep it with me 4ever.. the day went well with good food and company.. i guess the highlight of the day was really the banquet.... it was a time where i proved that fact that boys will always be boys.. and when woman will hope that they will grow into man.. someday..i hope.. i salute those who really can control their actions and for those who can't.. i really hope u do someday.. this going to be a long entry.. so bear with me...

To boss:
Thank you for accepting me into the group... you r nt only my supervisor, but my mentor, like a father to me.. it is really enjoyable talking to you where u will share your opinions, your wisdom, your knowledge with us.. it is sth which i will treasure greatly..thank you boss..

To Shifu:
I noe i have been a real trouble for ya this yr.. apologise for tt first :P just want to say a BIG thank you!!!! you have not only been my shifu in my work.. but in all other aspects in life... You have inspired me in everything.. be it my personal life, my workin attitudes, my goals, my character... i am really fortunate to noe u as my shifu... thank you for all the memorable things u have done to brighten up my life. THank you for all the advices and comments... these are things which i will never 4get... to me,,, u have been a special part in my life.. :)

To my clique( XP, JY, HF, Xl, HH, DREY,Uncle Ben):
it has been an amazing yr with u gals and the MAn in the lab... each of u gals play a special role in my life.. drey and HH will always be the encouraging ones... who never fails to assure me when i need it.. thanks for the beautiful comments always reminding me tt i can do it.. XP and HF, thanks for reminding me tt i am living in reality and not in LALALAND.. the scoldings sometime i get from ya i noe they r good for me.. and i noe deep down u gals really care for me.. appreciate it.. JY.. or shld i say aifen to be? hahaha okies.. it has been a great sem with ya.. thanks for listening to me when i really needed an ear... XL, u never fails to contribute to the group with ur voice.... i suppose we can always count on ya call the waitress when we r out for a meall.. :P. Uncle Ben!!!!!! thanks for the endless reminders on work and also the concern u have for us... and i will miss all the Wld Ya questions... it will be deeply missed..

To the ONe:
It has been great knowing u better in the 2nd sem.. I always noe tt i can count on a big bro like ya for things.. ( everyone shld agree here!!!!! last man standing, no joke). Thanks for the company during the toughest times this yr... sleepless nights.. and pia-ing together online.. THanks for the love and concern u showered on us.. ( i bet everyone else wld want to thank ya for tt too... ok, i help them too here.. :p) i suppose u have been the pillar of support for many... and they really appreciate it.. never lose this ability of urs. and work hard towards a great future... i believe u will have.. :) good luck in finding tt special someone to create a new future with.. :) (PS: sometimes mum will noe ya the best.. )

to my new found frens ( lab or honours):
it has been great knowing u pple... u have a special place in my heart and life.. life will be so monotoneous without you guys.. thanks for all the wonderful stories we have created together.. i sincerely wish the best in everything u guys do in future.. :)

the end of my education years..

sipping my camomile tea.. argh.. feelin so satisfied and relax? hmmm okies still got symposium tml and exams... but it has come to an end.. tough it has been... i think i survived this yr cos of u guys.. u made the tough days.. a breeze.. those drinkin days. those lunches.. those siao moments... omg.. r deeply etched in my heart and mind.. tml.. marks a special day for all of us.. the final day? i think all of us will be flyin to the moon after tt.. i really hope so..

my fren's mum intro a gal to him today.. so cute.. haha.. this days still got such things.. but really tough to say.. maybe tt turns out the be tt gal leh? heheeh hehe ..... my mum always hope tt i marry my neighbour.. she always say how gd he is.. how good lookin he is.. omg.. omg.. want to faint..actually sometimes i just wished she will match-make me with someone.. den i no need to find someone and have the risk of her not likin him.. one criteria tt i have is.. tt my family must accept him.. my family is very impt to me.. so i guess things will be easier if my mum likes him and match-make us.. okies i hear alot of SLAP, bleah!!! AHAH okies.. this is the slack way out.. but i am happy now.. :).. leading a happening life.. and it is goin to be damn busy i am sure.. :)

Priorities

as we grow up.. there r many things we need to complete and do.. it is not just so simple completeing the education system and ensuring one get gd grades. alot of job interviews i went to require me to priortise and multi-task.. sth which i am still learning.. workin hard on it...

grades.. or rather good grades.. is sth which many of us desire and work hard for it.. come to think abt it.. is it the most impt thing in life? in 10 yrs time, wld ya tell ur children or frens tt u got hmmm 10 A1s in sec sch? will it be the topic in future topics? there r so many things in life other than it.. i admit i once use to think that grades is my life.. GOOD ones... i will be upset if i din get a certain mark... haha foolish? maybe...it were the days when i never really tt abt future and wat i really want to do.. and my only priority were grades.. as u grow older, one will realise life is not as simple as ABC.. gettin good grades may land ya in a good job.. but tt is just it.. the world out there is complex and it needs more than just good grades..

I admire pple who noe wat the want in life and realised that uni education is a just a bridge for it.. they will work towards their goals and plan for the future..my sis is a damn good eg.. she works hard for wat she wants... seein her so tired out really slapped me hard in the face... Me? will get stumped on questions like wat do u see urself in 5 yrs time? and i will just come out with sth to get it over with.. tt shld nt be the way. i think it is really time i sit down and ask myself wat i really want in 5 yrs time, 10 yrs.. 20yrs.. or even 50 yrs... plan plan plan is wat i shld do....
i hope pple who r in the same situation as me.. will find their path too.. :)

love the track

met up with beng for lunch.. it has been ages since we met up for a meal.. he has always wanting to meet me for a meal but i super busy... this time pretty much insisted b4 i leave sch... :) well i am lookin forward to the roses and chocolates tt he promise to get during my grad ceremony.. :) nice chap.. but just my part time bf and no more.. though i am askin him to be my sugar daddy.. :)

was tryin to mug in sch today.. but really.. dunno if i were too tired.. it was hard.. nothing seems to go in.. waited for the rest and went for a jog. they went to jog ard sch.. i chose the track.. cos my stamina can't compare to theirs... the jog was shiok!!! it was refreshing though i was feelin damn tired.. but i enjoyed it alot.. okies u gals must be thinkin tt i am mad!!!!! after the jog.. i was walkin ard the track.. was thinkin abt alot of stuff.. did alot of reflection.. it has been ages since i did this.. i used to walk ard my jc track with stef when i was really upset.. this time. it was more of going thr wat i really want.. i enjoyed the quiet moment i had.. treasure it..

just another day?

today was a day of catchin up.. remembering the past and hoping for the future.. it was a nice chat with xp first..in her room.. i must really say tt bed is super sinful.... once ya on it.. it is just lalaland.... cfm!!! it was nice to hear her stuff and her listenin to my stuff.. at least i am clearer abt wat i want.. a good assurance booster... :) met up with the rest for lunch.. wow!! had a fantastic lunch.. not cos of the food.. it sucks. but it was the company.. caught the song Graduation.. wow.. it hit us again tt we r going to grad.. i hope so.... time really flies.. they were predicting tt i will cry at every event comin up.. haha.. fang even warned me to wear waterproof makeup.. haha.. we shall see... btw.. fang u look damn gd with tt new look!!! keep it up man!!!
had dinner with PAt.. was listeing to her teaching dayss.. man.. it is really true tt teachers talk abt sch kids.. interesting to listen though.. another energy and assurance booster from her.. it is always great to chat with her.. :) sth tt i learnt.. haha.. GUYs: never ask a gal if she has been skinny b4.... omg!!!! tt is totally an insult.. this line never exists in our dating dictionary.. :)

sunflowers...

rainbows...

shinning stars..

actors...

masks...

Masquerade...

Dark...

Blinded...

Lost...

VIVO city...

woke up at 6am this morning.. mummy really cute.. she came in just in time when i woke up.. wanted to switch off the air-con cos too cold. she came in den she was liek HUH!! u have nt zz.. den i was NO NO i slept!!! went back to zz.. woke up at 9 plus.. i was liek wat der.. heck went back to zz.. needed all the zz i cld get.. SHIFU!!! u must ZZ TOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

woke up at 11am.. had to lah.. cos needed to meet the rest at vivo to celebrate wansi's bday.. she wanted to wat at carnivore.. hmmm but went there. too crowded.. while waiting for them i went shoppin!!! was at 4ever 21.. tried on 2 dresses.. one white.. nt very flatttering.. the other was.. er nt matching dresses. but i look hot in it i think hah..

went to sushi tei.. omg.. i had a seafood paper boat!!!! there was crab, prawns, salmon.. and scallop!! omg i totally love tt.. had my fav baked salmon sushi!!! yum yum.. den we went to play ash hold dai dee at macs.. tt one can play for 3 hrs.. well done..

den we went back to VIVO.. wanted to shop.. well we did go to daiso.. den went to this pet shop.. omg they dogs were soooooc ute... cute cute cute.. oh.. i heard form a fren tt if a guy loves animals.. he is def a gd catch.. hmm how true is tt.. haha

den we went to play arcarde... omg.. we play this air hockey... paired up with suresh.. was against wansi and jie si.. hah the both sis.. haha omg.. we beat them flat... den aganst yurui and her bf.. haha.. well i was lettin in alot of own goals.. haha.. BUT!!!! in the end.. suresh and i won!! haha.. well done man!!!!

after tt went to food republic to eat.. nice session.. it kinda reminded me.. one of the sessions we have with uncle ben.. the wld ya.. uncle ben.. kinda miss it le... must have this kind of sessions sooon okies.. some questions.. there is this really hot one... how far will ya go in a r/s with ur parnter.. 1) hold hands, 2) hugs, 3) kiss, 4) petting and 5) SEX!!!! where do ya stand.. we chatted till liek omg.. close to 11 lor.. super fun.. liek such sessions... my criteria... sth which i din ans.. i think i am more a attraction person first.. i fall for pple easily.. alot of pple tell me tt too. but in order to sustain tt.. i think criteria will come in.. which i am still seraching for.. i never tjhink tt r/s is so simple.. i think alot.. and nt findin sth which i am not confident tt will work out... i must be sure b4 i get into.. for now.. it is nt really on my list.. let's leave this on hold for a while.. :).. so won't go and think abt it..

Lalalalalalalalla

la la lalalala la lala lalalalal... omg!!!!!!!! i am sooooo thrilled!!! it is finallly over... :).. really tired now.. but who cares.. man.. it is time to jsut nuah and relax... omg omg omg.. the past few days has been really busy.. packed with work.. nightless sleep.. tt is wat haha sgg calls it.. or is it their other way round.. brain nt functionin properly.. haha.. but.. happening.. too happening.. i want to express my gratitude to pple.. ESP MY ELDER!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!! I AM SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER TOUCHED.. not all over though no worries i am str!!! haha but thank u .. just liek u had learnt alot from ur elder.. i did too!!!!it is not only in terms of work...it has been an great journey.. dunno how it will be w/o u.. THANKS!!!!!!!! mus tthank those who stayed up with me .. i thikn if u guys nt ard.. i prob zz liao.. haha i noe i am siao. but it is aa great feelin to achieve certain things within such a short time.. super challenging!!!!

wow.. time really flies.. i rem the day when i first met the usual gang tt i hang out with... lunch sessions were sth which i looked forward to everyday, it still does.. i miss those days when all us just sat down for LLLLLOOOOOOONNNNNNGGGGG lunches.. today all of us r handin up our final report.. WOW!!!! scary.. scary..tml we r going to grad.. omg.. omg.. entering a new phase in life.. i am totally excited.. will miss u guys.. let's organise a trip to somewhere.. :) just to nuah and relaz... think the cruise idea quite cool can play bridge!!! okies dream time... my eyes r hardly open.. but fire in me still burns.. :)

chatting.. Friends..

had 2 chats today with 2 very impt pple in my life.. it was a very warm, nice, familiar feeling. it has been a long time i had such feelings with pple ard me.. everyone's really busy.. miss tt feeling.. learnt quite abit from them.. made me realised tt i have grown ( okies i noe sideways..) but i mean more of emo, intell, and ya ya size... :P

this yr saw many UPs and downs.. for me at least.. tough yr? ya i must say.. but i had pple ard me..encouraging and pushing me along.. it is a very warm feeling.. okies gettin really emo here.. i will really miss the days we spent tog.. be it running to the chem department and hand in stuff.. or da bao food and the ever soooo long lunch sessions.. outside the lab... well of course not forgeting the boozzzz man.. pick up the habit of drinkin... omg.. gettin more emo here.. ya of course not forgetin all the suaness!!! omg.. maybe i will miss them!!! okies.. but tt is nt a valid reason to cont..

i have grown i noe.... okie smore emo here again.. feelin like cryin.. DUN LAUGH!!! i noe.. was talkin on the topic of frens withone someone the other day.. he said he will miss pple ard him now.. esp things may be the same from next mth onwards.. true in a way..

my little sis told me b4.. look at the words friEND ... personally.. i think it is impossible to keep everyone single one of ya frens ard ya.. 4 ever.. there r different types of frens.. some which u will cry in front of when u really need to.. some whom u will call upon when u really stressed out.. i noe i have a few.. some whom will be more significant in a ceratin part in life than the rest.. when i mean end here i dun mean tt u will never be frens.. but more of u see less of each other.. well but eventually if the frenship ends... let it be.. but i believe tt if ya have made an impact in their lives.. tt will be sufficient.. no need to be sad over such things.. move on.. cos u will make new ones.. and create more exciting stories.. i will treasure watever i have and hope for the future.. :)

Fooling ard..

Ouch... have a swollen gum since yesterday... ouch ouch cld nt really eat for the whole day.. was chewing on the right side.. kinda reminded me of the days when i had my wisdom tooth taken out.. hope the swelling will subside really soon.. :)

woke up early this morning..wanted to do stuff... works' really piling up.. well but mum asked me to pick the clothes tt i wld be wearin for tue's interview.. wanted to go in another dress.. but... i tihnk this time i need to be more formal.. due to the nature or the job.. hmmm found sth nice.. really excited abit it.. but really can't imaging wearing shirt and skirt/pants to work daily.. omg.. tt is so freaky.. :) was talkin to a fren the other day.. i want to find a job tt allows me to wear my dresses.. haha okies.. i noe... i noe.. u pple going to say.. WHAT!!!!! okies.. tt shld nt be the way.. but still excited abt the future.. :)

fooling ard with more than 1 partner.. i think when it comes to matters of the heart.. one shld be really clear abt wat they want.. it is nt gd to give the wrong ideas or lead someone on.. cos pple do get hurt.. i hate it when guys fool ard and not even noe the gals tt they r with!!! tt is totally ridiculous!!!! (don't mind me. just watched UGLY betty!!!) oh also.... there was this part, tt when a ugly gal flirted.. everyone gave her werid looks... only pretty gals can flirt ard and get guys? those who r less fortunate in the looks department can't???? YYYYY... i think everyone has the potential.. it is a matter they want to or not.. hmmm okie si noe i am being one-sided.. there r pretty gals who dun too.. well just a tt... well but i tink a word of caution..don't over do it.. i think it is never good to play ard with guy's feelings.. they r humans afterall...

Regrets...

have ya have any regrets.. some of us do... was watching a tv serial just now.. a couple saw the guy giving into the r/s more than the gal.. but she never realised how much he has done for her. she jsut treated him as per norm.. until the day when he got into an accident and lost his memory.. well he forget who she is.. and the gal suddenly feels super lost. it is only then she realised how much he has done for her.. always there for her when she needed him.. y do pple only realised the importance of things when they lose it. i think it is good to do self-reflections on the daily events and re-think if there was regret or u took someone close for granted.

OR... have ya regret sayin certain things or not tellin someone certain things... i think do things and follow your heart and do not regret.. :)

busy busy day...

been really busy.. recently.. many deadlines to meet.. the office was in full force today with all of us in ... everyone was rushin stuff.. it is nice feelin to see everyone workin tog... so hard.. and supporting and encouraging each other.. of course it wld nt be been possible w/o the higher lifeforms and the highest lifeform... they were really supportive.. and helped us alot.. thanks!!!! i guess the tradition maybe put into action eventually :) thanks again.. i bet next week will be another week liek this.. jia yo everyone!!!!

JOb Interviews...

went for a job interview at TTSH. it is my first.. for this yr.. :) had to miss a lesson cos the interview.. tried really hard to push bakc the interview but the director was only free to meet me then.. i only comfrimed the interview time on wed night.. went in my dress.. mum said tt i shld go in shirt and skirt.. more formal.. i told her very waitress and so nt me.. i want to go in sth which i am comfortable in and confident. :) look pretty sweet in the dress i think.. a fren commented tt.. :) it was a cabbin day.. went there in a cab and back to sch.. i am gettin really lazy..

the interview went wel.. it is a job which i can c myself workin in.. hmmm hope to hear from them again.. the director seem like a great person to work under..got another one next tues.. super excited abt tt one.. but i think it wld be going to be tough.. but den will go for it and see how it goes.. :)

had a really packed day..

today was a pretty rushed day.. had to do stuff every single moment.. it din help tt there were many changes to certain stuff.. it does nt reflect very well on the way they do things.. i am nt cocky!! but this is ain't the way things shld be done. pretty irritated!!! argh...

went to the bazzar.. din noe it exist.. bought ice-cream.. ( happy food).. had cookies and cream and rum and rasin.. wowo..yum yum.. the guys sellin i think student.. not very pro in scooping the ice-cream. it was dripping outside.

i think this is a time when everyone's tolerance level is super low. i believe that for sth to happen, it takes 2 hand to clap.. never one sided.. i maybe the catalyst but one still need the reagents b4 it can work.. okies this sounds too chemistry... i don't think i am the worse.. learing to control emtions is sth which i am still working on..

the bed looks sooo tempting..

omg... it is 12.08am as i blog.. my hair is still wet from the wash.. feelin really tired.. but need to do stuff.. so i guess.. yup.. workin late.. let's see.. wat happen to me today.. :) well ran some stuff today.. wanted to cfm certain things.. i did!! wow.. small achievement i guess.. but better than nothing.. oh.. i have a new middle name.. it used to be sweet.. i guess now.. to describe my life.. it is SHITO!!! wat to do.. but i will survive..

want to thank alot of pple who r there for me esp during this period of time..ermh... must give special thank to the person who gave me goat's milk yesterday and today.. a peanut pancake.. omg.. i am on the verge of being 黑黑胖胖！！！！！ but it was a sweet action.. let see tml wat it will be!!! really touched... omg.. feel like cryin liao.. sob sob.. but i get touched super easily one!!!! like gettin me my fav ice-cream when i am cravin for it also can!!! :) omg.. OH NO!!! i need to start to save up for the abalone... shark's fin.. faint.. i think the next two weeks cannot eat liao.. :( haha.. okei sokies.. must jia yo!!!! everyone!! the bed still looks damn tempting... ooooooooooooo....

stefy!!! so happy for ya!!! hope tt u liek the job!!!

Lala land...

feeling a little high now.. think i have past the stage where i am super tired.. and entered my lala land.. it has been a really super long day.. the rain in the morn made me want to zz in ... but i pulled myself out of the bed.. cos i was excited abt some idea runnin in my mind.. first thing was to check the EA lab out.. well but i found out i cld nt do the stuff i wanted too.. a little disappointed.. walked back to lab.. and met fang on the way.. i din even see her.. was too engrossed in thinkin wat i shld do next..

went on to prep stuff to run... spend ard 4 hrs.. running the stuff.. wow... it is freaking long.. omg.. din had lunch.. was feelin super hungry throughout.. thanks for staying throughout man!!! really appreciate it.. luckily we both din faint of hunger. haha.. well at least this time i din whine when i am hungry.. ahah.. in norm days i wld.. well the stuff i ran din realyl help.. so yupz.. back to sq one.. runnin sth tml if i can get the time.. omg.. i think after all these i prob touched all the instruments i possible can..

was so hungry.. but cld nt eat.. felt like throwing up all the time.. think too much wind in the stomach liao.. dinner was macs.. was struggling to finish my food too.. omg..

had a regular chatting session during dinner with my kakis.. we were talkin abt lots of things.. like will ya feelin insercure if ya partner is super good looking.. den we went onto .. will ya cont to date someone if ur family is against it.. den we went onto.. how wld ya reject a guy.. hmmmm it is so my topics. ahha. i always ask such werid werid questions.. think most of them cannot stand it liao..

went to chit chat with my elder.. haha.. so nice she gt me goat's milk.. she went to a farm!! OMG!!! i so want to go prawning..... !!!wow.. there is the after taste.. omg.. i dun rem drinkin goat's milk b4 leh.. but she so cute.. anyway.. it is supposed to be damn nutritious.. i think all of us need it badly now. haha thanks... really apprectiate the sitting down and chit chattin session.. :) i noe u r reading this... thanks thanks!!! :) for the salsa performance tt u promised on my behalf..... i will dance if double OH 2.. do her hip hop.. :) which is pretty much impossible.. haha

Way Back Into Lurveeeee..

There are moments when I dont know if its real

or if anybody feels the way I feel

I need inspiration, not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I cant make it through without a way back into love

and If I open my heart to you

Im hopin you'll show me what to do

and if you help me to start again

you know that I'll be there for u in the end

went to watch music and lyrics just now.. needed a break so just went out to catch the show.. have been dyin to watch it..but all my gfs have watched it.. so went with pple tt had not.. i had high expectations of the show.. but the movie was so gd tt i was beyond my expectations.. :) it is a must watch.. and i may go back for a 2nd time.. it is tt gd... i norm won't watch a movie 2 times.. :)

my fav part was when Alex sang the part Don't write me off.. OMG!!!! it was super touching touching... almost teared.. haha.. but i din.. must control.. cannot go everywhere to cry.. :_ ( after seeing tt part, one of my guy fren casually mentioned to another guy fren tt if ya want to chase a chi gal. must learn how to play an instrument.. haha.. how true is tt i wonder.. play instruement is nt enough bah... must compose a song for her.. i think she will be super touched.. but den again not all the gals r the same.. haha some will jsut laugh it off? hmmmmm

was talkin to someone just now.. he was sayin tt guys prefers gals tt r difficult to get than those u can find one streets or easy to get. i mean i totally agree too. i believe tt guys r hunters by nature.. they need to chase in order to treasure their preys.. :) but he went on to say tt there is tt kind whom are unreachable.. all i can say.. it is nt considered unreachable.. i think gals noe wat they want.. they noe wat and who they r lookin for.. if they dun like ya or just treat ya as a fren.. it is just a fren.. no matter how hard he chase.. they r just frens.. have seen cases b4. well but of course nothing is impossible... if the gal feels tt the guy is genuine and treats her really well in the long run.. and there r no factors tt prevent this r/s... Y not? :)

a CLean sat..

woke up at 8am with the help of the alarm clock.. had a family breakfast.. mum gt my fav nasi lemak.. yum yum... wanted to go sch to do stuff early.. but well family breakfast is impt.. went back to sch to clean up the place.. wow.. never tt spring cleanin cld be soo..rejunivating.. okies u guys must be thinkin tt i am mad... it was nice.. at least it takes my mind off work for awhile..

wanted to watch music and lyrics really badly today... wanted to just stop wat i am doing and escape for a while.. i can't work with a tired soul and stress mind.. wanted to watch so badly till i din even mind a 950pm show.. omg.. i must be really mad.. doing werid things.. well there was no tics.. otherwise i shld be sittin in some theatre watchin the show.. :) prob won't catch it liao.. with next week really packed.. and all the deadlines to meet..

listening to like a shinnig star by fly to the sky... the song tt i was repeating on thursday night.. i guess i have really quiet recently.. and all my posts has been really depressing.. mood swings r high recently.. stress? maybe? tired? maybe? drained? maybe? i really wished that everything will be over really soon.. and i just want to move on...

The defination of rich and poor...

What is Rich and What is Poor.. do ya measure it in terms of money.. at this moment.. to me rich is the ability to live life to the fullest though u have no money.. okies.. i can hear the sounds of me being realistic.. What is the defination of Sweet to ya. Is it a candlelight dinner for 2 in some posh restaurant? OR... just a homecook meal... nothing beats the latter.. no doubt money is impt.. but it can never buy certain things.... frenship.... Trust... care and concern.... love.... and so much more... wat is being rich when u have nothing else.. except for money... hmmmm

hmm i am super tempted to just go somewhere where simple life is lead.. and experience for awhile b4 coming back to this busy lifestyle.. i want to get back the feelin of feelin satisfied.. grateful.. thankful.. i think it is very recharging.. and soul-seraching.. hmmm.. maybe shld start planning..

i miss that smile..

An aching body...

A searching mind...

A tired soul...

that seeks comfort...

A beautiful smile...

that is fake...

A pair of eyes...

that are soaked in tears...

A heart that is dead...

the tt is still running...

A will that is weak...

that slows in time

footsteps heavier...

actions delayed...

tears flowing...

losing someone...

my pig sty

omg.. my rm is really in a mess.. i am living in a pig sty... books r all over the place.. and notes and journals.. looks liek it is a gd place for lizards to hide and i so dislike them... but i dare nt to kill them.. i c them i run away.. i think my mummy will scream at me really.. soon.. but she dare nt to disturb me now.. :)

spend the whole day.. at home doing stuff.. nt bad..but still workin hard.. need to speed up abit more.. too slow liao.. had a fun time at home with my sis too!! she was playin fly to sky songs.. omg.. they have such goood voice.. tt kind u will melt in ...ooooooo.. almost instantly.. :) okies.. i am crazy. but their music is tt kind cannot listen and do work one... one bad thing abt workin at home is i tend to take naps.. hmmm nt too good.. haha no time liao.. still zz.... really piggy!!!! OINK OINK... think will be rollin in mud so soooooon... good good.. can do a spa.. :)

spoke to mummy today.. reassured her on some things.. it is one of the reasons y i stayed at home today too.. she said certain things which i really dun agree.. but den she is older n wiser.. i respect her opinions.. tough for me on my side though... it has been a tough few days for both of us.. i just hope that things will eventually work out and be fine.. jia yo!!!! i can do it...

long day?

reached home half an hour ago.. grab a chicken n mushroom bun.. plus cold milo... it has been a really long long day.. stayed in sch till 10plus.. luckily.. i gt a lift to mrt.. i guess i shld nt complain since i stay so near.. okeis okies i shan't..

din really zz well last night.. many things were runnin thr my mind... went to bed only like 1 plus.. well i guess i only fell asleep den bah.. woke up at 5am... went back to zz.. wanted to slp a little more.. but ended up wakin at 8... went to print stuff.. and headed for sch.. ran ard today pretty much.. was in the sian.. and I AM NOT THERE MOOD.. GOSH as i type.. the rain is gettin heavier outside.. tt is quite abt it for the day's happenings..

i dunno y it is a big fuss over such a small trival thing.. at least to me it is small... sometimes.. feelin really restricted tt i can't make my own choices and live the way i want.. y things can't be as simple as ABC and 123....hmmmmm i hope things will die down and back to norm...

CLose frens

went out with stef for dinner today.. she came to pick me up from sch.. den went to pick her bro.. at ACS (international) (PS: her bro is super cute.. haha.. ) he drove us to SUNtec.. was craving for marche food.. :) but went there.. it was closed... DOWN!!!! okies so we tt maybe country mania was there.. cos the othertime we went it was closed to.. so went there.. i guess it really nt our day... it was closed down too.. OMG!! this is freaky.. we settled for coffee club.. had my rosemary chicken... after which... while waitin for stef who was in the toilet.. i went to check out dresses.. really hooked.. on them.. okies...

sth on the serious side... pple tend to take things for granted esp.. when it is easily obtained.. this happens esp with ppel who see each other almost everyday.. they tend nt to treasure the small things tt one do for each other daily.. and treated it as per norm... it is nice.. to say thank you.. or just a smile a day.. will def brighten one's day... okies... stef was tellin me tt her bro is a damn nice dude.. he is tt kind will let ya bully.. but there is a threshold.. for him it is high.. but once u hit it.. there is no way turning back..

hmmm now back to my topic for today... close frens.. they do nt happen overnight, over secs, over mins.. over a sunrise... it takes time to build this frenship... it takes time to build tt trust level the connection level.. the clickishness.. if there is such a word... and it is different for individuals.. for me.. some r really fast attained. while others need efforts to explore... but i need to feel tt ur sincerity in being frens with me... and next is the turst level... close frens does nt always need to tell each other. tt hey.. this is wat i really meant.. i think it shld be more of spontaneous.. enough have said for today... i supposed...

learnt a bitter truth today... well.. it is still for me to decide if i shld follow.. hmmmm

Assurance...

it always feel gd to get assurance from ya frens... nice to noe tt there r always pple who think well of ya.. and also.. who actually do bothers abt ya... haha.. okies dun worry.. i noe i am nt tt bad... i mean i noe at least i am not some dumb ass.. who goes ard blurr and being innocent.. faintz.. pretty much hate it when pple says tt.. but den again.. it can be a nice mask i supposed...

Trust is a big isssue btw me and my frens.. it is sth which i treasure btw frens when i have it with them... when i do... it means tt i really do.. there is no going back from there.. well it has its cons... but it is a priniciple i live by....

was watching UGLY Betty just now... damn cool show.. talks abt a gal who is super erhmmm the title says it.. UGLY ... welll for this case it is apperance... superficial it may be in this world.. and i bet it do... for me.. no matter how good lookin u r... if ya have a really sucky character.. u will def fall alot in ranks... a good hearted but plain lookin person might be a prince or princess.... i read from somewhere tt woman r much better in character judgement.. hmm sounds pretty dejavu.. i think i wrote sth liek tt b4..

i think for many girls.. they don't need brad pit or tom cruise.. someone tt they can bring out to boast.. they jsut need someone tt they can trust.. and be there for them.. cheer them up when they r down.. listen and NOT provide solutions when times .. and give in to them when necessary. haha ( sound familar).. i just need someone i can really trust.. guys.. prob want a hot babe..at least presentable.. bah... someone they can bring out to show off to their frens.. and hence.. they might nt be off better judges in character.. well.. i noe this does nt apply to all guys lah... i better mention this b4 some of u guys get totally offended... correct me if i am wrong.. :P

a well rested day..

had been really tired for the past few weeks... till sometimes.. to the extent of acting strangely.. it was a nice break from last night.. had a fab time at the BBQ... rekindled my love for children once again.. when i saw the innocence they have in them... omg.. it kinda reminded me of my YEP days.. when i spend so much time with the children there in Dali..

was reading the newspaper on divorce... the articles mention how much harm it can do to children.. some of which even mention that.. the children of such backgrd will nt be confident in entering a r/s or even marrying.. well... for now.. pple whom i noe tt come from such bkgrds r doing pretty well.. they are hopeful of the future and do want to find someone they can spend the rest of their lives with.... for me... i will only have kids when i am confident of providing the best for them.. at least a complete family...

today, spent most of my time resting and sleeping... i think the best way to move on is to recharge.. :) i sure do have a long way ahead... must jy! jy!!

many things happened in the past week...was pretty irrtated with someone.. for sayin certain things out... but i guess i pretty much clarify things out... so now i am ok liao.. i just want to say.. sometimes.. i might say things which i may nt mean tt seriously... and i have a tendancy to forget too.. esp when i am liek super tired now.. okies i noe tt is def nt an excuse.. i am horrible in expressing myself.. okies maybe... shld start to keep quiet.. and tone down abit... hmmmm